but it's someone else's life and if i'm wrwrg, and i kill someone else, i can't live with that. >> reporter: how emotional was it to be a juror in this case? >> i mean, there were quite a few people when we got back after the verdict was read, we were in tears. >> reporter: why were you crying after you handed down a not guilty verdict on murder? >> not guiuiy doesn't mean innocent. it doesn't mean innocent. >> reporter: how do you feel about that? that you may have let a woman who murdered her own daughter walk off that charge? >> it doesn't feel good. it was a horrible decision to have to make. but i had to do it based on the law. >> reporter: how much did the fact that this was a death penalty case weigh on you in the course of the trial and in your deliberations? >> it weighs heavily. it's pretty -- it's the ultimate, like, it's as big as you can get. someone else's life in your hands. so, it's -- if they want to charge and they want me to take someone's life, they have to prove it. you have to prove it or else i'm a murderer, too, and i'm not any better. >> a juror speaks. well, just a