i am a guy who lives every single day on an emotional high, so i am not a guy who runs. i am a guy who meets the challenge head on, who says, ok -- i said, what do i have to do to lives? take your medicine, have a positive attitude, and work out. he was telling me, i do those things, so that is what i have been doing for 20 years, so if i would have ran and hid, i probably would have died. i am being another person, so i like to control things on my own terms, so i have always been a man like fasthat. i am a competitive person. >> you asked what he did to live. you said, i have done those things. i cannot imagine 20 years ago you did not immediately think about dying, that you did not think about how long you have to live. if i am right about that, 20 years later, with all you have to live for every day, do you ever think about dying? >> you are right. as the first thing you think about. you think it is a death sentence to yourself, so i am thinking about getting affairs in order. i did not know what this meant for me. i did not know who anyone who lived for a long time w

who am i? and all of a sudden now not only who am i as a human being, but who am i as a german, as a jew? they were kicked out of their schools, they were depressed, they were scared. they lived in what i call the land of whispers. parents whispering to each other, what are we going to do? we don't have an income. how can we leave germany if we don't have money? should we send somehow grandparents away? how can they possibly make a change in their lives at their stage of the game? wis whispers. and the last whisper: should we send our kids away? parents thinking they would separate and send their kids away. in if 1933 -- in 1933 leo beck, a leader in the berlin and german community, said 1933, the end of german judaism has arrived. and an american jewish committee bulletin said if the future of adult jews in germany is hopeless, what can we say about the future of jewish children? to give you an example, this is eva's passport. you'll meet eva a little bit later on. eva went to england in 1935.

as am i have not dined for days. my lover who lives far away opens the door to my room and offers tea made from the liquid he's crying. i do not want my lover crying and i am sorry i ever asked for tea. my lover, who lives far away opens the door to my room pretending he never cried. he offers tea and cold cakes. the tea is delicious. spiced like the start of our courtship. honeyed and warm. i drink every bit of the tea and put aside the cakes. my lover who lives far away opens the door to my room like a man loving his strength. the lock i replaced this morning will not keep him away. my lover who lives far away opens the door to my room and brings me nothing. perhaps he has noticed how fat i have grown indulged. perhaps he is poor and sick as emptying his store. it is no matter to me any longer he has filled me already so full. my lover who is far away opens the door to my room and tells me he is tired. i do not ask what he's tired from for my lover far away has already disappeared. the blankets are big with his body. the cat, u

r&h(lc% >> being who i am, it was hard to live with me. moved in with this other guy that was gay. i was like, sure, we can be roommates, but it turns out he had other intentions as far as force himself on me so we got into a little altercation last night. >> did you do any damage to him? >> not really. no, he was like bigger than me. the only good thing that came out of this black eye is which it gave me a single cell. which is kind of a catch-22, since day one i've got here, i've been requesting one. really, i just stay by himself. the only people i kick it with is gay people, people that identify themselves as being transgender. >> later on we met two of roy's closest friends. >> trying to do a birthday party. >> what's today? >> my birthday. i thought it was a holiday. that's not on your calendar? it was on cnn on the scroll this morning. >> we were going to the gym and do pictures and then we had a little strip show. or something. >> i ain't got nothing to do with that. just for the record, i don't know what they're talking about. >>

>> i am who i am today because of it.d. >> no, no -- >> after jumping the hurdles and going through ups and downs, but -- >> now you bounce back. >> yeah. yeah. >> i know we don't know each other that well. but i know i'm going to get to know you. i'm going to make a -- you're going to be a big part of my life, honey, you and emily. >> i just want you to be there. >> i'm going to be there, you know what i mean? >> life is too short. >> it is. >> we waste time. >> i know. >> one week after his reunion with rayven, slagle received horrible news. >>> just days after seeing his and on small business saturday they remind a nation of the benefits of shopping small. on just one day, 100 million of us joined a movement... and main street found its might again. and main street found its fight again. and we, the locals, found delight again. that's the power of all of us. that's the power of all of us. that's the membership effect of american express. is this where we're at now? we just eat whatever tastes good? like these sweet hon

you are. >> you have no idea who i am? > would you like to know? >> yes. >> i'm chris hansen with "dateline nbc" and we're doing a story on adults who meet teens on the internet. and if there's anything else you would like to say to me about why you're here today, i would like to hear it. if not, clearly you're free to walk out that door. >> what do we have here? >> you can walk out the same door you came in. straight back. i tell campbell who i am and what we're doing. he leaves like the others and is immediately arrested and taken into custody and processed. >> we're going to remove these handcuffs and put a different set on you, okay? >> all right. >> do you want to go to the hospital and get checked out by a physician? >> i'm fine. >> you thought it was okay for a 31-year-old man to come to a home where a 13-year-old girl was alone because? where's it going to come from? ♪ that's why right here, in australia, chevron is building one of the biggest natural gas projects in the world. enough power for a city the size of si

while you are sitting there in silence, the question comes up, who am i? who am i, really?ithout me walking into a room and saying lionel, hello, who are you? i did it that time. you like that? >> better than mine. >> who are you really? as an artist, you are defined by your voice. now, let's look at when you first start. it's a young voice. as you get older, can you hit those same notes from 19 at 45. no? you take it down a half step. by 50 and 60 you take it down a whole step. in other words, you're not as spot on as you're supposed to be. >> what does the pressure of performance become like when you're going through that deterioration? >> you are going through what we call panic. because we are perfectionists. or as i say, all artists, you know, we're egotistical maniacs with inferiority complexes. we want to take over the world but at the same time, 15 seconds after walking down that elevator to walk off the stage, there's 30,000 people that said we love you. in your head you go, bet i can't do that again until you walk back up those stairs and actually do it. each time

i am honored to be nominated by the mayor to serve on the police commission. i will tell you a bit about who i am and what i would like to do as a commissioner. i stand before you as a potential commissioner, a mother of three, my husband had to go pick up our daughter. i am a former prosecutor and a former special assistant attorney general for the california department of justice. i am an executive and an innovative non-profit in the bay view. i'm the daughter of maureen roach, a woman who, while not born in the united states, love this city more than any other. mom would regularly remind us of the few things, we were lucky to be born in san francisco where we were injured our freedom. i remember her taking my sister and die to golden gate park. she would tell us about the day she became the united states citizen. it was among her proudest days. she told us that there were many others that would never have that opportunity and remind my sister and i that it was our obligation to fight for people that did not have the chance to fight for themselves. like many other people smarter than me, i

thank you, stocks miracle gro, and who am i forgetting? franklin county, my hometown local gardens curator -- my botanical gardens. this is an amazing example of what it takes to turn a community are round. it takes leadership from the public sector. we have two community challenge grants and the department of environmental justice grant, and that has kept us afloat. we would not be here if it was not for that. mendoza from the mayor's office is here. she would tell you she is first and foremost the mayor. she is on the school board. good we are blessed. it takes a lot of bridges with the community sector and the corporate sector to do things like this, and we feel like we have derived region we have arrived. and we are moving into the future because of you guys. thank you so much. good >> we would like to present a sharcheck. >> it does not look like it will fit in the atm. >> no. >> thank you. >> we have john murray who is here. we also have lynn here. we also have nicole riviera from leader pelosi's office, who is going to read a procla

i am a person who was out in the morning and i am a night person. i do not see any or most any police presence in the worst areas of the tenderloin. i hear from the police station ad jones and eddy. people get in their cars and go somewhere else other than the tenderloin. one thing; two or three business owners ahvehave been attacked. teresa sparks told me the police substation was supposed to open a few years ago, and is still not open. my question is, we know the situation. uit will be claimed to be a budget issue. we need san francisco citizens -- they need the same protections of other neighborhoods. and that is it. [applause] >> good evening. i am rico and i am a case manager for the -- organization. i will speak regarding our youth on the street in the school day. i feel the law enforcement is not doing enough to get the youth back to school, or stay home during the school day. when kids are on the street, it creates problems. not just among the youth but others are victimized. you are just hanging out doing nothing. i want to ask law enforcem

our youth department coordinator, nadia, peter -- who am i missing? with all the work, we have been able to make this a successful program. the program could not have been this successful, had it not been for the other members and the audience right now, the parents, caregivers, the adult allies, the friends, the cousin, and we also want to say thank you for supporting our warriors in making this monumental time in their lives. it is an honor for me to be able to be here to express my appreciation for the accomplishments that every one of these warriors has achieved. starting from helping pc y f -- dcyf informing our decisions, to helping us have a transparent and community-based project in the mission, to helping us advise the white house on what young people need in our country. i am sure each and everyone of you would agree it is such an inspiration to be in this room, in this space, with all of you, future leaders, and i definitely hope to see you one day in my position so that you can honor the next group of leaders. so i want to personally say c

am capeable. don't call me dummy. now whoyou think schnur i am a girl with just good grades. >> the morale of this story is that no matter what people think about you, all you have to do is show who you really are. even if the situation isn't good for you, you must make the best effort you can and you will succeed in this life. jenny chuasiriporn did -- life. [cheers and applause] >> all right. yell about the shooting, about the killings. mothers don't remember reality. phone call. angers, her client. who the media pictures fighting and screaming. wife drops the bottle. neighbors. let mep put some ink in your mind. blue, red, purple, green, black, so many colors of ink i'm going to start an art gearly. google me. violence is my silence. >> all right. i see a room with darkness. i see a room with darkness. i see the color white.

is there a god who knows i am sick? is there a god who cares that i am sick? >>> also, one of the world's most admired jewish rabbis, and the project that took him 45 years to complete. >>> welcome. i'm bob abernethy. it's good to have you with us. religious groups held rallies and a 48-hour prayer vigil in front the supreme court this week, as the justices heard oral arguments over arizona's controversial immigration law. at issue in the case is whether the state law infringes on the federal government's authority to establish and enforce immigration policy. but, several faith groups argue the law violates the dignity of immigrants and could result in racial profiling. for more on this, i am joined by kim lawton, managing editor of this program and patricia zapor, a staff writer with catholic news service who's been covering the faith community and immigration. pat, it's nice to have you back here again. >> thank you, it's good to be back. >> the catholic bishops and many other religious leaders want a whole new kind of approach to immigration. what specifica

am tavis smiley. tonight, a conversation with a three-time tony winner, who is out with a memoir about his life. it is called "dropping names," and it features some of the biggest names in business, including marilyn monroe, rita hayworth, laurence olivier, and more. we are pleased to have our conversation with frank langella, coming up. >> every community has a martin luther king boulevard. it's the cornerstone we all know. it's not just a street or boulevard, but a place where walmart stands together with your community to make every day better. >> and by contributions to your pbs station from viewers like you. thank you. tavis: always pleased to have frank langella on this program. he lasted joined us back in 2009. an oscar-nominated role for "frost/nixon," and he is out with a memoir, talking about many of the people he has met in show busins. his book is called, i love this, "dropping names: famous men and women as i knew them." >> it is good to be back. tavis: you were doing the media around for the "frost/nixon," and as we do with all of our guests, when they leave, we give them this mont

i am talking, what are the implications for someone who lives here? i am someone who lives in the city who wants to send my children to public school. if this comes up here, you can watch me leave. there are a lot of people in this community as well. you will see them leave. i moved to this area because it was quiet, because there was not a lot of traffic and it was a nice neighborhood, and if you put 400 cars in there, at on the emporium, the america's cup, this is not going to be a nice place to live. it is great you are going to put 150 units in there for people who make multiple millions of dollars, but they do not have kids. you will watch your city get older and get childless and it will be a tough place to continue. i am not against development. i am for development. if they want to develop this site and put zero parking spots on it, i am all for it. i have an issue with the parking spots. i have an issue with the new traffic. @ think you need to look at -- i think you need to take a look. it is great everyone is giving their views on the neighb

. >> i did not have anything that showed me it was ok to be who i am. >> i had times when i did not want to get up and get out of bed, face the day. >> the feeling was really low. >> i wanted to just not be around. >> i thought of suicide. i was depressed. >> mostly, the message was that there was something wrong with me and i should just died. >> it did not feel good to want what i thought everybody should want. it just made me angry. >> there was a part of me that was a little bit ashamed. >> when the pain got too bad, in the pit of my stomach, i realize i need to tell my parents. >> mom, i think i am gay. she says, i think i knew that. >> it was harder for me to tell my mom that it was for my mom to hear what i needed to say. >> i was a police officer for four years, thinking i was the only gay male police officer in the world. i believe i was the only gay male police officer in the world. >> others were like, huh? >> their jaws dropped. i expected my father to have a different reaction than he did. he looked about me and said, are you happy? i said, yes. he said, he looked down and s

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it's really about who i am and being at this place in my life of knowing more of who i am and what i want. it just -- >> i love that you clearly were looking for that you are getting in spades, judging by what i was reading, was the best sex of your life, ricki. >> yes, yes. >> your words, not mine. >> no, absolutely. and certainly when you are in love with someone, the sex is so much better. but i kind of -- >> is that why christian keeps smiling? i couldn't help but notice. >> he knows -- i think that's one of the things he loves about me. i'm like an open book. here it is. >> how does he feel about that? >> i don't know how he feels. he's not like that. he's not someone in the public eye, not someone that needs to be the center of attention. not that i need to be, but i am a lot of the time. i think it's a love/hate thing with my big mouth, right? >> there can't be many men who are going to object to have someone like you, internationally famous, beautiful woman saying it's the best sex she's ever had. it's not exactly the most damning thing ever, is it? >> no, take it as a compli

that's who i am. i haven't changed anything. haven't changed who i am, who my character is or what i do on and off the golf course. i'm bubba. for me it's just natural. it's just who i am. i don't -- i think that people are going to enjoy it more. i think people are going to see the everyday man learning how to play golf himself coming from the family i came from, the small town that i came from. they're going to realize that everybody has a chance to do this. you don't need the expensive golf coaches. krou don't need the expensive golf courses. you don't need all that. you can just learn to play in your backyard and go to the municipal courses and learn to play. >> business is buzzing around you. we have ping, pink driver. how long have you had that for? >> i've used it all year. i started beginning of the year for charity, trying to raise some charity dollars. now we yus releasted it to the public so they can buy it. >> 5,000 limited edition. your watch. you play with a 525,0$525,000 w i think. there it is right there. doesn't