Previously on Dawson's Creek
Do you want to talk to me about the pill bottle
that I saw in your bathroom yesterday?
I started taking it after Tim died.
My new doctor is not going to refill
my prescription.
She wants me to try therapy instead.
Well, maybe therapy is not such a bad idea.
All I'm saying is, is that I'm open minded.
My narrow minded ways are open for discussion.
This morning, I told my father that I was gay.
So you are.
Dawson.
What's up? I came over as soon as I got your message.
I'm freaking out.
Why? What's the problem?
It's almost midnight.
Yeah, it's your birthday.
In a couple of minutes, you're gonna be 16.
Congratulations, man. This is a major turning point.
Yeah. And I'm eternally lost as a species on this planet.
Oh, this is gonna be bad.
I'm about to be 16 years old in a matter of minutes,
and I'm still...me!
The same whiny, adolescent,
big-talking, little-doing loser that I was a year ago.
Come on, Dawson, that's not true.
It's absolutely true. Think about it:
Every single person that I know
is growing up and moving forward in some way.
All right? Joey is busy finding herself.
You've got this whole stable, do-gooder boyfriend thing happening.
Jen is... Not necessarily moving forward,
but at least she's moving.
Even my parents are starting new lives.
Me? I'm in the exact same place I was last year at this time.
Uh...uh... Yeah, but you're turning 16, Dawson.
Rejoice, this is a good thing. You're getting older.
But there doesn't seem to be anything ahead of me but more of the same.
I'm stagnant. No wonder Joey dumped me.
I mean, the only thing I accomplished last year
was realizing my feelings for her,
and I couldn't even hold onto her.
And she dumped me... For a gay guy.
Could we please talk about this whole gay man-straight woman thing?
There's gotta be something going on there that we're not seeing.
You're right, Dawson.
It's all part of the evil gay plan
to keep the species from repopulating.
I would keep a close eye on Andie if I were you.
Come on, Dawson. You need to stop looking to the movies
for answers to all of life's questions, ok?
What you need to do...
Is figure out what it is that you want
and make it happen. Ok?
Be definitive.
You're right.
I need--I need ans-- definitive answers.
Joey is the answer.
I had her, I lost her, and now I'm gonna get her back.
How's that for definitive?
Mitch?
Hey. You remember my tradition
of cooking Dawson breakfast on his birthday, right?
Well, of course.
I just thought that--
Dad.
You didn't expect me to forget, did you?
The usual,
for our regular customer.
Thank you.
I must say, it's nice to have
a bit of tradition this morning.
Uh, speaking of which,
I have to talk to your mom in private for a second.
It's, uh, birthday present stuff.
Highly classified.
Look, I know we haven't discussed it
in light of the events of the past year,
but we usually do give joint birthday presents,
ohh! And I had an idea.
You know, you're a little late for this, Mitch.
I've already bought his present.
I'm giving Dawson his first car tonight.
An explorer.
Well, that's a big decision, Gale.
Well, don't you think it's one
we could've made together?
...for instance, um, the bills, which, believe it or not,
despite the fact you don't live here anymore, keep coming.
I know...
That I should contribute more financially,
and I've put the restaurant plans on the back burner,
and I've looked into substituting at the high school.
I will help out more as soon as I can.
But still, a new car?
That's a pretty extravagant gift for a 16 year old.
Let's go over this one more time.
Ok. I invite Dawson out to dinner
with Andie and me tonight,
we keep him occupied till about 9:00,
at which point we make up some lame-ass excuse
as to why we have to call it an early night.
Then we drive him back to his place, where...
I'll have set up the most fabulous surprise party ever.
I hope.
I'm sure it'll be fantastic--
A testimonial to true friendship,
the party to end all parties.
From here on out, the Leery household's gonna be known
as the delta house of Capeside.
Thanks.
I don't know why I'm so nervous.
I've never organized a party before.
Listen, Joey,
not to pry or anything, but...
How are you doin'...
With the whole Jack thing?
I mean, now that you've had some time to process.
God.
Everyone keeps asking me that in these solemn tones,
like I've just come down with a terminal disease or something.
Pacey, the fact is
Jack is the one who's going through something.
And, yeah, I admit,
at first it was obviously a shock,
but, look, I'm fine.
Really, it's...
Hey, Jack!
You guys serving lunch yet?
Yeah. In about, uh, 10 minutes.
Hey, here's some, uh,
some menus you guys can look over in the meantime.
Great.
We're completely starving.
Are--are you that guy?
What?
Yeah, the first guy to ever come out at Capeside.
He--he was the one that wrote the poem.
In the flesh.
Oh, my god, you're the gay guy.
Tracy, Kelly, this is Jack McPhee.
Capeside's no longer ambiguous resident.
Oh.
You know, I think it's so great
that you came out and you're only 16.
You know, I totally watched Ellen
through that whole tumultuous year,
and, well, she didn't even come out till she was, like, 40.
Uh, c-can I get you guys something to drink
while you're looking over these menus?
You know, I just realized you're the first gay person I've ever met.
It is such a waste, actually,
because you are a total babe.
Uh, yeah, well, you know,
I'd take that as a compliment
if it wasn't coming from Satan.
Jack! You have got me all wrong.
I'm not even one of his helpers.
Then I should compliment you on that clever disguise
you've been wearing for months.
We got started off on the wrong foot.
True, I may have been flawed in the past,
but...sometimes people can surprise you.
I mean, you should know a little bit about that yourself.
It sounds like you've had a lot on your shoulders
for a 16-year-old girl.
Yeah.
Well, um, after Tim died
and my mother, you know...
Um...it felt like there needed to be someone
to be the glue holding the family together.
And I guess I was the likely candidate.
It's not a big surprise that you started to feel overwhelmed.
Yeah, um...
I felt like I was
juggling all these balls in the air at once, you know,
and if I dropped one, then they'd all come crashing down,
and, um, then I'd just start thinking about everything all at once,
and--and I'd get these panic attacks
where I'd start feeling like my heart was racing
and I couldn't breathe, and--
Andie, Andie, tell me something.
Forget about saving everybody else
and even forget about your family for a minute.
What is it that you want?
What do you wish for?
For yourself?
I wish I could get rid of all my worries,
you know, and--and be one of those people
who just sails right through life.
You know, and they do what they wanna do,
what makes them happy,
and don't care what other people think about them.
Why couldn't you?
I'm going to give you a prescription, Andie.
But not for a drug.
I prescribe for you
one night of imperfection.
Here. You can get out of here early.
I'm sure you wanna get changed
before going to Dawson's.
Believe me, it's not gonna take me long to get dressed.
It's not like I have to get all gussied up for anybody,
seeing as though I've turned Jack off to women completely.
Joey, you know that's not true.
Yeah, I know.
It's not true.
I mean, intellectually,
I know that it has nothing to do with me.
It's...
Bessie...
What am I supposed to do now?
You paint.
You concentrate on your art and yourself.
You broke up with Dawson because you wanted to find yourself,
then you went straight into a relationship with Jack.
Maybe this is a chance for you to do what you set out to do.
I mean, look, any woman would be feeling the way you do right now
under the circumstances.
I think you're handling it
with an amazing level of maturity.
Thanks.
Joey...
Hey. I need to talk to you.
Sure.
What's up?
Well, looks like we can add arts and crafts to your list of talents.
Ha ha.
I can feel that.
Feel what?
You.
Watching me.
I mean, you think you're crafty, but I know.
How?
Well, I can feel your eyes on me.
You cannot.
Sometimes.
Can't you?
Uh, nah... I don't know,
I-I've never really tried.
Close your eyes.
There.
Can you feel me looking?
No. Not yet.
Now?
N...nope.
Mmm.
I was peeking. Uh-huh.
Mmm, ok, whoa. Uh,
morning, kitchen, uh, Grams.
God, it's freezing out.
I just wish it would snow already.
I know. Ohh.
Hey, remember what we always did when we were kids?
Make a wish on the first snowfall?
Uh-huh.
Heh. It always came true.
2.
Well, except for the time I wished for the horse,
a million dollars, and a trampoline
all in the same year.
I was greedy, what can I say?
Thank you.
Well, snow is--
it's so...hopeful,
you know?
Yeah.
Hope is good.
So what are you hoping for?
I'm hoping that we can get back to the way we were.
Me, too.
And I've really been trying
to get our friendship back on track.
I'm not talking about just a friendship.
Look, I can't deny the truth,
which is plainly and simply I want more.
I want you back.
Dawson--
I--I was--
I was so confused last night,
and then I finally realized
that the only thing that makes sense to me is you.
And I know that it's still there between us.
I felt it during the whole Jack saga, I feel it right now,
and I know you feel it, too,
because we're soul mates.
Joey, you and I are meant to be.
Period. The end. Cue happy-ending music.
No.
Look, Dawson,
do you remember why we broke up in the first place?
It wasn't about you at all,
and it certainly wasn't about Jack.
It was me.
I had things that I needed to figure out.
That you were willing to figure out with Jack, but not me.
No. Dawson...
We can't talk about this. You know why--
Joey, if you and I are not meant to be together,
then I don't know anything.
I wouldn't count on snow today.
I can't believe I’m throwing a surprise party
for someone who hates me right now.
Just relax. I'm sure everything will work itself out.
I mean, Dawson's out with Pacey right now, enjoying his birthday.
By the time he gets here,
he'll probably be in a great mood.
I have always wanted
to sit in the back seat of a cop car.
Hey, I know!
Let's turn on the sirens.
I don't think that's the best idea, sweetie.
Whoo-whoo-whoo-whoo!
Book 'em, Danno.
So this is what it's like
when they cart you off to prison, huh?
Depends. There's more than one kind of prison.
There are the state-regulated ones,
then ones you get trapped in when your life is going nowhere
and everyone else seems to be moving forward.
Took a happiness pill this morning, did we?
No, just a strong dose of bleak reality.
No offense, but have you noticed my only birthday plans
are to play third wheel to my friend and his girlfriend?
Ok, listen, buddy,
on any other day of the year,
I'd be more than happy to talk to you about this,
but seeing as today is your birthday,
why don't we try and concentrate on the positives?
Hey! Stop the car!
What? What? What did we hit?
Nothing. Just make a U-turn. I saw a really cool place back there.
Ok, uh...
Andie...
Could we please keep this impulsive streak
that you're trying to indulge tonight
from killing everybody in this car? Please, honey?
Uh...doctor's orders.
Remember, Pacey?
You promised I could cut loose tonight.
Yes, I did, didn't I?
Mm-hmm.
Ok.
Oh, my god.
I mean, Jack, you look amazing.
Wow, it's like the transformation from John-boy to John-John
was all in a jar of dippity-doo.
It's no big deal. I put a little gel in my hair.
That's pretty much the extent of it.
I guess you get gay, you get style.
I wish I had nabbed you one sexual preference ago.
Hello, Ty.
Excellent.
You're learning.
Uh-huh.
Mmm.
Ok.
Explanation.
What?
Well, first this morning and then right now,
that's 2 kisses that you've bailed out on today.
Ok, it's just that we've been getting closer, you know?
I know, it's called dating.
I realize that, but when does it stop?
You're kidding, right?
Jen, uh, you...
You turn me on.
And the closer we get, the more you turn me on.
Is that such a bad thing?
A-All I'm saying is
is that it's possible that things could get out of hand.
Really?
How out of hand?
Look, I'm serious.
We've barely made out,
and you're already worried about things going out of hand.
It's sweet.
In a very 1956 sort of way.
Oh, yeah?
Well, how 1956 is this?
Whoa. Who are you,
and what have you done with my girlfriend?
She's been here all along.
Just trapped beneath the bondage of gap clothing and a good-girl complex.
Why, the good-girl complex was part of your charm.
Part of my charm.
Not all of it.
Remember, we're having fun.
Besides, Marlie said I have to learn to let my ID out
to breathe some fresh air for an evening.
What exactly are you letting out for an evening?
It's what Freud calls your ID.
It's the part of you that holds your purest impulses and desires.
And it doesn't judge or care what anyone thinks,
it just... Wants what it wants.
And what do you think it wants?
Well, it's about letting go of all your preconceived notions
of how you're supposed to talk
or how you're supposed to behave and...
Just letting loose for once.
I could certainly learn something about letting loose.
Look at me, I'm sitting in a bar, I'm drinking a straight coke.
Well, we could do it together, if you want.
I mean, it might be good for both of us to get a little wild tonight.
Just try not to get too wild
while I'm away at the washroom, ok?
Can I get you guys anything else?
Uh, yeah.
I'll have another coke,
and could you tell the bartender
to put a little more rum in it this time?
Yeah, me, too. I can barely even taste the rum in mine.
Oh, sorry about that.
I'll have him double the shots in the next round to make up for it.
Thank you.
Yaagh!
Have you ever drank before?
Never. Me, neither!
So, how does it feel to be the one
who set this little Hamlet on its ears?
Why do you keep talking to me?
I don't like you, Abby.
Well, that's 'cause no one likes me.
I'm an outcast. Welcome to the club.
Heh.
This whole thing is just so ridiculous.
There's no such thing as gay, anyway.
Just this weird label people came up with
to persecute the normal inclination
to go both ways.
What do you-- what you mean?
Well, we're all bisexual, don't you think?
We're all just sexual animals under God.
This puritanical society would make you think
our natural impulses are something to be ashamed of.
When it's really those kinds of attitudes
that are the embarrassment.
Don't you think?
♪ Chicks were born to give you fever ♪
♪ be it Fahrenheit or centigrade ♪
♪ they give you fever when you kiss them ♪
♪ fever if you live and learn... ♪
How you guys doing?
I think we're ready for another round.
Sounds good to me.
2 more coming up.
How many cokes are you guys gonna swill tonight?
♪ What a lovely way to burn ♪
Well, all right. As you can probably tell,
it's open Mike night tonight.
So who wants to come up here and sing the blues for us?
I know a little something about the blues.
All right. Come on, then, let's go.
I don't think that's the best idea, do you, sweetheart?
Sure, it is.
Oh, boy.
Guys, blues riff.
You got it.
Heh heh.
♪ My name is Dawson Leery ♪
♪ I'm feelin' kinda weary ♪
♪ today is my birthday ♪
♪ y'all look a little bleary ♪
♪ the girl that I care for left me and ran away ♪
♪ straight into the arms ♪
♪ of a guy who turned out to be gay! ♪
♪ I got the blues ♪
♪ yeah ♪
♪ today I woke up feelin' like I was born to lose ♪
♪ yeah, I got the blues ♪
♪ some days you were born to lose ♪
♪ and my friend Andie, she's gonna sing a song ♪
♪ 'cause she's got the blues, go ♪
♪ my name is Andie ♪
♪ and my brother's the one who's gay ♪
♪ my other brother died ♪
♪ and my daddy went away ♪
♪ but I'm still Andie ♪
♪ and my boyfriend makes me Randy ♪
♪ his name is Pacey ♪
♪ and my mom's gone completely crazy! ♪
♪ I got the blues ♪
Oh, that's right. You sing it, sister.
♪ Yeah, sometimes you swear you were born to lose ♪
♪ oh, we got the blues ♪
♪ now it's time to put on my dancin' shoes ♪
♪ whoo ♪
All right.
♪ I been restless, hopeless, and confused ♪
♪ this girl that I told you about ♪
♪ she's been on the move ♪
♪ she's at my surprise party ♪
♪ where everyone I know is right now ♪
♪ when I show up late there ♪
♪ they're all gonna have a cow! ♪
♪ Yeah, I got the blues ♪
♪ you swear sometime you were born to lose ♪
♪ ow, no, brother man, we got the blues ♪
♪ yeah ♪
♪ we got the blues ♪
♪ yeah ♪
♪ sometimes you know ♪
♪ you were born to lose ♪
♪ oh, yeah ♪
Whoo-hoo, Dawson!
What do you say we end this evening on a high note
and get off to that not-so-surprise party?
I think we're having a dirty, low-down time right here.
Hear, hear.
What's gotten into you two tonight?
It's his birthday. That's right.
So, what do you wanna do next?
Mmm...
Ahh...you guys have been drinking.
Excuse me, waitress.
Make this one a double this time
with just a splash of coke.
Actually, you know what? A splash is too much.
How about just a spla? No "sh" at all.
No "sh." Heh heh.
Before I bring you anything else,
the bartender asked me to check your I.D.S.
Check our I.D.S?
Ok, you should've done that 5 drinks ago,
because you know what? We are 16 years old.
No, we are. And you know what?
You, little missy, have just broken the law.
You could lose your job over this.
Not only could you lose your job,
but you could lose your liquor license. You know what?
This is my boyfriend, and his father is the town Sheriff.
Dawson, now. Up, up. Now. Help me out.
Hey, listen, she's kidding. It's a joke.
I'm not. My I.D.'s here. Wanna see it?
I'll show it to you. I'll show it.
What are you thinking, huh? 16 years old.
So, I was out in the garage. Saw the explorer.
Very beautiful.
Quite a gift.
Of course, I always thought that Dawson's first car
would be something like I had when I was a boy, you know,
some old jalopy or something.
Of course, it's your decision.
Mmm. Well, it seems that a lot of things that came with this marriage
are my decision these days.
Except, of course, the decision about the marriage itself.
Ok, we have to stop.
I can't do this.
I'm sorry, Jen.
You should be.
Well, it's not entirely my fault.
Oh, really? What role am I playing in your personal inner struggle?
Y-Y-You're tempting me.
That's a load of crap.
I'm sorry, Jen.
But as attracted as I am to you,
I don't believe in premarital sex.
And no matter what you say or do
is not gonna convince me that it's right.
Who said anything about sex?
Jen, I just mean that it's perfectly clear
that with your history, kissing isn't just kissing.
It leads to other things.
My history?
Jen...
We're types of people.
And just as I'm likely to be found in church on Sunday...
I'm more of a Saturday night slut.
I didn't say that.
How come I have never felt more like one?
His own party, and he's not even here yet.
What a guy.
Do you really think it's true,
what you said earlier about everyone having bisexual inclinations?
Oh, absolutely.
You know, the Joey and Dawsons of this world
are pretty advanced for their age in other ways,
but with all the time they spend contemplating their navels,
you'd think they'd be a little more open to the possibilities.
Yeah. Yeah. You know, you're right.
There's a whole world of possibilities in there.
Heh heh. In here, too.
Heh heh heh.
Maybe you're not Satan after all.
Of course, I don't think Satan has a bellybutton.
Well, us outcasts have to learn to stick together.
Surprise!
Hi.
Happy birthday!
You're late. This party is a complete disaster.
I know. Don't get me started.
Are they?
Yes, they are. Rum and cokes. They got past me.
Ahh...
Whoo-hoo.
Whoo! Heh heh heh!
Whoo-hoo.
Come on. Ok, guys, come on.
You wanna dance?
What?
Hey, it's my birthday. I can do whatever I want.
Shh. No, we have to get you upstairs before your parents see you.
Come on.
What's up! I'm gonna sit you down,
and get some coffee into your system.
God knows, it probably won't do much to help,
but it's the only thing I can think of right now.
I got the blues, Jo.
Do you know anything about the blues?
More than I care to.
Ha ha ha ha ha!
♪ The guy I was talkin' about ♪
♪ Who said he was gay ♪
♪ Got a new hairdo ♪
♪ and he decided to swing both ways ♪
♪ I got the blues... ♪
Joey...
I can't deal with this, ok?
♪ Yeah, sometimes ♪
♪ you were born to...lose ♪
Joey.
Joey!
Not so gay anymore.
More gay than ever.
Ah, perfect timing, honey.
I was just gonna call you to come down
after I lit the candles.
Is it time to make a wish?
Dawson, honey, have you been drinking?
Time to make a wish, ok.
Let's make a wish.
A wish.
I wish...
That my mom never slept with her co-anchor.
I wish that my father...
Would stop talking about getting a job
and actually go out and get one...heh heh...
And I wish that the two of you would stop your petty bickering
and at least pretend to be the adults around here.
I wish that my best friend, Pacey,
would just end this transformation
into do-gooder, "A" student, and all-around sanctimonious teen angel
and just go back to what he does best,
which is make me feel good about my life
because his is supposed to be worse.
And there's Jen Lindley, with her drunkenness and her revolving boyfriends
and her wild, wicked ways.
I wanna party with you.
Ah, and there's Jack McPhee--
Jack McPhee, who likes guys, but doesn't mind stealing my girlfriend.
Tonight, ladies and gentlemen,
starring in his very own version of In & Out
He's in. He's out!
In. Out. Nice hair, by the way.
Heh heh heh...
And then, of course, there's my Joey.
My sweet... Precious Joey...
The only 16-year-old in the world who needed to find herself.
You know-- you know what?
That's--that's ok. I accept that.
You need to find yourself... And I accept it.
Right? So, Joey?
J-J-Joey? Wh-where's-- where's my--excuse me.
Joey? Joey? Joey? Excuse me, Mom.
Joey, are you..?
Joey? Joey?
There she is.
It's my Joey.
Joey!
Cut it out, Dawson!
Ohh...ohh... Oh, god...
Pacey's right. It's all my fault.
Ohhh...ghaaa...
Or is it my ID's fault?
ID it my fault? Ohhh...
I've learned one thing from my initiation
into the evils of alcohol...
That is be careful what you eat
because you're gonna see it again.
Oh, and again... And again...
And again.
Oh, god...ohhh...
I swear... I am never drinking again.
Oh, god, I am so mortified at my behavior tonight.
And to think that your parents saw me this way.
God...if I survive this night...
If anybody in my life ever speaks to me again,
I swear I'll never let another drop of alcohol touch my lips.
And if you ever see me pick up a drink,
please remind me of how I'm feeling right now.
Deal.
Have we completely screwed up our son's life?
No. He's 16 years old.
You remember being 16 years old, don't you?
All too well.
Well, I'm taking the explorer back to the dealer tomorrow.
His behavior tonight proves to me
he's not ready for the responsibility of a new car.
It was, I admit, possibly not
the soundest decision I've ever made.
We could, uh... Go in on some old car together for him,
if you want.
Sounds like a plan.
Maybe we could cover the down payment,
and then he could work to pay off the rest.
You know, maybe learn something about the value of money.
And mistakes.
I guess we're all still learning about that.
Hey.
You know, it's--
It's bad enough that I organized
the world's worst surprise party, Jack, but, um...
Abby?
I mean, after what she did to your family and everyone else, I...
I don't know. I guess I just thought
that if you were gonna go straight again,
you would've chosen someone like...
Cindy Crawford or something.
Everyone's been telling me...
How ok they are with me coming out:
You...
Pacey...
That overzealous guidance counselor.
Sorry for being so accepting.
Would you rather everyone just turned against you?
No. It's just...
It's just that... She was saying some things tonight
that made me feel I was just like everybody else.
I guess I saw what I could've become from this whole thing.
Somebody on the fringes like Abby.
So, if we hadn't walked in...
I still would've stopped it.
I realized from the minute that I started, that I was...
That I am gay.
You know, Jack, it...
I think everyone feels alone and wants to be normal,
and I don't think anyone ever really does.
But...I don't wanna be singled out...
You know, like I have some Scarlet "G" on my chest,
you know? Like I'm the "Ellen" of Capeside.
We're all going through the painful process of growing up.
You just have this extra layer of difficulty.
But...you're incredibly lucky to have people who support you.
Just don't lose sight of that.
Yeah.
I...
I guess the thought of being gay just...
Seemed like such a lonely thought.
I just don't wanna end up alone.
I don't think we should see each other anymore.
So, you waited on a freezing cold porch
to tell me what was perfectly clear 2 hours ago?
I just need to explain myself.
You know what? You don't. It's simple.
You have natural, God-given impulses
that everybody in your life has told are wrong to follow.
And so, instead of growing your own conscience,
you prefer to drag me through your grief
and I'm not going to stand for it.
Jen, Jen, you need to understand
that all of my life has been about the church.
The teachings, the beliefs, they're all I know.
Ok, so let me see if I have this straight.
You're a Christian,
but you like to booze it up,
and you like to party.
Right? And you judge people for being gay.
You go around acting like heterosexual sex is the way of the Lord,
but you won't actually have heterosexual sex.
Look, I--I know it sounds complicated.
I am struggling with the fact
that I am a teenage guy
with all of the desires that go along with that.
Desires that are in direct opposition
of everything that I've--I've ever been taught to believe.
And when I'm with you, all sense of reason just flies out of my head.
Because you're so beautiful
and sexy
and I want you so badly.
I am so sorry that I hurt your feelings tonight.
Please understand that this is about me,
and it has nothing to do with you.
Ty, this has everything to do with me.
I liked you.
I know.
No, you don't.
No, I mean I really liked you.
And--and despite what you may think about my past experience,
when I kissed you tonight,
that wasn't my desire for something more.
It was for something pure.
Something that I haven't felt in a long time,
but you ruined that.
Maybe--
maybe--maybe some day, when I deal with my baggage,
then maybe this can work out.
Anybody who can make me feel like this
doesn't deserve a maybe.
Hey.
How you doing?
I'll be fine...
Once the room stops spinning.
I'm sure you'll be better in the morning.
God, Joey, whatever I said, I am so sorry.
Don't worry about it, Dawson.
Dawson, I forgive you.
I mean, even you are allowed to make
a few mistakes in this world.
And I'm sure that everybody else
will forgive you eventually, too.
You pretty much told the truth, anyway.
Oh, but the way I did it was--
I'm so lonely.
I'm 16 years old and I'm so hopelessly lonely.
Is that why you got drunk?
Yeah.
Jo, why did you break up with me
and run straight to Jack?
Because he wasn't you.
Look, it was never about
looking for something better, Dawson.
It was about looking for someone who...
Wasn't so close to me.
So I could tell where I ended and he began.
I mean, our lives have always been so intertwined
that, in many ways,
I feel like you partially invented me, Dawson.
And that scares me so much.
I need to find out if I'm capable
of being a whole person without you.
I need to find out if I can be a whole person...
Alone.
Do it quickly. Ok?
Because...
God, I love you.
I love you, too, Dawson.