but i never knew anything about his you know that p s t v p s t v. so i never knew we had all those those problems are nothing and. some people come back from deployments or just you know unless. they're hiding a really good like that all the sudden just. in the afternoon i came home it's like i his truck was in the driveway parked getting crazy and everything like only went out last night or something and i come in and unlock the door and. usually just lock the bottom one and. a lock it walk in through the door. it happened right here. and i walk in. and all that i see is is feet. you know laying in the lane in the hallway and then i see like little red and brown spots and stuff from my first thought is you know oh he he got drunk last night he's passed out on four or he was moving something heavy any tripped and he hurt himself. and i come over to arm and i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood lead everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you kn