they honored me last year at the waldorf astoastoria. i knew them. i was going to give them to three companies or three groups and we couldn't vet them quickly and so we gave them to the marine. if you look at that number, the marine corps law enforcement foundation is a fabulous group and i didn't have to go through a big vetting process with them because i was going to split the million dollar checkup among three or four different groups. in the end i just didn't want to go through the process of having to vet all those different groups. >> why do you resent just the verification process that is natural? >> because i wanted to make this out of the goodness of my heart. i didn't want to do this with the press is all involved. then we said who it went to. how much was it. we gave -- look, when this started, i think you were there. i said if we could raise a million dollars, that would be good and we ended up raising almost $6 million. i'm going to have more coming in over a period of time. >> don't you believe you should be accountable to the people?