siegfried sassoon who is a great war political a one world of mine war was a scene can stop their clocks though we met him grim and gay and i know people who got their clocks stopped so badly they never got beyond drugs booze women suicide whatever you want to caught and that happened to me and i think my clock was stopped for close to forty years before i got over it. i was ashamed i was ashamed and i had been wounded i was ashamed that i hadn't been a hero i never understood that my problems with my parents my problems with my wife and my ex-wife were buried in the fact that i got blown up i never i never understood it repressed it totally and then. back again to go to a coffee shop and i would hear the big bands of my two hundred forty five and i would weep like a baby probably i had no idea that what i was doing i could reply to was going back to try to fly that little boy all night and what happened. the fall of eighty four i was driven to go back to fly to look for birds to spend the night there to rent a car and file and find the place where i was moving on september seventh makin