and you may have seen william shatner, when he flew on new shepherd, and he came back, he saw everything, the blackness, and how -- there's -- the nothingness, and he described it as death, and said, look, this is the one little pool of life that we -- in this entire solar system, it's truly incredible. and you get -- it is a profound experience that's hard to describe. but that morning, something else happened to me that is -- was very personal, we're getting ready to go at 4:45 in the morning, and, you know, my whole family is there, some close friends, extended family, 35, 40 people there, and by the way, i'm going on the first human flight of this vehicle. and so, it's never flown people before. and my poor mother, what's worse is, i'm bringing my brother with me. so, it's me and my brother, and we wake up getting ready to go to the launch site, and kind of, you know, we weren't really expecting, but everybody, of course, is awake and there to say good-bye. but they thought they were saying good-bye forever. and which -- it was surprising to me. it wasn't expecting this, but they wer