and out of this came a series of patients' names and pictures, and that how i found robert sandler, this missing child. and in fact the boston sunday herald printed a picture of him in 1948 when he had just begun to respond to chemotherapy. this was an historic moment for medicine. but it's not searchable. at it not indexed. so i never would have discovered him. so his became a metaphor for the writing of the book, which is that you might look for something and yet in reality you might find it's 6,000 miles away. the second metaphor was that things always come around. there's a circularity to hoyt, and i came back to boston, now armed with the name of this child, and then using the medical records and using the boston directories address book, i could find the parents' name, and then the death records, which are publicly accessible, i could find exact time he had died, where he died, where he had been buried, et cetera, et cetera. and all of a sudden the story that had vanished came alive for me, and that's how -- again, that how this book got written. so the first package is -- now that