kim goldman is with us now. do you wish you had? >> no. that's not who i am.n't have that violence in me. i did fantasize. it was 18 years ago. >> i remember talking to you in the year after and during the trial and you were, like, he killed my family member. >> yeah. i think people have a hard time now because the title of my book is "can't forgive" people wonder how i can't forgive and still have rage in my heart. i'm managing. it's appropriate anger that i have towards him and appropriate grief for the loss of my brother. >> are you surprised in any way that there hasn't come a time, a sort of come to jesus moment, where he just laid it all out? >> i mean, my feeling, he wrote that book and that was his way of righting the wrongs. i think of the things he said people thought of him and that was his confession. i don't think anything else will come after that. >> why did you write the book? >> i wanted to talk about closure and forgiveness. i wanted to show myself that i am taller than i used to be. i'm standing prouder. i want to leave a legacy for my son.

. >> kim goldman was watching and worrying.we need to bring him to court. >> if he's not guilty, then what's he running for. >> all i did was love nicole. all i did was love her. >> i understand. >> i love everybody. i tried to show everybody my whole life that i love everybody. >> it was surreal, it was devastating cox this get any worse. >> well, maybe not worse, but certainly more weird with crowds cheering on simpson as if he were making a heisman like dash for the end zone. >> in front of the suspect vehicle. >> it became something of a macbre carnival. it was a very good chance this was going to turn out to be something truly ghastly. >> finally, they finally pull into rockingham. >> everyone's hearts was pounding through their chests. we don't know what's going to happen. we don't know if he's going to get out of the car and have a shootout with the police. knowing o.j.'s tendency toward the dramatic, i couldn't have written off the possibility that he was going to kill himself. >> for nearly an hour, he sat in the bronc

people kept putting notes in front of me, i don't have time to read that stuff. >> kim goldman also hopestive lang's pleas can keep o.j. alive. >> when everybody else was yelling shoot him, just end this, i was like, no, no, no, i need to know what happened. i needed the truth, i was very nervo nervous. >> and she was right to be nervous. during the chase o.j. seems despondent. >> get rid of the gun, please. too many people love you, don't give it all up. don't hurt anybody. >> i'm just going to leave, be with nicole. that's all i'm going to do, that all i'm trying to do. >> when he said i just want to be with nicole, i just want to go to her grave, that's all i want to do. is that true, did you believe that? >> honestly, no. what does it mean, you want to go be there, you want to sit at her grave? you feel remorse for what you did? a lot of people thought he was going to take his life. i'm like, no, sorry. >> you didn't think he was going to? >> no. >> why not? >> i just know that with the people i know that have committed suicide, they don't talk about it, they do. >> it's going to be a

the biggest sociopath in the world doesn't mean he hates his family. >> kim goldman also hopes detective alive. >> and so when everybody else was yelling shoot him, just end this, no, no, i just wanted to know what happened. so i was very nervous. >> and she was right to be nervous. during the chase, o.j. sounds despondent. >> don't do this. >> all i did was love nicole. all i did was love her. >> hey, it's going to be better tomorrow. get rid of the gun. toss it. please. too many people love you, man, don't give it all up. don't hurt everybody. you're going to hurt everybody. >> i'm going to leave. i'm going to go with nicole. that's all i'm trying o to do. >> when tom lange and o.j. were talking in the bronco and he said i just want to go o nicole. i want to go to nicole's grave. was that true? did you believe that? >> no. you want to go sit at her grave? you feel remorse for what you did? a lot of people thought he was going to take his life. and i'm like no, sorry. >> you didn't think he was going to? >> no. >> why not? >> i just know that with the people i know that have committed s

. >> kim goldman was watching and worrying that simpson might not survive. >> we need to bring him tohave his day at trial. >> if he's not guilty, then what is he running for? >> all i did was love nicole. all i did was love her. >> i understand. >> i love everybody. and i have tried to show everybody my whole life that i love everybody. >> it was surreal. it was devastating. could this get any worse? >> from the north bound 405. >> maybe not worse, but certainly more weird, with crowds cheering on simpson as if we were making a heisman-like dash for the end zone. >> 10-4, pedestrians running in front of the suspect's vehicle. >> it became something of a macabre carnival. >> there was a very, very good chance this was going to turn out to be something truly ghastly. >> finally, after 90 riveting minutes, they pulled into rockingham. >> take him down if you have to. >> everyone's heart was just about pounding through their chests. we don't know what the hell is going to happen. you don't know if he's going to get out of the car and have a shootout with the police. knowing o.j.'s tenden

kim goldman ron's sister was there. >> when you're sitting there, you don't think it is because it'si was watching it happen. didn't pull it. i was watching the theatrics of how that all went down. >> reporter: in october 1995, it took the jury just four hours to come back with a not guilty verdict a verdict that split the country. simpson went on to lose a civil trial and was ordered to pay $33.5 million to the victim's families. >> well over $40 million now. our judgment, and we've collected less than 1% but we're still actively pursuing it and we'll do as long as we need to. >> reporter: simpson eventually went to prison but not for murders much the 66 year old is serving a 33 year sentence for an armed robbery in a vegas hotel room in 2007. in los angeles, trace gallagher, fox news. >> in florida, a courtroom outburst earns a man extra time in jail. >> i'll see you guys -- well, i'll see you guys with lawyer and a lawsuit, too. >> oh, okay. bring him back, please. >> and you can go bleep too. >> christopher colin appeared in ft. lauderdale in bond court today after his arrest for

. >> reporter: kim goldman says the last photo was taken perhaps either the day of ron's murder or thehe says is that o.j. simpson was finally sent to prison only after trying to take belongings he was hiding from the goldmans. i spoke to simpson's attorney and says she doesn't know about his net worth. but if he ever gets out of prison and tries to make a living, kim says we'll be there waiting and watching. much more on my interview on cnbc.com and jane wells' hair through the 90s. >> you were there, you haven't aged a single bit from 20 years ago from when you were covering it. that's your daughter ann from take your daughter to work day. where is she now? >> she is actually in law school at usc and wants to be a prosecutor. you can see she was digging for the facts as well as the rest of us at the courthouse. she wants to be a prosecutor. i don't know what impact that trial may have had on her. that was my life for three years, and that's probably the most i saw her in one day during that time is when i took her to court with me. >> you got her started early and i'm sure she enjoye

you, jesus. >> reporter: for today, josh mankowicz, los angeles. >>> we're joined now by fred and kim goldman's father and sister, and kat kato kaelin who was living at o.j. simpson's guest house at the time of the murders. good morning. >> good morning. nice to see you. >> we spent a lot of time in the months since your son's murder. its a been 20 years. i can see the time passage on your face a little bit. mine as well. has the time passed in your heart? >> no. it's like yesterday. loss is exactly the same. nothing has changed. nothing. >> no sense of normalcy returning to your life at some point over these past 20 years or is it a new normal? >> it's just become a new normal minus my son. without any of the opportunity to share his life with him, his joys, his happinesses, his successes, all of that's gone. >> kim, you've written a book recently and you spoke to savannah and you talked about the need to reclaim your path in life and your life. did you have to actively force yourself to do it or does it occur naturally for you at some period? >> i think i had to actively force myself becaus

we're going to look back with some of the major players, including fred and kim goldman and that infamous we are learning more about the tragic accident that critically injured actor and comedian tracy morgan and killed another well-known comedian. the truck driver's lack of sleep is now being blamed for that crash, and nbc's tom costello has more on that. tom, good morning. >> reporter: savannah, good morning. state prosecutors in new jersey say they believe that that driver who slammed into the limo, the truck driver, hadn't slept in 24 hours. that's raising concerns about the hours that long haul truck drivers are required to drive, just as we're hearing the 911 calls from the accident early that morning. to everyone on that stretch of the jersey turnpike early saturday, it was clear the accident was horrific. >> a terrible accident. the car flipped. it's on its side. >> reporter: police say the driver of the wal-mart truck, 35-year-old kevin roper, hadn't slept in more than 24 hours. his truck slammed into the limo, killing jimmy mack mcnair. veteran comic tracy morgan remains in crit

. ♪ nationwide is on your side ♪ >>> ron goldman, a 25-year-old waiter, with dreams of having his own restaurant, was very close with his sister, kimd father, fred. >> we were just each other's safe haven. we knew we were each other's foundation and our comfort and it just was easy. >> he had a heart of gold. absolute heart of gold. >> they buried ron just days a of the murders. >> my dad just kept saying, it should be me, it is not supposed to be him. it should be me, it should be me. >> any parent that has ever had to do that knows what a painful, horrifying, gut-tearing feeling it is. >> ron goldman was a waiter at a restaurant that nicole frequented. and that night, he was in the wrong place at the wrong time. now, 20 years later, his sister, kim, reveals in her new book she still can't forgive the man she believes murdered her brother. >> this is deliberate, vicious, this is no act of forgiveness. >> nicole brown simpson, a 35-year-old mother of two, and sister of denise. >> tell me about the picture. >> oh, my favorite picture of me and my sister. and that is how i remember her. like this, fun, fun-loving. >> her funeral, att

jen, did you notice, that just the other day, remember ron goldman's dad had the big mustache, he still, after all these years, is accusing kim's dad, robert kardashian, of taking a louie vet and garment bag, supposedly the bloody oj clothes in it, and walking off with it, and we never saw the bag again. so many accusations, mountain of evidence. what's interesting when you see the goal man family, famously watched him and his daughter in court, day after day, and remember, when the verdict was red she balled her eyes out. they look the same, they feel the same. >> it is like one day has not passed let alone 20 years -- >> how about this, though? whole accusation that chloe kardashian. >> yes. >> is actually the biological daughter of oj. >> yes, because of an affair, with chris, and oj. right? >> because again these families were so tight-knit at this point. and chloe looks a little different than the rest of them, but of course chris, you know, has disputed that a million thousand times. >> side by side? >> and not just pictures of them, the pictures of chloe, compared to the simpson children. that they bear a resemblance. >>

goldman. the husband of chris ly waand father to kim, chloe, courtney and rob would become simpson spokespersoninterview, kardashian admitted he had doubts about his friends innocence. simpson is se