always said it was part of god's plan which is sort of yuriy to think about.ort to them thinking something bigger than we can understand but it's still under control. >> i had trouble understanding but i also remember as you do in the immediate aftermath, other churches and counseling services, psychologists and therapists made themselves available. the base of those people in the congregation are what kept them alive. not only did it help them survive the immediate aftermath of the shooting but kept them alive in the dark in the months to follow when they wake up in the middle of the night, in a panic about what happened. somebody was in that room and ready to shoot again where they would wake up and remember she was there but she's not anymore. their faith kept them going. >> was hard you to wear them we tell these stories of trauma experienced intimate details of the shooting. >> it was hard to ask the questions and it was hard to listen. go to church and and i am thinking what i heard that morning, cables or i would go eat lunch with them and hear the stor