i can't think sometimes, i just break down and cry. >> surveillance cameras showed pam butler entering her house that night but she's never again seen leaving it though technically butler's disappearance is considered a missing persons case and d.c. police say they've long believed pap was probably murdered. according to cops, the prime suspect has long been pams ex- boyfriend, jose rodriguez, but there has never been enough evidence to charge him and he continues to insist that he had nothing to do with pam's disappearance. >> is she living? could she be somewhere held against her own will? >> pam's mother says even now, she often prays that her daughter will somehow be found one day, but with each passing year, each passing valentine's day, she's well aware that that becomes an increasingly remote possibility. >> do you still hope that you'll see her again some day? >> oh, my god, yes, i do, but i feel like it's fading away. i really do. three years, i just feel like it's fading away. >> matt jablo, 9 news now. >> should you have any information about pam butler's disappearance, d.c.