, i came to usogorsk, i went to bed, and you know what i feel, someone is breathing, oh, just like that member of the komsomol organization, you can’t go right or left, just straight, that’s it. i ’ve been sitting too long, it’s already been a year, but i’m still not married, i don’t have a family, i’m still on business trips, i’m always going somewhere, i probably went out with him for three evenings, on the fourth they came to match me, i got married, i said , i say, there will be a child and i will come back home, i needed a child, because i’m not old enough for this anymore... and we lived with him for 44 years before his death, with children, with a household, a cow, i still leave him at home alone, he just before leaving, he will say, don’t go for a long time, leave quickly, that’s one word, he says, come quickly, not all, well, that’s how we lived, i myself was sometimes surprised at how he put up with me , that’s why i... now you’re very remorseful, maybe i didn’t give him something, maybe i didn’t love him, maybe i somehow loved him, sometimes i sit here and remember the rebbe,