those of us with leaders because the depression was so much you know this is the clerk this was p.w. botha. and you know and so. you know the reality of that time was that we were every weekend at funerals getting no friends and activists that killed we lived with that mentality at that time that you know our lives lost any time. you know somebody like me and i was still alive and still struggling in you know for justice i often think about my life now is that i'm living on borrowed time because so many of my close friends and activists even people out to complete it to the struggle. you know they lost their lives. in nineteen eighty six a national state of emergency was declared you know has the resistance was growing stronger and stronger and. i was. the first name. charged with you know violating the state of emergency the same thing happened again in eighty six but during this time. of living underground and still continuing to organize so for example one look at what's happening in egypt in the middle east right now food with deep admiration and pride to see the what's happy but it's