Previously on Dawson's Creek
A couple of months ago,
you're all about not getting involved,
and suddenly you're some big homo activist?
Maybe I'm just a Tobey activist.
What made you decide
to apply for a job in Boston?
You're leaving,
and I'm unbelievably happy for you.
But I got to get on with my own life.
Dad...
You were having sex with her.
You saw me standing in the doorway.
You never said anything.
Pacey got arrested for public drunkenness
while you were in New York,
Doug got the charges dropped,
and then he took him camping to try to talk some sense into him.
He's in a lot of pain.
Oh, Joey, you wook wadiant.
What?
I believe she said,
"Oh, Joey, you look radiant."
And I could not agree more
with your wise assessment, Bess.
Joey Potter, you do look absolutely radiant.
I don't look radiant. I look silly.
That's ridiculous, Jo. I'm not even gonna dignify that comment
with a response.
Pacey, the prom? What are we, like, in high school?
Yeah. We are in high school last time I checked.
Not to mention I don't have the best track record for these events.
I mean, need I remind you,
of the debacle that was last year's anti-prom?
Oh, god, I forgot to pick up Alexander.
Oh, my god. She forgot to pick up Alexander.
Pacey, you finish.
Ok.
So...you like my dress?
Well, I believe I already used the word radiant.
Well, actually, 'cause I kind of figured
that the dress really isn't the part
that the guys care about.
It's really the after-prom when the dress comes off.
Speaking of prom, I need for you to go
and pick up the prom tickets.
I thought you were gonna pick up the prom tickets.
Well, I tried to pick up the prom tickets,
but my poor academic standing
has put me on the "do not sell to" list.
Did you remember the limo?
Yeah. Yeah, I remembered the limo.
I told you I'm gonna take care of everything.
Well, Pacey, you don't have to take care of everything yourself.
I mean, I can handle some of the preparations.
I want to. Ok?
I want to take care of everything.
I want to make this perfect for you.
Sweetheart...
You don't have to make this perfect.
Well, that's sweet of you to say,
but I’d like to try anyway,
if that's all the same to you.
And speaking of, I really should
kind of get on my way.
But I love you, Jo.
And... You deserve to have
the most amazing senior prom
that anyone has ever had,
and that is exactly what I'm gonna give you, ok?
So, from here on out,
smooth sailing, I promise.
Damn.
It was unbelievable.
So there I am. 15 years old.
I'm at this girl's senior prom,
and I've just confessed to her that I'm gay.
And what does she do in response?
She sticks her tongue all the way down my throat!
It gets worse.
She takes my hand, and she sticks it on her crotch,
and she says, "You may think you're gay now,
honey, but give me an hour, and I'll rock your world!"
No way! That's crazy!
Tell me about it.
Hey, but don't let my horror story fool you.
I'm sure you guys will have a great time at your prom.
I gotta go. I got a doctor's appointment.
Oh, yeah. Final one after the incident.
Bye, Jen. Bye, sweetie.
Good luck findin' a dress.
And, uh, you can keep the magazines.
Ooh--I'm doin' the Cosmo sex quiz, though.
Jack, give me a call. See ya later.
And, uh, I want to hear all about
the prom-related details. You got it.
Bye. See ya later.
Bye-bye!
That is too funny. Heh.
Don't even say it.
I didn't say a thing.
You don't have to. I know what you're thinking,
and the answer is "No, I am not asking Tobey to the prom."
Why the hell not? Jack, you guys
are getting along really well,
and it seems like you have fun together.
Plus, he obviously wants you to ask him.
I mean, every other word out of his mouth is "prom."
Do you remember last year? Remember with Ethan?
All the controversy-- crazy Barbara Johns, the whole anti-prom thing?
Jack, nobody cares.
Just take the boy to prom.
You know what I think? I think you're tryin'
to get out of this whole prom thing altogether.
That's what this is really all about.
Now, just pick a dress, j!
Will you not change the subject?
Jack, I can go stag. It's fine.
We're both aware of Tobey's more-than-platonic feelings.
Now, if I ask him to go to the prom,
it's like I'm leading him on!
Jack, all I'm say-- I don't want to hear it.
Jen, drop it! That's it! Ah-- - But that's--
That's it! Stop! Shh! No--
pick a dress.
Do you think this one's too tight?
No, you look perfect.
I, on the other hand, look like a big, stupid freak.
Uh, yeah, in what universe?
She's right. You look...
Luminous!
Like a big, luminous freak.
We are gonna look great.
As long as Gretchen thinks so.
Oh, speaking of which, did you get the corsage?
Pacey said he'd pick up mine when he picked up Joey's.
Limo? Pacey.
I guess we got everything covered then.
You know, I'm the only one here
with a right to feel like a freak.
My senior prom was last century.
You know, when you think about it,
it's actually kind of depressing.
You don't seem all that depressed.
You know, because I'm not.
I-I'm up for that kick-ass job in Boston,
which is super exciting,
and I feel like the prom will be this fun trip down memory Lane
on the arm of a guy I'm totally into.
What's there to be depressed about?
Actually, uh,
there is one more tradition that I almost forgot about.
What's that?
You know exactly what I’m talking about.
Are you or are you not gonna fulfill
the long-standing teenage tradition of after-prom sex?
I decline to respond to that line of questioning.
How are you, Miss Lindley?
Seems to me that ever since we got back
from New York, you seem a little...
Horribly messed up?
I was gonna say sad.
Mmm--I'm sad.
And horribly messed up and...you know,
terrified of the future and haunted by the past,
but other than that, I feel really good about things.
All I'm sayin' is if you were gonna do it
on prom night, just...you know,
be careful, man. That's all.
I appreciate your concern, but if we were planning
on following through in any traditions,
I've got my emotional bases covered.
Ah. Good to know.
But I admit to nothing.
So why don't I feel perfect?
In the words of my former therapist, "Why don't you tell me?"
Hmm, well, I'm terrified of the future,
for one thing. And a couple of weeks ago,
I had a little bit of a scare.
But that's not even it.
I don't know. Maybe it's Pacey.
You know what, Jen,
it just doesn't seem like he's too eager to...
To touch me.
I'm sure he's just waiting for you to come to him.
You think?
Yeah, it makes sense. I mean, he probably is just waiting.
Yeah.
Jen, what if he's not waiting for me?
Hey! Hey.
I was just thinkin' about you.
Hence my ear-to-ear grin.
I didn't get that job in Boston.
What? What happened?
The woman from the magazine--
she just paged me, and I called her back.
She said that she loved me
and that I was perfect for it,
but that I didn't have a college degree
or the necessary experience.
Oh, god, that sucks.
I'm sorry.
I really thought I had it.
I don't know what I'm gonna do.
If you want to skip this whole prom thing,
I totally understand.
No. No, Dawson, come on.
This is--this is your milestone, not mine.
And you deserve to have it be a wonderful and memorable experience.
And that's what it's gonna be.
Are you sure?
Yes. Yes, it's fine.
It's more than fine. It's gonna kick ass.
I promise. Ok.
I'm telling you, Tobey, he desperately wants to ask you.
He's--he's just too embarrassed, you know.
He's got a really irrational fear of rejection.
Mmm, I don't know, Jen.
I-It just didn't seem like Jack wanted to ask me to prom.
Would I make this up?
Look, he...is a seething quagmire of neuroses.
You--you real-- you just--you don't even want to know.
I mean, how somebody so good-looking
could be so insecure, it's...beyond me.
But I assure you, he really wants you to go to prom with him.
He told me so. The guy begged me to come over here
and ask you, so just--just call him and say yes.
Hmm?
You want to know what?
Nobody's home.
Bessie, Bodie, Alexander--all gone.
And there are no guests here.
So, basically, that means
we have the whole place to ourselves.
Mm-hmm.
Are you thirsty?
No, I'm not thirsty.
Try again.
You know what I could go for?
Turkey sandwich on rye bread.
You want one?
No, thank you.
Ok. Well, I'll be right back.
Hello.
Hello there.
Uh--Jack, ok.
Um, listen, you cannot be mad at me,
because I want you to remember
a little relationship called me and Henry
which you completely orchestrated against my will,
not to mention the whole college application thing.
I'm not mad, Jen.
You're not?
No.
Now, I'll admit
I was a little... Surprised
when I emphatically stated my strong desire
not to go to the prom with Tobey,
to have him then call me up and say,
"Jen told me everything,
"and my answer's yes, Jack.
I would love to go to the prom with you."
Now, yes, I'll admit,
I was slightly... Peeved.
But then I remembered what you said--
that you would go to the prom anyway,
even if I brought Tobey.
Yeah, of course I'm still going to the prom.
So you promise and solemnly swear,
no matter what.
Yes, I promise and solemnly swear.
No matter what?
Jack, what are you talking about?
Oh, nothin'.
It's just that, uh, well, I realized...
Why get mad when you can get even?
Jack told me everything, and my answer is yes.
Jen, I'd love to go to the prom with you.
Oh, my god.
Look at my little boy.
Looks like a man to me.
Oh, I think I'm gonna cry.
Oh, here,
let's get one with Dawson and Lily.
Good. Here you go.
Oh, honey, you are the spitting image of your father.
Do you realize that?
Much more handsome.
Ah.
I cannot believe
this is our baby boy's senior prom.
Pay no attention to them, Lillian.
I know they seem
like they're a little strange sometimes,
but they're actually very good parents.
Just a little emotional.
Hey, everyone.
Joey.
Oh, Joey, honey.
You are breathtaking.
Here, let me get one of the two of you.
I'll take Lily.
Yeah, there you go.
Whoa, thanks.
There's my girl.
All right.
My mom's right.
You look breathtaking.
Thank you.
So do you.
Well, thank you.
Smile.
Maybe one more.
Happy, happy.
Uh-oh. Uh-oh.
All right, easy there. Honey, shh.
So-- You know--
Go ahead.
I was just gonna say, given everything that's happened
in the 12 months since last year's prom,
I'm just really glad we ended up here.
Me, too.
God, we're so healthy, it just makes me wanna puke.
Yeah. It is quite sickening, right?
- Hi, guys. - Hello, you two.
Hey.
You look beautiful.
Thank you.
Come here.
You're lookin' pretty handsome yourself.
So, uh...how you doin'?
Better?
Much.
Ok, um, let me see.
How about we do
the ceremonial pinning of the corsage?
Ready?
All right.
Pace, when did you pick those up?
I got these yesterday.
Pace, you were supposed to refrigerate them.
Well, nobody told me that.
You know what?
That is not a big deal at all.
Mom, can we pick some new ones from your garden?
Great idea.
I'll go get my shears.
Just tell me you didn't forget the limo.
Of course I didn't forget the limo.
Joey, here.
Why don't you take Lily,
and we'll get a picture of you and Gretchen.
Aww.
Here, I'll take it.
Pacey, where are you going?
I'll be right back.
Hey, everyone.
Happy prom.
You're all probably wondering what I'm doing here.
Well, I'm here to meet my date, of course--
The one and only Jen Lindley.
Oh, cool. A baby. Can I hold it?
No!
Hey, Jack.
You look good.
We should probably be going.
My parents are hiding upstairs.
They're not too keen on this whole "prom date with a boy" thing.
You'd think they would have loosened up
and gotten a clue by now, but...
What are you gonna do?
Are you all right?
Ok, 'cause we can't leave
unless you stop blocking the door.
Right. Sorry.
It's ok.
Hey. Hi.
Look at you, gorgeous. You look beautiful.
Thank you. Look at you.
Hi, handsome. You look great.
Darling, you're a vision.
Excuse me.
You're adorable when you're angry.
This has gone too far.
Oh, well, it must be stopped, then,
before it destroys us all.
Ha ha ha.
Look, don't come crying to me
just 'cause you chose not to think of the consequences
of a certain action
before you went and performed said action.
Well, excuse me, but I don't think
that the punishment fit the crime.
Oh, I think it did.
Well, I think that my revenge on your revenge is imminent, so there.
What are you guys talking about?
Nothing. Oh.
Don't worry about Drue, Jen.
You can hang out with Tobey and I all night.
We'll help you avoid him.
Great, 'cause I really plan on having fun tonight.
Good. So do I.
So do I. Good. Good.
Excuse me.
Agh! Ooh!
Pace?
Hey.
Wanna help me with my corsage?
Sure. Yeah.
That dress looks fantastic, Joey.
You can't even tell where I ripped it.
It wasn't your fault.
Well...
Tonight's gonna be good.
I promise.
I know.
Hey, kids, I think the limo's here.
Ok. That's us.
Ok.
Oh.
Hello.
How exactly do you plan on purchasing that?
Well, your advanced age is about to come in handy, dear.
Oh, sorry, but I don't plan on being responsible
for unleashing a drunk Drue onto the prom.
Better luck next time.
Ooh.
All right, don't think me a total freak
for what I’m about to do, but--
Dude, I love those.
Are you serious? Nobody loves these.
I do.
You know what this means?
Yeah. We both enjoy somewhat unpopular snack foods.
No. We got more in common than you think.
No, thank you.
I have to take a breathalyzer later.
It's part of a ridiculous "tough love" ploy
by deputy Doug and my dear old father.
Well, all the much better for me.
I've only got 10 left.
Oh.
You wouldn't be drowning your sorrows
because of a certain unwanted prom date, would you?
Oh, god, no.
Drue's the least of my worries.
You know what I don't understand?
Hmm?
How these guys can be so happy and carefree.
I mean, who knows what the future holds,
but I do know that it doesn't hold
what they expect it to.
Oh! Hey.
Sorry.
Here.
Oh. Thanks.
Guys.
We gotta go if we're gonna catch the boat.
Oh, my god.
Well, not only am I here with an older woman,
but I've got the most beautiful date
in the whole room.
Well, your charm is a perfect antidote
for the complete wave of weirdness
that just crashed over me.
Oh, you know what,
if it makes you feel any better,
nobody really notices anybody else
at these things anyway.
They're all so caught up in their own melodramas.
It doesn't really make me feel any better.
Well, in that case, if anybody asks,
you can just tell them you're chaperoning.
Ok. I don't know whether
to hit you or to kiss you for that comment.
Let's work our way up to the kinky stuff.
Ok, if you keep following me around,
you're gonna lose a testicle.
Oh, come on, now, Jenny penny.
Drue, why are you doing this?
You can't possibly be enjoying yourself.
No, but Jack offered me 50 bucks
to follow you around all night,
so I plan on getting paid in full. Great.
I'm gonna go get some punch, honey.
Yeah, and then there was--there was Ethan.
I mean, this guy was so good-looking.
You know, he was like-- he was like
one of those Disney character versions
of a human, you know,
like the prince from snow white
or something.
Tell me about it.
The first guy to break my heart,
he looked just like Ted Danson.
Is that funny?
Ted Danson, huh?
Yeah, he's a handsome man.
Yeah, yeah, what is he, like, 50 now?
Y-Y-You know what?
I mean a young Ted Danson.
Ok, Becker.
Hey, where are you taking me?
What's that for, Jo?
I don't know. I guess I just
got caught up in the moment.
And, uh...
Now that that's out of the way...
You can tell me what's going on.
A prom.
I'm serious.
Uh, well, look,
I absolutely would tell you
if something was actually bothering me,
but I hate to disappoint you, Jo.
There's nothing bothering me.
Come on.
What? I just told you. Everything's great.
So, what's the problem?
Pacey, that is the problem.
The "Everything's great" is the problem.
I mean, ever since you got back
from that fishing trip or whatever it was,
it's like you've been walking around
like the Stepford boyfriend or something.
You know, talking about how everything's perfect
and that's the problem.
Ok, fine, look...
It's not me,
but the way I understand it,
this is your time to be happy.
All right, Jo? This is your time
to be out there and have fun.
So I'm just trying to be who you want me to be.
But I don't want you to be anything but yourself.
Oh, come on, you want
the perfect corsage,
and you want the perfect limo,
and you want the perfect dress,
and you want the perfect prom,
and you want the perfect boyfriend--
That is so untrue, Pacey.
Did I say anything
about the limo or the corsage
or anything else? No.
'Cause that stuff doesn't matter to me, Pacey.
You know that.
Well, then why don't you just tell me
how you want me to act?
'Cause I can't win with you, Jo.
If I act like I'm unhappy, you get angry with me.
But if I act like I'm happy,
you get angry with me.
Well, maybe you should stop acting
and just talk to me.
Maybe I just don't have anything left to say.
I'm the queen of the world.
Yeah.
Wow, are you ever drunk.
And how.
I think you've had enough of that.
Now, why don't you give me the bottle?
That was easy.
You're a riot, you know that?
You know, though, if you're not a little more careful
with your public intoxication,
you're gonna get caught.
Oh, please.
Like you don't want me to get caught.
Like you don't just live for other people's misery.
Not yours.
Ha ha. Yeah. I'm fine.
Jen, seriously, what's the matter?
Drue, seriously, you don't care.
Pretend I do.
Why don't you tell me?
Did you know I went to go
and visit my dad a few weeks ago?
I wish I could jump in there...
And disappear. That'd feel good.
Jen?
Jen, maybe this isn't the best idea--
Drue, go to hell.
Jen, come on. This isn't funny.
Seriously, back off.
Gotcha.
Yeah.
Maybe you should go over there.
See if she's ok.
Maybe we should go over there.
You know what?
I think I'm gonna go get some fresh air.
But why don't you go talk to her?
Ok.
Where's Pacey?
Uh...I don't know.
Do you want to talk about it?
Mmm, you know what? I don't think so.
Ok.
And that whole mini-mart thing.
I--I don't really want to talk about that either.
That's fine with me.
How long have you guys been--
We haven't...
Yet. I mean, you know,
we might tonight for the first time.
You in love with her?
All I know is that it just...
It just feels right.
You know what?
I know that this may sound weird,
but if you're gonna cross
a milestone in your life...
I'm glad it's with Gretchen.
If not you.
Don't worry. That wasn't a question.
I know.
You know, I think for the longest time,
I was just waiting to find somebody I loved
as much as I loved you.
I realize that's not gonna happen, you know.
You were my first love.
I don't think I'll ever love anyone
the way that I loved you, either.
And that's a good and a bad thing.
You want to dance?
It's our senior prom.
Heh heh. Come on.
Where did you get that?
Some drunk football guy.
You want some?
No. I think I'll pass.
You want to tell me what's wrong?
'Cause I know it has to be big
if you're drinking that.
I'm at the prom, Pacey.
I'm at the prom again.
I mean, I graduated 4 years ago,
and I'm still here.
You know, tonight, for the first time...
I didn't just feel older than Dawson...
I felt old.
I mean, too old to be here.
Too old to be doing what I'm doing.
You want pathetic?
How's this for pathetic?
I'm technically still a junior.
I'm not even supposed to be here.
A brother who's too young
and a sister who's too old.
We're quite the lot there, Pacey.
Yeah.
And you want to know what the worst thing about a prom boat is?
You're trapped.
Yup.
You know what?
It's the strangest thing,
but ever since I got back from that trip with Doug,
I've been feeling...
Really angry.
But not angry at myself.
It's actually worse than that.
I've been feeling really angry at Joey.
And I don't know why I'm angry at Joey.
And that makes me feel guilty,
and then the guiltier that I feel,
the angrier I get,
and I still don't know what to do about it.
Well, maybe if you, um...
Maybe if you try talking to her,
you can start to figure out a reason.
Uh...
I don't really know how to start talking.
That's the great thing about being trapped.
You gotta try.
I never knew you were so funny.
I guess there's a lot about me you didn't know.
I guess so. Heh heh.
So, do you want to dance?
I thought we were having a good time.
Right. So,
why do you always have
to ruin everything by misinterpreting it?
Jack, I--I--I just asked you to dance.
I didn't ask you to have sex with me on the table.
It doesn't matter, Tobey.
I mean, how many times do I have to tell you
that this is strictly platonic
before you're gonna believe me?
You know what?
I don't buy that.
Nothing that has happened tonight
has been platonic.
Not from the way we've been laughing
or flirting,
and certainly not the way you looked at me
when you came to pick me up tonight.
You're wrong.
No...
I'm not.
Look, I don't know what you're afraid of,
but it's not me.
And I suggest you figure it out,
or risk losing a chance
at something really good someday.
What's going on?
Pacey, we were just dancing.
Yeah, that's what it looked like to me, just dancing.
Oh, come on.
This isn't about Dawson, and you know it.
Pacey, why don't you just tell me what is going on?
You know what I actually realized
when I saw the two of you dancing there together?
That is the happiest I have seen you all night.
I mean, I think it's actually the happiest
I've seen you in weeks.
You want to know what's worse than that?
I don't care.
I saw the two of you dancing together,
and I just don't care.
I'm not angry.
I'm not jealous. I'm not upset.
I'm really not much of anything.
Pacey, fine. Let's just take this nothing outside.
Why--why because you want to clean up my mess again?
No. You wanted me to take off the happy mask,
and the happy mask is off.
So answer me this one question
because this is what I've been wanting to ask you, Jo.
Why are you with me?
Pacey.
Why are you with me?
Because I don't know why I'm still with you.
I mean, I used to know, but I don't anymore.
I'll make a note of that.
What I do know, Jo,
I feel like I'm Josephine Potter's
little charity project.
I feel like I'm the designated loser,
the fail--just back off!
Pacey, I never said that,
but this isn't about me. This is about you.
No, it is about you!
It's about you and how you make me feel when I'm with you!
Ok? I feel like I’m stupid and I'm worthless and I'm never right.
But you know what I realize? That it's not my fault!
That it's not my fault.
Because I'm with you, it's poor Pacey.
He didn't get into college,
and it's stupid Pacey forgot the limo
and ripped the dress and messed up the corsage.
I told you I didn't care about any of that.
But I want you to care!
I want you to care!
I don't want you to just accept it
like that's the way it's supposed to be.
We are not trapped on this boat.
You and I are trapped in this relationship.
I can't take it anymore, Joey.
When I'm with you,
I feel like I'm nothing.
That's why I flinch when you come to touch me.
It's why I never touch you.
Why I never even think about it.
Because when I start to,
it just reminds me that I'm not good enough.
You done?
Done? Oh, no, I'm not done.
I am just getting started.
Well, you can stop right now.
You can go to hell.
Jen, just come on down,
and we'll get you a great big bottle of Tequila.
What do you say? Yeah.
Jen, you know how cold this water is?
We're talking about snot icicles
dripping from your nose, ok?
Come on. I said no, Drue.
Oh.
He humiliates me in a room full of people,
and it's not even true.
It's not who I am.
I know.
I mean, I don't understand why he would say all that
because that's not who I am.
I know.
I just want to go home.
You've become a lightweight.
You gotta get back to New York.
It can toughen you up again.
What if I told you I don't want to go back to New York.
That I hate New York.
I don't know. I just--
I feel like I've--I've changed,
and I've just been too afraid to admit it,
and I've been pushing myself
so hard this year to toughen up
so that I can go back to school there next year,
but, um, I don't--
I don't think I really want to.
God, you think I'm weak, don't you?
You know what I think?
I think you should never go backwards
when you can go forwards.
That ain't weak, Jen...
It's pretty damn strong.
Besides, you know...
I was kind of thinking you should look into Boston.
It's a real up-and-coming town,
the spot to be in, in fact, and, you know,
yours truly's going to be there.
So right there, you know--
Strike one for Boston.
Yeah.
Hey.
Whatcha doing?
Contemplating swimming for shore.
I don't blame you.
Look, Tobey, I'm sorry about earlier...
What I said.
What I didn't say.
The feelings that I've been having for you
are so much more than platonic,
and they took me by surprise,
and I was afraid.
The thing is when we first met, you were just so--
Just say it. I was so gay.
No. No, you were so out,
you know, and so ok with it,
and I--I admit I was put off by it.
That's all I could see,
but tonight, I looked at you,
and I really looked at you,
and you're--you're funny,
and you're handsome
and nice and, yes, out.
But now it's like the one thing that put me off
is just one more thing that I like about you.
I'm so not afraid anymore.
How about that dance?
Hey.
How's Joey doing?
Not so good.
I'm sorry I took off back there.
Dawson, you don't need to explain.
Ok.
And it doesn't matter anyway
because I know what I have to do.
I've got to go on with my life.
Go back to college, figure out who I am
and what I want.
This is not my place, not here
and not with you.
You're still chasing after Joey,
I mean, literally and metaphorically.
You--you told me to go to her.
I thought you understood about our friendship.
I do.
I do, and watching you chase her,
it just made everything more clear.
I mean, Dawson, there are so many loose ends,
so much that the two of you haven't resolved...
And as much as you think you're beyond the drama
of high school and the prom,
you're a part of it.
You're smack in the middle of it
and that's right where you should be.
You're a senior in high school...
And I'm not.
Right, but that doesn't mean that this--us has to be over.
Gretchen, I'm not ready for this to be over yet.
What we have is an impossible situation.
I'm good at impossible situations.
I'm not.
I'm just not.
I'm sorry.
You know...
Last year...
I felt like I could give you something
that no one else could give you.
I could give you that wall to paint your mural on.
I could take you away on a sailboat for a summer.
I could even give you that night in the ski lodge.
But I don't feel like I have anything left to give you now, Jo.
I guess I'm spent.
I've become a man who hates himself so much
he can't even look at his own reflection in the mirror,
and I wish that I could tell you
that being with you doesn't make that worse,
but it does...
Because the more that you love me in spite of that,
the angrier that I get at you...
And the more that I stop loving you back.
How long have you felt this way?
I don't know,
but I know it's not right,
and I know that, ahem...
That my failures and my shortcomings
don't really have anything to do with you,
but I--
I also know that if we stay together
I am going to continue to take them out on you.
You know, I've got news for you, Pacey,
how you treat me
is actually totally in your power.
Ahem, you know...
Our senior year is over now,
and you and I are just 2 very different people
on 2 very different paths,
and for us this summer there is no boat,
and there is no sunset.
There is just Boston and Capeside.
But, Pacey, they're less than an hour apart.
And are more than a world apart, and you know it.
You've spent your entire life
trying to get out of Capeside, Joey,
because you felt like you deserved better.
Well, I am Capeside.
That's why I didn't get out and you did,
and you do deserve better.
You deserve better than this place,
and you deserve better than me.
You break my heart into a thousand pieces,
and you say it's because I deserve better?
Just...
Leave me alone.
Ok.
You kids want to go to that after-party?