i remember talking with natalie cole. she said to me, i don't regret. >> i never want to go back there. tavis: exactly. >> it is not even that. i didn't like it very much for a long time. there is a reason you do it. there is a good part of it. but then it is quickly bad. but then you have to continue to do it to keep saying, to keep from detoxing. it is really bad. but to answer your question, the thing is, i do not even know what i was talking about. hold the book up again. tavis: white is so -- and i mean this -- what is so arresting about this text is that you rarely read anything where the author is being dishonest, this authentic, this graphic, this much in detail. you read this and you feel like you're on the bathroom floor with you. >> thank you. tavis: you nailed the park. -- that part. >> that is a picture and ex- boyfriend took of me. i did it for fun. i'm not a writer. i am your reader. i did not want to do the fog -- they wanted to do roman numerals 12. i want to write a book the way i want to see the book. s