i'm trying to follow the wise words of stephen cave and epicurus and shake my fear of death but what about my fear of growing old. i returned to the nursing home to learn more about how my grandfather lived in his final years. ones that are. you mean this is where my grandfather spent the last years of his life before you could barely see or hear he was isolated from the world. i find that terrible. day every now if i mean that i see but only the. know but there he was nearly blind and couldn't hear much was in fact a kind of isolationism let me down and always will let me go. but thanks to his zest for life and positive attitude he compensated for that with friendships kobe southie often said now i am very often but he tried to take every day as it came to living day to day that wasn't a problem for him but i thought they were like witty obviously good that's a comfort to me and i'm happy for him. i thought that was. what. during my quest for immortality i've at least grasped that i won't be going anywhere with my body and i've come to realize that i belong to a species humans. i'm