always a difficult time to think back and go back in my life because i was always going forward, dreenls, vision and go after it, the next one and so on so i did it. i thought that now with the governorship there's an interesting story and started working with it, but at the same time there is the scandal. so there was now a choice that i had to make do i want to make this a book about the success story of my life or do i want to go and really write about my life and write about all of the failures, all of the wrong decisions that i have made and on a personal leff and professional level and also the success story and i decided that i'm going to put all of it in the book and try to be as honest as possible about the good and the bad and that's exactly what it is about. you know, also i have to tell you, if those questions don't come up now and if this issue doesn't come out now, for instance, with the book, it will come up when the next movie comes out. it will come out when the -- >> so you have -- >> at one point or the other, look, i always have been a person that, you know, faces the