and kadija elauf. that iraq. it is in the middle of the night in iraq right now. hayder, you get up, go to work, get the kids to school. how do you do this day in and day out? how do you do something as simple as going to the grocery store and dying because you were in the wrong place, in the wrong time? how do you do this without dying? >> especially when you have your kids with you or without your kids, every time when we go out and when we go -- when they go off to school or when i go to my business, i keep in my mind, are they safe, are they come back, are they very good? before two days, i take them with me by the car, they say, oh father we are bored, can we go out? i say good, let's go someplace wrt with the car. after ten or five minutes, a blast bomb car on the road and suddenly, to us, very rush and crowded. and then, the ambulance sirens and the fireman and i just couldn't make -- how can i come back to my home? and my wife, calling me and couldn't get the number, and then, i stop for a moment, i said oh, same day. tomorrow will be better. it's our life