christian broadcasting network, who pounded into me that i was not supposed to leave, that jesus wanted methere, that i was supposed to stay on . that my purpose was set and for three days, they were praying over me and showing me biblical scriptures about why jesus wanted me to stay. until i succumbed, i said okay, i'll stay. >> two days later, i cdn from florida, i'm fired in the parking lot. and told that my services would no longer be needed because pat's son was going to take my place on the 700 club. pat is now officially off because he is running for president in the primaries. and i was sort of sitting there wondering which jesus was talking to me, wasn't the jesus of the beach in fort myers or was it the jesus in the parking lot. >> faculty into a tailspin. and for many many months, so in order to save my own soul and my own sanity i decided to throw the baby out with the bathwater. religion and ritual religiosity and god and jesus and everything, start over. >> so i went for 2200 mile bicycle ride to clear my head. >> that translate to when you found the tapes of your father and you k