i was drawn to death and the reason that is i was watching carl fagin several years ago in the 1990s and he announced he had this, his second or third own marrow transplant because of a cancerous disease he had and it did save his life. he had been saved by science. i said wow mock, he is going to die. i said why do you think? he looks bad and second this is the denial speech. she had cancer and she was since cancer support groups and this is the speech you get out of people who are pronounced terminal and they are in denial. it's a classic denial speech. the show finished and they announced this had been a rerun, the viet died or good been taped a couple of months earlier and the man who advance saved by science was dead. he said an interesting thing in the show, which was rose asked him what do you think death is? is at the light at the end of the table? he said no no, he stopped at that. he said that this along dreamless sleep according to shakespeare. i thought that can't possibly be. sleep is kind of pleasant. you are breathing in your heart is reading and your narrow chemical p