in hindsight, if she knew then what she knows now, she would go directly to child protective services. now, she is retired from the moraga school district and may best be known as a whistle blower in a sexual abuse case involving cal swim coach, kristen konane. they told her that a popular science tepor, dan witers, was abusing them. last year, she said she felt vindicated when she came forward. >> my husband came running in when he heard me screaming out. i knew it, i knew it, i knew it. why didn't somebody do something? >> reporter: buchanon said up to 25 years, the district didn't fire her but suggested she take a leave. she released a statement saying in part, i can't believe how

. >> i do feel guilty in hindsight. if it had happened today, there would be no problem. i would immediately go to cps. >> buchanon was not fired for making the complaint but was told to take a leave of absence. after hearing about buchanon, kristin kunan released a statement saying in part, i can't believe how many people at the school knew about the sexual abuse and how many warnings the district ignored to find out that there was someone at the school actually trying to help us and that she got punished for it is incredible. the school district is now trying to find documentation to corroborate her allegations >>> a teen is behind bars for the death of a newark memorial high school football star. 19-year-old abraham hade faces 16 years to life in prison for second-degree murder. the jury determined hade told lies from the witness stand blaming the death of osana futi on a 14-year-old friend. the 14-year-old confessed to the murder to save him from a longer prison term but later admitted hade was the killer >>> a 1-year-old boy recovering from the hospital after being s

in hindsight, senator, the positions and the portfolio did not act as a hedge. it changed dramatically. we misunderstood the risks. we misunderstood the complication in it. we ultimately misunderstood what the estimated performance of it would be, so in hindsight we got that wrong. >> so tyler, you hear brawnstein making a crucial acknowledgment there that essentially the trades were not a hedge as they had been purported to be and grew into something else. jpmorgan executives by braunstein's accounting didn't know what they were in the thick of it until they were way into the thick of it. more testimony this afternoon. >> thank you, kate kelly. and sue just said it, we have never had a losing year if the dow has had a big first quarter up 8% or more. and we are talking about some similar signs for big cap stocks now with jackie deangelis, and we will be joined to talk about standout in techs at the nasdaq which would be stronger if but for apple and however, you get to go first. >> that is right, tyler. despite the losses today, we are poised for one of the bes

well you know with hindsight the best solution would have been not you send an invitation and in the first place now oh it's a very bad situation where there are no good options and frankly i think daniel ellsberg of the pentagon papers whistleblower was quite correct years ago when the occupation wasn't close when when he said it us complete withdrawal of military troops from iraq is a terrible option and all the other options are worse that's what happens when you are lying on war to try to solve problems there are a billions of dollars in aid pouring into iraq is it doing the country any good. it's doing or no good. and others are running the government there is giving us huge profits but no on the hall ah there's very little down that's reaching the average iraqi person and of course the violence in you is not important to washington but very important of course the people who live in iraq nobody sullivan author of the book war made easy director of institute for public accuracy thank you very much and you know just to bring you the line again we're just hearing that cyprus m.p.'

but in hindsight, she says the decision was right. it simply would not have worked out at home, she explains. they have been put on the right path here and it is no surprise that she has come to value the rosaries so much. region, many of the people who live here are very religious. atmospherethe oppressive at first but now they deny -- elevate divide their lives between church -- and they go at least three times per week. >> she says she lacks the sense theommunity that binds village and they may come from a foreign family but people always ask them why they do this. -- the twoermans germans feel like part of the village community now. they -- lefts that home, because the left so many people in the village. the churches' in an important and meeting place for them. they have even learned the words of the romanian hems. there has not been time to bbenedicte picture of and-- benedict xvi -- everyone likes gossip but they for hispe francis attitude to the port. they said there was a lot of excitement surrounding his election. they explai

whether or not it could have been neat a different way i think we all in hindsight have a different take on that but we're talking about money of step increases with our labor partner and legal pay that people are legally required to get. and when it comes to budget it's not entirely clear including vacation for people who are leaving and the number of people for a fiscal year and we're talking about the issue of temporary salaries. i do think the issue of temporary salaries needs to be address. you take the position of the press person i don't know if it's essentially a press person in the way we think of a press person by you would need someone to respond to press releases and in that case, i think this is a permanent position but in the a temporary position. what we have here is a request i that i wish we didn't have to make but it will allow the office to pay for things that their goobd - obliged to pay. the supplemental that the district attorney brought for the record is an appropriate thing. i have a lot of respect for each office and i know it's not - i believe at this point the

although in hindsight he feels like a lot of his control issues were manifestations of him trying to suppress his own natural orientation. >> is he happier now? >> i think he is much happier. i'm much happier. [laughter] [applause] >> anderson: it's great that you have been able to remain friends. >> we are the best of friends. it takes just as much work to be happily divorced as happily married. and the global message of happily divorced the series is love is love and everybody has a right to live an authentic life and it is not a conditional thing, love. >> you are recommending and fighting cancer and you have a group and recommend people have cancer parties? >> yes. we have a new thing and can you go to cancerschmancer.org and learn how you can throw a party. it is like a it up are wear party but instead of telling plastic we are selling homemakers how to detox their home. as it turns out the home is the most toxic place we spend the most time in and by making smarter choices for what we put in on and around us, cleaning and gardening we can effectively reduce our cancer for ourse

that hindsight provides.hen pope john paul died, and we had something different with the john paul ii and the beautiful pontificate and could be more unexpected? could be. >> reporter: now, dolan says when you talk about tradition, the first pope of all, jamie, of course, peter, was a jewish fisherman, so, tradition is something that is kind of relative. but there are several candidates from pretty much every continent and again, people are wondering whether it might be a latin american, an american or whether it will continue to be another european, jamie. >> jamie: of course we won't know until the smoke comes out. thanks so much, amy. and did you know over the past century the number of catholics around the globe has nearly tripled to more than 1 billion as of 2010. more than 75 million believers are in the united states and it's about 7% of all catholics worldwi worldwide. >> kelly: they've changed the course of wars, taken out top terror targets and freed american hostages from some of the most dangerous

in hindsight, senator, the positions and the portfolio did not act as a hedge, it changed dramaticallywe misunderstood the risks. we misunderstood the complication in it. we ultimately misunderstood what the estimated performance of it would be. so in hindsight we got that wrong. >> reporter: late in the day official from the office of the controller of the currency also took a stand painting a picture of an arrogantly managed bank whose executives including jamie dimon told it to effectively mind its own business at times. >> that's unacceptable premise that the bank decides what information is provided to the occ and our auditors. >> reporter: a bad day for jpmorgan. >> all right. many thanks kate kelley. look me make a quick take on this. i have nothing against risk taking or hedging or big profits or great compensation. no problem. but, big banks like j.p. morgan are not real free enterprise companies where risk wos be borne by investors. j.p. morgan is essentially a government-run utility. it's backed by taxpayer money because it's too big to fail. that is not free market callism.

also rejected an accusation, looking back at that specific case, of this bombing in 2004, which in hindsight, it turned out to be right in the middle of this killing spree. he went and spoke to the cameras about 24 hours afterwards and specifically ruled out a link to right-wing terror. having said that, he qualified the comment, and instantly saying it is still open to investigation. today, he faced an allegation that there could be an inherently, that somehow he managed to frame the investigation away from this right wing link, which was not unearthed until five years later. >> it is complicated stuff. certainly, this investigation has been dragging on for an awful long time now. what we need is some sort of concrete indication as to why it took authorities so long to get behind what has been happening here. what is the explanation? when are we going to get something concrete? >> federal authorities and regional authorities are still at pains blaming each other where failures actually took place, but authorities across the board failed to connect the dots. this is something that is being i

so in hindsight, we got that wrong. >> the senators expressed concern that taxpayers shouldn't be on the hook for reckless trading of complex securities, and that tougher oversight is needed for similar high-risk transactions, especially in a bank that some consider too big to fail. >>> former federal reserve chairman alan greenspan told cnbc today he thinks the problem of getting too big to fail is getting worse, not better. one reason as he explained to me in an interview for "nbr" this morning is the structural flaws he sees in in the dodd/frank reform laws. i begin my conversation with the man who coined the phrase "irrational exuberance" in 1996, by asking whether we're anywhere close to that giddy spirit right now. >> nowhere close. the characteristics of what has been going on recently are actually more related to the removal of various types of what we call major areas of uncertainty, and the so-called tail risk, meaning the risks that are very unlikely to happen. but if they do, they have a very large impact. europe has been hanging over the american markets now for quite a

that followed cause an awful lot of deaths among civilians when we're talking about you now with hindsight saying that the wall in iraq withdrawal at what point events that took place it will point it in saying it wasn't the right thing today well the real problem is you discussing whether you should do it i came back and told tony the americans ago in him with or without riedel make the difference they're going in. on eyes of tony that it's almost regime change but we were already into the the difficulty with the politicians remember nearly two hundred people of our own people died quite apart from thousands and many thousands of civilians once you're in the war you get behind your troops you do not then have the arguments but now it's ten years on i'm looking at how i went through that process of change i think it's right to say now not to clear my conscience because i must accept the responsibilities for the part i played in the decision he had he come to accept that it's not easy people have died how do you do it even to talk about british troops was nearly two hundred of them right or

within ten years legislators would have anyway well i mean you i think that argument i think you know hindsight is twenty twentieth's there's no way to really know if that was the case i think in this particular case what we have i think what we what we've seen here is we've seen a situation where the polls have shifted the tides have shifted and the fact that this case has gone the supreme court mean that's something that is part of our social cause it's part of our social consciousness in this country and i you know the standing question is a big question we've seen the secretary the secretary general in california say you know there is no standing here but i think you take standing out of it and i think the supreme court making a decision is sort of telling of where we are the society chris does not think for the record just to be clear that the fourteenth amendment confers the right to get married to people who are gay. and she's right about that now. not at all and i'm just and i know that that i talked to high school students last night medicare who is bisexual she wants to marry a man an

increasingly full of victims of terror attacks the question is should those troops a stayed great hindsight question but do you think they should have stayed on alt. well see. we had no plan after after action plan after the invasion. you know people have written about it i wrote of the only person you always know that people would plan. and there was no plan for after the invasion we would the invasion and it did but nothing before afterwards so not only in answer to your question not only was there no plan for after the invasion like maybe an occupation for a few years or this or that but then paul bremer disbanded iraq's own security minister the minister of ministries the or the iraqi military and the iraqi national police which is like an interior army so with no plan for air for the invasion for the u.s. forces and coalition forces on top of that added to the fact that paul bremer disbanded iraqis own infrastructure for security it was and it is not at all coincidental that the insurgency picked up around two thousand and five two thousand and six so we really we are very very much re

to be on the ninety eight for the world trade center for this meeting and when it was attacked in hindsight you talk about how your personal experience with all of this shaped your perception of the official narrative and how nine eleven helped wall street cover up essentially billions of dollars in fraud while at the same time a limit in the questions being asked about it can you talk about that. well sure one of the clients that i had in the earlier company in two thousand and one that we were building these trading platforms on the web to integrate some of their legacy data so they could be accessed by private clients were jewish bank alex brown merrill lynch marsh and mclennan companies some of the largest brokerages insurance companies reinsurance companies in the world and then all of that out after nine eleven these companies are fraudulent lee you know involved in all sorts of insider trading the nine eleven continued to kind of rape and pillage for many many years afterwards and when you look at the financial data who was making money on that day who had the knowledge it does not l

they routinely looked through hindsight even though there are concerns of hindsight bias. if we could reach some consensus on how to resolve these claims on what the law should be going for, it would not be hard to power chords with the benefit of hindsight to entertain these claims. in a famous case, a justice suggested the increase of power doesn't come in a day. it does come slowly from unchecked disregard of the restrictions even the most disinterested assertion of authority. it seems to be these targeted operations by the executive branch present the legislature with two choices -- congress could except with limited screen or oversight the executive branch's claims these operations are carried out lawfully and with every element to it accurize accuracy and open the door to an check this regard of which the justice warren. or -- at which the justice warned. or before a neutral magistrate guaranteed by the constitution's salary and protection of so long as the interest and secrecy are protected and so long as operations are consistent with the constitution and laws of t

courts look at the circumstances through hindsight even those are concerns about hindsight bias.o i think if we could reach some consensus, mr. chairman, on how to resolve these claims on what the law should be going forward, it would not be that hard to empower courts with the benefit of hindsight to entertain these kinds of claims. now, in the conference, justice frankfurter suggested the increase the dangerous part is not an entity. it does come slowly from the force of unchecked disregard of the restrictions. it seems to me, mr. chairman, that the target killing operations by the executive branch present a legislature with two realistic choices. congress could accept with minimal scrutiny or oversight the executive branch's claims that these operations are, in fact, carried out unlawfully and with every relevant procedural safeguard to maximize their accuracy. and thereby open the door to the unchecked disregard of which justice frankfurter warned. or congress could require the public to defend these assertions in individual cases before a neutral magistrate -- by the constit

repeated at the rightish kind of moment as from bonds to stocks, stocks to bond every time -- >> the hindsightaighting looks phenomenal. >> yeah. >> so i think there's nothing wrong with getting a piece of that action again. but because the equity corrections won't be as big, in my opinion. the upside for bonds won't have been quite as big. i think also that perhaps -- well, i think the u.s. dollar is going to be a strengthening story throughout the year. >> is that because -- based on a growth differentials? >> yep. and monetary policy differentials as a result of that. i think that, you know, this cypriot thing has been a bit of a distraction in that they've got a deal done here. clearly for cyprus, this is not the end of the saga. they will now be put on a fiscal adjustment program that's going to go take them into deep, deep, deep recession. we've seen it with greece. >> yeah. talked about a 20% adjustment this real gdp. >> exactly. exactly. and so whether or not that's sustainable, i mean, it's just buying more time, right? there's only contagion risk in the eurozone crisis when the euroz

. >> in hindsight, there is room for improvement, hopefully the audits won't go on for three years. >rter: so here is what we now know, the city of san jose and the faa still have not reached an agreement. three years of your tax dollars funded to government audit and paid the salaries of dozens of city and federal employees to review and respond and still no conclusion. the faa has not backed down from its accusation of unlawful activity by the city of san jose, and the city continues to say it has done nothing wrong. more in the weeks ahead. >> if you have a tip for him or anyone else in the investigative unit, please call 888-996-tips or send us an e-mail directly to the unit at nbcbayarea.com. >>> all right, a beautiful day outside, kind of a little in between? >> yes, it definitely is, the transitional day, with the record-setting temperatures, mid-to low 80s, cloud cover, again producing the cloud cover, winds 15 to 20 miles an hour. expect clouds to stay in the forecast tonight. and the clouds by the afternoon, good enough to drop the temperature, still mild for the standards,

> i understand your point that you don't want these things to get out of hand and then have this hindsightt we should have done something. what i think would have been a better idea would be to look into it. check what other pictures the guys has. see that he is an nra instructor, and then realize that this isn't a problem. if it is a kid and you can see him smoking a bong and he has a gun maybe you should look into it. to send people over to the south with the cops there and then there is a child welfare officer. >> the creepy thing is that the person who does this may just be harassing you. the interesting thing, the department of children and families actually encouraged you to be abandoned. it is not a question. i was just mocking your sad, pathetic life. i am so glad that when i was in high school the only fates book -- facebooks we had were the kind where you could draw a bubble and say i suck next to it. tab -- if it proved something they are everywhere. it is including your facebook page. i feel bad for any kid who wants to throw out a harmless picture smoking the joint or holding

saying there, it seems as if this memo of what the results were from the rnc taking a look back in hindsight of 2012 that that information is not trickling out to the masses of people to get with the program. >> right. well, look, the problem with that to me is the comment made in the statement you just read. look, you can't talk about the homosexual community in those terms but i also don't like the fact that someone says, well week got to win elections. that's not the issue either. if you want to stand up for your principles, that's fine. but there's a way to do it and present it where you're not offensive to other people. this isn't about marriage that i read in this article. it was something much more deplorable, calling the homosexual community filthy. i think that turns off a lot of voters. you need to have a conversation of common sense, let people into your party and show people how we're alike. and using terms like wetbacks and filthy don't help the situation or the party. it shouldn't be about winning elections. it should be about taking a stand for what you believe in and principl

this is looking back in hindsight, but i was open to trying new things. being adventurous. but my dating strategy was to say yes. ♪ i'm just a girl who can't say no ♪ >> as i was reading your book, it seemed like you were more of what we think of as a man, just sort of could care less, just wants the sex act and move on. >> i certainly cared. i have to say connection was always the most important thing to me, but sometimes i could be tonight is just about fun and that's okay, too. sometimes it didn't have to be so serious. more light hearted about it. >> what made your husband the one you ultimately chose different from the others. >> what my mother told me is a lie. >> i was the one who, after being with a lot of people, i gained experience. i gained a nugget from every single person i was with. i was like, okay, if you find a collector, be wary of that, that might be a red flag. >> one guy collected garfields. >> that is a little weird. >> though at the time i was like -- >> but here's the difference between you and me, and there are a few. i would have

>> based on the benefit of hindsight, the bank and i were misinformed and correct when i said we were very comfortable. based on information i had available to me at the time from a whole range of sources, independent work done, i believe that to be true, passes i discovered there were behavior patterns, in consistent subsequent to the thirteenth in the portfolio's performance, myself and jamie dimon, john hogan, began a much deeper inquiry. >> besides the traders who miss marked the book, who should be held accountable or has anyone been held accountable aside from the traders for breaching jpmorgan's own internal risk limits and adjusting the risk models? >> is that a question for me? >> yes. besides the traders, i am sorry, besides the traders who miss marks the book who should be held accountable for breaching jpmorgan's and internal risk limits and adjusting the risk models? >> an aggregate, the task force's report that there were a number of mistakes made in the risk organization, the finance organization which i ran and as senior management and i deeply regret those mistakes. >

>> in hindsight, yes. >> that's a salute including the lazy hitler one. >> i would like to rally condemn both of them. this guy is banned from national teams. does it mean he could play in your hobo league? >> no because many of the hobos are, believe it or not, members of the jewish faith. i will answer your question with, and i know you love another question, why? i ask the media gods this, but why must we insist on both television and newspaper, radio -- well not radio, but it is a signal that basically means death to all jews and it is fine for all of us to show. we have some f-ed up priorities, people. as far as he is concerned i am trying to believe him because high never heard smart and soccer player in the same time? >> i honestly think he didn't know. i know that it is -- look. he is 20 years old. he probably has been playing soccer since he was 8. do you think he knew it? >> yes. >> he clearly knows that. >> the german neo nazi party is making headway in greece? he probably saw it on tv. it probably means yay greece. >> there are like 18 or 20 seats . >> you have a sport that i

. >> in hindsight they were prosecuted for something they didn't do.ompanies from five to four, they basically achieved nothing, except having less competition in the accounting world. i love the idea in theory that we could create a system like this. but there is actually something easier we can do before this, which is actually criminal prosecution of executives. but it is difficult to do that. but we can try harder at that, rather than try to dismantle them, you have a range, from the civil, the criminal, the entity. certainly you prosecute individuals as well as we did. but the entity itself needs, as corporations are the legal entities need to be held accountable. otherwise, as eric holder says, they go on forever. >> there is this bipartisan bill, from senators david vitter, a louisiana rather, and sherrod brown, to break up the big banks. the measure has changed from bill to bill, i haven't looked at them recently. but do you think we have the ability to do that without actually roiling the big banks, it is better than what we have now? >> yes,

. >> secretary, in hindsight, was it a mistake to take the missile off-line and now having to spend theoney to reactivate it? >> well, i'm going to ask either the vice chief or another to answer that question, because they have been through the process. i will take one more, and then we will get back. >> when north korea will have a true, intercontinental ballistic missile. >> well, one of the reasons, again, we are doing what we are doing based on the intelligence we have is to assure that whenever there timelines are, we are not reacting to those timelines, that we are ahead of any timelines of any potential threat. we feel confident that to have the 30 in place now and the additional ones before the end of 2017 and that gives our country the security it needs, and people need to be assured that that security is there. let me ask the undersecretary and the vice chief to take your specific questions. thank you. >> can you be clear on one thing? deploying the additional 40 interceptors by 2017 is contingent on the defense agency approving that the warhead is verified and can hit a targe

in hindsight, if it had happened today, there would be no problem. i would immediately go to cps. >>> now, after finding out about buchanon, she released a statement saying in part, i can't believe how many people at the school knew about the sexual abuse and how many warnings the district ignored. to find out that there was someone at the school actually trying to help us and that she got punished for us is incredible. >>> for its part, the district is saying it is still trying to find documents to corroborate what buchanon has said. christie smith, "today in the bay." >>> 6:33. people in one west san jose neighborhood will meet today without city leaders. community members are not happy about how a mite meeting went down about a proposed mcdonald's on the corner of bollinger and miller last night. council members say they cannot prevent the mcdonald's from being built, only whether it has a drive-through or not. more than 800 people signed a petition to try and prevent it from opening across the street. >> it looks like we are going to have to brin

>> in hindsight -- yes or no did you have to talk so him. i'm not asking about hindsight. isn't it true you could have chose own to not to talk to him, right? >> i could have i think. >> you keep saying i think. >> at the time -- >> ma'am, you keep saying i think. jenna: yesterday after another day of grueling cross-examination by the lead prosecutor juan martinez, jody arias broke down. >> were you crying when you were shooting him? >> i don't remember. >> were you crying when you were stabbing him? >> i don't remember. >> how about when you cut his throat, were you crying then? >> i don't know. >> so take a look then. and you're the one that did this, right? >> yes. >> and you're the same individual that lied about all this, right? >> yes. >> so then take a look at it. jenna: he is asking her to take a look at the picture, the picture of the dead body of her boyfriend. dr. daniel bober is a forensic psychiatrist and he joins you now. what is your take? after seeing a couple snippets, you've been following this case, what is your professional opinion what is happening on

i can raise alarm bells with hindsight and maybe they should have been spotted, like i said, but there must be many disturbed people out there who don't really cry out i'm going to shoot loads of people. what can america do to try and identify them? >> that's a great point. that's why we have to be cautious and we have to be very cognizant about what weapons and what type of magazines we have out there and what backgrounds we do. as police chiefs, we do a lot of background checks to make sure that those who we give pistol permits to or registrations for for weapons that we make sure we know who they are. i think that when we also talk about the capacity of the magazine, just having those types of magazines, having those types of weapons out there which are available to the average civilian, not law enforcement, not the military, is a problem we don't know in whose hands they're going to be. in this case if you read the documents, it showed clearly that the safe was not secured. well, that's an issue as well. when we were on the show last time i suggested that when we talk about gun loc

but in hindsight, we should have strangled him with a blockade and used our air power to destroy his infrastructure. talking points is not a second guesser. my opinion about the iraq war 10 years ago was based on reality. not ideology or party politics. but the reality for america has now changed. as we are seeing in afghanistan, we simply cannot impose democracy in human rights on nations that have no real desire for those things. as we'll show you later in the broadcast, most people in iraq today despise the u.s.a. and i think the same can be said for the afghans. no matter how much good we do for these people, they don't like us. because we are infidels. so we cannot, cannot wage war for any other reason than to protect the homeland. america and the coalition won the iraq war because of our brave military and because president bush finally wised up and used both brains and brawn. we were lucky. most democrats wanted to surrender. give bush credit for toughing it out. you can also criticize him for not anticipating the difficulties of that campaign. bottom line, bottom line, let's

how do you feel as you look back, hindsight being 20/20 about what that moment in time did to your lifee today? >> well, it changed joe and i profoundly. we've worked really hard to rebuild our lives, professionally and personally. you know, ultimately we put our faith in the justice system, and we wish there had been further repercussions, but i find it interesting that his voting rights are being restored. former vice president cheney talked about the fact that he was not pardoned by president bush, was like leaving a good man on the battlefield, which i find that analogy to be particularly reprehensible given that soldiers every day are truly dying on the battlefield. and, you know, i think it's really -- the whole episode is just a small example of a larger pattern of behavior that we saw under the bush administration. this month is ten years since the iraq war began, and completely flipped in how the american public views it. over 60% now believe that it was a terrible mistake. >> valley plame working now with global zero. valerie, nice to have you on today, thank you. >> thank you

. >> hindsight is 20/20. >> still probably wouldn't have. i have my doubts. i wouldn't. >> before, something you would have considered. >> i would probably do that before i would jump out of a plane. i would chicken out. on that one too. >> i'm with you. >> two chickens. count us in. >>> coming up -- lindsay lohan's misfortunes enter a new arena, the movie theater. >> an actress taking a rest, and you get to watch. stay tuned for "the skinny." >> announcer: "world news now" continues after this from our ♪ skinny so skinny ♪ skinny so skinny >> all right, time now for "the skinny." usually the stories are really fun. we will start off with some kind of sad news. the actress from the twilight movies, played character alice, her name is ashley green. a fire in her condo over the weekend. claimed the life of one of her dogs. really sad news. a picture of her. played alice, one of edward's sisters the one with psychic ability. i know you a big "twilight" fan. >> not really. >> in hollywood over the weekend. around 9:30 in the morning. in her third floor unit. with

it's always easy with the distance and benefit of hindsight to make judgments about what someone shoulddone but i think those closest to the situation had said that the future pope at that time did what was in his power, of course, a nobel peace prize winner from argentina, known for being a ferocious critic of the regime has also come to his defense. my suspicion it's probably one of the stories that's not going to have legs. >> john allen, so good to see you, john, thank you for your insight. >>> cpac is packing up today. it did manage to bring in some pretty big college crowds, they weren't there to see the oak ridge woods perform. he'll ask "state of the union's" candy crowley, who were they there for? >> i got to guess rand paul, and this is an umbrella group for conservative groups, mostly republicans but there is a libertarian streak very much in rand paul that does tend to attract young people, as his father did, and i think we can tell by the results of the straw poll at cpac which of course declared rand paul to be the winner that a lot of them came to hear him. he was coming

but now when i look back in hindsight, if i could have done it differently, i would have liked to thinkave found the strength or find the fortitude or the grace to kind of make the hard decision. >> reporter: for harris, the burden almost became too much to bear. >> you want to escape the turmoil and your mind goes to dark places sometimes. but i would just say that i -- i'm happy today. i'm glad that, you know, i didn't actually -- but those are just ideas and i didn't act on any of those things. and that, you know, it does get better. >> reporter: you haven't spoken about this to any media at all. so why now? >> i want people, you know, whether they're gay athletes or athletes still in the closet or youth who aren't quite sure what they're sexuality is to realize that not only is that not unique but those feelings are common feelings. don't feel incredibly alone in having these questions. secondly, that i'm gay and i'm a former athlete and i think i'm a pretty normal guy. >> coy wire joining me live tonight. it's interesting when your friend talks about, you know, the cost is great. t