josh the bers served in the same unit as ethan mccord he refused to talk about the order because of ashe said the threats and warnings that he'd received from his former army fellows but the secret video of how the coptic killings seemed nothing unusual to him from our experiences what was shown in that video was no uncommon and happened on a fairly regular basis josh says the training they'd gone through did not ingrate much sensitivity either he remembers one of the songs soldiers were made to sing more intense on goes on as i went down to the market where all the children were all women shop where i was shabby and i began to chop josh and a group of other former soldiers are now touring the us and telling people of their experiences and their regret for me it was when i was finally able to kind of put myself in the in the shoes of of other people. and really start to imagine how i'd feel if people were durance me when i was the other people on a regular basis of storerooms in people's homes sometimes in the middle of raising kids and and children's faces. some blame the type of war