. >> i miss certain things, but you would be surised with what youeplace it with. here i am in a community of x guys, and if it all wrks out i will spe the rest of my life witthem and whoever comes aft, and i will be buried on that hill. >> repoer: and for those who contend this w of life, this widrawal from the world, is ultately selfish, cistercians have an answer f that. the christian tradition understandslaces like this, contemplive monasteries, as ese lighthouses, these beons where people are joinedogether in prayer and prayg on behalf of the wle world. >> reporter: theirs a calling which appls only to a few, but a calling which transfos those who embce its rigors, just as being part of the cmunity has changed a lapsd catholic and a divorced gramother. > personally, i think i'm mo ounded, more settled, more peaceful. i mean, i was goingo say the abbey has brght that kind of religioupart of me that i didn't have before i ca here. >> for me, it's been as ch of a spitual journey as it has all other types of jrneys. it's really brought me ck into the foldn a reall