and ty dodon't have missisi, and ty dodon't have anit, tt't's lo w whaleads to t isosotion, whicicthen canead to t the dg and alhol abuse, which then very often leads to suicide. and whahat i have foundnd from e vveterans i've interviviewed is that theyey really hahad to seek their own salalvation and find their own way back into what we would call civilizationon-- that, youou know, the civiliaian world. there's something about farming, and working with the soil, and wworking w with livingng plantsd with livestock ananimals that after you've been n in a culture of death and war, to bee in a culture of life and sustaining and d creating life, isis deeply hehealing. >>>> you know, i'm m not ashamef my service or what happened in iraq, , but i learned that i ifu know, when working with living things you become a nurturer instead of a destroyer. and t that was rereally--that ws a really significant realizazatn for me. >> the thing about it is we come out here and work outside in fresh air. you know, i don't care how i felt last night or how good i didn't sleep last night because of issues that i