who i was anymore. ink that was probably the moment for me when i started embracing pride. >> same question. >> i came out probably later then all of you at 43. but there's a quote that says everybody comes out at the same time when they are ready. i came out when i was ready. there's a lot of stigma and shame for people who are married in a straight marriage because you built your entire life on that lie. you built everything on it. as the years pass it gets harder and harder to come out. when continuing to lie and telling the truth or both forms of betrayal you can get stuck there for a while. if you love someone, you have to come out to them. you have to give them the truth. they deserve it. so it took a lot of unlearning to embrace myself, to embrace my kids. i think what i think of as pride is best summed up in what my daughters say to me, they say, we want a marriage like yours and paul's. my husband is here in the audience. that to me finally made me proud that i was displaying something so authen

but i was unaware to the depths of which i wasas involve. amy:y: and you're not wearing yr ownpants? >> correct. amy: and you're missing your underwear. >> correct. yes, my dress was hiked up to my waist. i did not have underwear on and i did not understand why or how they could be gone. and i was given hospital pants. amy: did you ask anyone to explain what is going on? >> no. i figured if there was something that grave, they would tell me more explicitly. i also refrained from asking because i think i knew something was wrong, and i wasn't prepared to hear the answer. i did not want you to tell me that i had been assaulted. i wanted that ignorance. and sometimes you need that in order to sit down with the detective ash which i did that morning -- and be levelheaded and go back to your night and right through it all to give him answers. if they had disclosed everything at that moment, i t think i woud hahave been completely immobilized, unable to digest that information. so instead, i was released home and not given anything more. amy: you h

but then i was sitting in the watching catfish, i remember this plain as day, and i was just sitting there, and i just kept putting my lotion on, and i was like, no. and it took me weeks for me to really realize what happened. and i was, like, i'm going to have to hit this girl. [laughter] see, that's like a whole other thing. the only space, i already know how it's going to be received if i just say anything, then you like shut down on that. and i think that's, like, the power of microaggression. like having to break through that fear of how you'll be perceived and just, like, like i said, they'll go around it. like going through it. and that takes, like, a lot of, like, time and, like, amping yourself up to do. it sounds like so easy to be like, girl, i'll slap you if you say that again. [laughter] it's not that easy when you're, like, in the moment. >> right. >> yeah. >> great. we are running out of time, but i did have, i wanted to give you a chance to if you have anything to add about your books or about anything else? >> i had a question for you because you were saying like, oh,

i was quite old by then, i was 65.e as you well know in the ‘70s including leaders of the world so age wasn't really the problem, it's just you saw a shortcut, you saw that money could deliver you something, perhaps give you more power than running as an mp. it wasn't so much that i wanted to look at power, in fact, i was idiotic. and i went to see william hague because i rodney leach, before he could opening his mouth, i told him why i was doing this and i ended up saying, if i was offered a peerage, i should reject it and further, i was stupid enough to say i want no influence at all over the cabinet or over your policies. i think you changed your mind about that over time. yes. it interests me given your background that you've said and again the book you discussed it, that your views of broadly libertarian, you are right of centre when it comes to economic policy—making. "i am right wing economically. "the critical point i suppose is that i would be in favour "of being not at all kind to those who do not have a job

so i knew jeb was finished. they didn't want -- he's a good guy but he's a little low energy, am i right? we were in a moment, ladies and gentlemen, when isis was going around cutting people's heads off. christians and jews were being persecuted unlike any time in this millennia. the economy was in a rut. illicit illegal immigration was running rampant all around this country. we did not feel like it was the america we grew up to believe it was. i'm 32. there's some people younger here than me. some people older than me here. i guarantee you under obama we didn't feel like that was the america we recognized, am i right? [applause] so i said to myself, my colleagues over at the hudson institute told me go get your feet wet. we are going to get you in with one of those establishment campaigns. you are going to do great. are you 28. you are going to move up the ranks. and obviously people were predicting clinton might have won, get your feet wet and come back and continue working in the swamp. that would have been t

i was watching him with my husband and i had a holiday i was on the gulf of mexico with him and we saw these kinds of hearings people in japan australia and around the world. people caring so much. i thought it was wonderful. actually that launch launched my career. it was my first to launch. i think there are working that they did not let me sit there and lift off. there was always a man at that council and my thoughts went to bed i got permission for me to sit there. all of a sudden it made a difference. i got seen by everybody and she said she's been working her for ten years isn't it about time? it's a little bit about my story. it's great to be here with you. (applause) >> she began her career and areas with as a human a country that was pretty quickly promoted to engineer working in mission control a johnson space center underway turn to its trajectory. her presence and mission control to the incident of the media and placed her in the public eye making her and inspiration to young boys and girls around the world. poppy. >> unlike john, i did not have this big plans to be in the

it was my first launch to be in. i mean, i'd been there working on propellant loads and other activities but they didn't let me sit there at liftoff. there was always a man at that console. my boss went to bat and got permission for me to sit there. and all of a sudden, it made a difference. i got seen by everybody and my boss said, well, she's been working here for ten years, isn't it about time? so it's a little bit about my story, anyway. it's great to be here with you. >> thank you very much, joann. [ applause ] poppy northcutt began her career in aerospiace as a human computr but quickly promoted to engineer working in mission control in johnson space center on the rush retu return to earth trajectory. her presence in mission control placed her in the public eye making her an inspiration to young boys and girls around the world. poppy? >> thank you. [ applause ] unlike joann, i did not have this big plan to be in the space program. i graduated from the university of texas with a degree in mathematics and went to l

that i was i. i i. i i i i 7 i yeah i got. you know the west some actions i saw that i didn't agree with as you can probably see in my video however there's 2 sides to every story i just wanted to document what i saw. was. the i. i. i was into it has to get out in front of the legislative console to try to. stop our. legislative process i i i think that. i. we go hot so you cannot blame every protester who used more radical rape to response. but i thought the month response. from hong kong legislature plans folks they got into pockets 1st elected by every hong kong people dislike them up by the professionals at the company saw at the cafe and. have no need to listen to the all call people. gradually over the last few months to see if the morals of expected to be on the still so there are 5 major demands the 1st time is of course to which are out there actually. there is also the demand to release all arrested protesters they want the designation of rights to be removed and both the government and t

it wasn't an exact date but when i was in middle school i remember i was surprised i didn't realize a teacher was writing on the board and i was missing stuff or there was information missing that i experience the world was different than how adults experienced it. so i had a meeting with one of my teachers for the blind and the mainstream teacher that's how i started to realize how i experience the world is different from others. others who just go to school and expect the teacher to teach them. i could not do that. i had to think about how could i find out. and all my life with this process to identify unknowns. >> from your book you write the blind community has horror stories of blind kids that never contribute around the house because their parents tell them that they can't. my parents expect me to do chores and i do. >> that's true. the truth is as a kid i had to do chores. they expected me to do chores. i learned visual techniques like for doing dishes. they would say you can't do that if you are blind or just go sit in a corner and not participate and then to develop these ind

know nothing like that i was there to. say so why does it have to be so big to see why 20 do tell me when i said if i think. i love ladies how you're laughing at us. coming. so why did you type painting to play that card to that oh i was thinking you've got the news in your life. and i you know i was able to track it but even that's interesting minds me of a mixture of paranoia. and a need as a control and take control of the situation you know so well yes i've got plenty of relatives who who fit that mold. and some love on line i want to play this for you because it's also another gift people are loving the gifts to express their enthusiasm so jane says we say when the story is over this is a quote. from the characters tell me what is your credit score i will tell us on our why did he not talk to us about the writing process behind this because some of these are pretty inside jokes for a certain comedian but others are ones that everyone can get behind and yet you know these are all basically stories from my life and the l

>> i think it was around 8 i first found pornography, it was dialup so you had to wait. >> i had beengling with this since i was 11 years old. i remember vividly seeing the image on my computer and having this first orgasm with technology. >> i was exposed when i was probably 7 or 8. and then i would say i started using regularly when i was 10. >> i first saw pornography when i was around 9 years old. i actually did have a cell phone or a computer. i had a nintendo ds and they came out of a new model where you can access the internet and by the time i turned 11 years old, i was watching pornography on a regular bases. by the time i was 13, i was fully addicted topograph pograo. >> many others in the no fap community were addicted to porn at a young age. >> porn is a big issue for my wife. i have gone through a lot of guilt around it. porn causes me to not be able to perform sexually and sometimes thinking about having sex with my wife causes a lot of mental distress. i want to have real sex but i also don't want to because i am afraid in the real act of sex. it is a dark place for me.

>> i think it was around 8. you know, i first found pornography. it was the dial up kind. you had to wait. >> i had been struggling with this since i was 11 years old. i remember vividly seeing the image on the computer and having this, like, first orgasm with technology. >> i was first exposed when i was probably 7 or 8. and then i would say i started using regularly when i was about 10. >> i first saw pornography when i was around 9 years old. i didn't actually have a cell phone. i didn't have a computer. i had a nintendo ds and i remember they just came out with the new model that you could access the internet with. and by the time i turned 11 years old, i was watching pornography on a regular basis. by the time i was 13, i was fully addicted to pornography. >> many others in the no fap community were exposed to porn at a young age and now report side effects such as reduced sex drive, erectile dysfunction, and social anxiety. >> porn is a very big issue. with my wife, i've gone through a lot of guilt around it. porn causes me to not be able to perform sexually. sometime

i was part of another community. i just want to reason that it was essential but so was this other piece so the tendency of humans is to see people that they are irredeemably evil if you isolate them because they thank you are evil so we don't want that kind of hatefulness and you don't want to convince other people to join them so have that language as much as we can for whatever individual has for the patients to feel safe enough to engage with people like that more likely we are to change hearts and minds. people say that this is unique somehow. may be in particular with the specific things they do but i don't think my reaction was anything other than completely human and there are many other examples of other nationalist like david duke was his godfather who left the movement after engaging with jewish people. and darrell davis is a black jazz musician who convinced 200 members of the kkk to abandon the movement. there is a lot of examples of the strategies being powerful with that community aspect. the person tha

want to say is that i was so fortunate. what happened to me would be the ideal if that could happen to everyone. i don't understand why i was saved. i consider it a miracle. i got hooked up with a case manager at city wide. i was in a two month program at women's place, not the shelter but up in the treatment programming. it was very wonderful there. it was small and we went everywhere together. it was a really good program. i was very happy there. one day my case manager says i found you a place. i haven't completed the treatment program. somehow she found me a place. iif that had not happened to mei don't know what would have happened to me. going from the background i had to suddenly going from being a homeowner professional to the possibility of being on the street and homeless and not having my profession any more was so terrifying, and a miracle happened. i want to say i appreciate what people said about the low thresholds, the love and stuff like that. what helped me was going to people that offered the servic service

at the time, when i was sacked i was pretty mortified because i had nothing wrong, they said i was notigns i said the same thing and nothing was said. it has nothing to do with that, i do not know the problem. and why i was sacked. but it happens. the fact that chris packham supported me, to me, was incredible, and it still is today. are you still politely cross with bear grylls? yes. what would you say to him? probably nothing, because it would be rude. pretty polite on your social media posts. what would you tell him now? i would probably say what he was doing was wrong. the campaign is happening all over the world, notjust birmingham. we are going to have these tiny shark tanks all over the world. what do you think about that? it is pure madness, they shouldn't be putting sharks in these tiny enclosures — they live in the oceans. what if they argue that it is about conserving the species? it's rubbish. they say it is for breeding. two sharks have been bred in captivity because when they took them in from the wild, they were pregnant. you cannot breed sharks in captivity, it doesn't

no, no, when i was 15 i became a model because i was a child and i didn't know that that was bad andself and thought that was cool. and then when i was 19, i came out of that with this new realisation that i had almost died of anorexia for this fashion industry that i aspire towards, so i wanted to change the narrative of the fashion industry and i knew that the only way to do that was from the inside. and so i became a scout in the hopes of actually being able to bring in plus—size girls, i used to bring in curvy girls all the time and then fight the lead agent about the fact that she shouldn't be told to lose weight, she's too young and also her body is amazing, and try and bring in curvy girls. i was way ahead of the game where i had no idea that if i'd just stuck with it longer, plus—size was going to become a huge industry. but that was something i was campaigning for. everything i've always done had been with a trojan horse intention. that's why i'm in hollywood now. like, i'm here to get my work done when it comes to activism. i should say in 2016 you had a yet another health

still, i was alarmed and angry. how dare they, i raged, that's my mom. what made them think they could do this to us? why weren't the cops stopping them? but my grandfather had a different mentality. it was proof that god was with us. from the age of 53 and into my early -- 5 and into my early 20s, i attended protests across the country almost daily. they quickly expanded toen include -- to include literally everyone who wasn't part of our church. westboro sees itselff as the ony true church on the landscape, and we considered it not only our right, but our duty to judge others. we protested funerals, insisting that the deceased were in hell, celebrating their death while mourners c passed by a short distance away. this, i was told, was what god meant when he instructed to love our neighbor, to warn our fellow man that their sins would lead them to god's discussers in this -- curses in this life and eternal torment in the world to come. we saw our preaching as the very embodiment of compassion. our message was the only hope for a doomed world. in 2009 i a

i was not taught hate at home. i had to look at these people who were very insular and plain old ignorant people, including the governor. that is where i was coming from. i think i was sane then, even at 14, because i had the right to be there. -- i knew i had the right to be there. that was by stating above it all. it may not work for the other eight, but it worked for me. that is the way i don't with -- dealt with them. >> dr. roberts, you are a sychologist. are you sane? [laughter] >> i truly doubt it. >> would you know if you were? can we pass the mic to you? >> i am a teacher at central high school, and i must stand and say thank you to mrs. lanier for coming to my classroom and talking to the students. it was a beautiful, awesome moment. my question is -- with students from all over the spectrum falling through the cracks, without having the obstacles that you had in 1957, what are your thoughts? what are some things you can share that we as a community can reach out to those students, or say to them today, yo

i was. poor and in a suspicious start but his adoptive father craig provided a way out of it was a lot of war going on between different subjects and i remember. leon experience seeing. it people get shocked and from to attend the global some of them are the years. that the sick to. your boat him before got home to read. that's all damaging it was for local businessmen but adopted bailey when he was 7 and it rolled the youngster and she says in football academy marvel. want to. see. alongside his own son kyle the bullies grew up together you know we hope. and it's very street smart as well very funny very droll girlfriends and you can always get out of them so. they always have good friends they were also balanced by a shared dream to one day be a professional footballer and definitely least they get behind. with food to be able to come through i have been for. i'm be able to turn the tables i mean to take the poses the both of you can see it's in the future the future is now bailey joins liv

that's who i was. that's not who i am today. [ applause ] once upon a time, they wouldn't let me see my son. i was a drug dealing maniac. i liked to get violent. that's who i was. i was a street guy. they wouldn't let me see my son. now they let me pick him up from school today, you know. [ applause ] of course, there is a process, and i tell you, north carolina, the prisons love us. they love kurtis taylor. they love justin lozier. now they love me. so, yeah, there is a process. you know, they -- whenever i receive an email from a case manager, i send the re-entry application, five-page application, goes into great detail, i send the oxford manual, i tell them, have them read this. i will be asking about this. you know, then after i get it back, i conduct my phone interview. longest phone interview i've had was about, almost two hours long. i get real into, like, i'm telling you the truth. i get -- i tell them a piece of my story. you know, i let them know you're not talki ining to somebody beha desk.

already done so i was doing peer. so i must say i was very confident that it will be you know like this and i was very very young on that and when i went to that shelter home and the fuzz day was the disaster in nothing luggage 2 2. so then i thought ok it's not working and but that gave me an insight that i don't know anything actually that entire the infrastructure of a shelter hole the communication of the goddess and the 1st space deve everything and i thought that i need to really start putting the new. so i started to create some story to leaving and focusing on movement not the dance and then this started to tell the story there is started to dog. so that you know to be all that up you brought say this and then i found that all that is don's movement it has a 40 us history and i was kind of wow i am on the right track. it's. ok it's i think it's a day that you to have a man take you down her skirt design that i was going to say a sketch and see if you can make a pattern to fit her do you want to start the story

everyone was partying and i had gone to ask him for some advice and he was just like don't put anythingyour nose. we were all drinking. we were all [ bleep ] up. >> i got into his face. he was like you're high right now. i was high. so you feel like you're invincible right. and we just started going at it. it didn't get physical. it could have. >> reporter: before quitting alcohol, alarms bells were also going off at home with bethany. >> there was a day when i was like hey let's just have a day together let's just be like sober today let's go let's not party let's like be in the sunshine then nico turned around and grabbed a bottle of vodka out of the freezer and started drinking it and i was like, "oh, you can't." and that was a really scary moment for me. >> how is your sobriety today? >> great. still i speak of my sobriety as fluid ke the rest of who i am. i'm sober from alcohol. that was the one thing that really was the devil for me. so i gave up alcohol. i still smoke weed and still use cannabis. >> so one of the things that i found most sort of refreshing about your book was the

when i was 16 i was in high school i grew up in little rock arkansas but my parents are verypassionate about caring for so we moved them to an orphanage and i went to high school. and then at 19 i went to rwanda and i saw hope village and it's a child or an orphanage i was 19 and there were other girls who were my age and i wanted them to be able to go to university. i went back to college and made wire crosses from my dorm room and sold them and then a few months i made enough money to send those $2.00 girls to school so that was the trip that sparked my interest in using my creativity to create change. doesn't come. with school. i started with judith and we made a laptop bag that turned out terribly and they had no idea what a laptop was or what sizes supposed to be but i assumed that they knew what a laptop was. and then we made a skirt and the skirt was beautiful i posted the pictures on facebook and people loved it and so the feedback from the u.s. market through facebook album is what really made me think ok this could work. female genital mutilation is a reality for mo

i think it was a wake-up call. that energy cannot be created nor destroyed it did not go away so i literally was like grad school, and it went into poetry and writing and if you read my poetry it's like Ãthat's where the energy is coming from. i was fortunate enough that i began to get positive affirmation, this poem is really good. we get those positive feedback, you can begin to stick with it. then also just finally i've seen what happens if we don't talk about it. i feel like if one person in this room can go home and read the book or not read the book, just have a conversation that they been afraid to have them à it's worth it. thank you. >> i'm a big fan, i haven't finished the book yet so i want to ask you a broader question based on something i think you'd tweeted a bit ago. i also recently left new york in a dramatic way. >> get girl f. >> i know for you going there looking at watching rent growing up it's like where you can go and be clear and it safe there. i've been struggling with being my authentic self

14 year's old and i was in high school and this was the year, i won't try to give the year but you will figure it out. the year after president kennedy was assassinated. i was in rochester, new york and a friend of mine came after school one day, why don't you come volunteer for bobby kennedy, he's run if for senate in new york state, so i was always looking for something to do after school, oh, this is good, i could stay, go after school 3 to 4 hours. so i took her up on it and i went down and i took the bus every day after school from the east side town of all the way to west side of town, i worked in the office, i made phone calls, i did -- lick envelopes, if you remember machines where you put the funny paper and you got your fliers and stuff, we did all of that and actually by the time he won the campaign, i was going out door to door talking to people, actually about -- about him and i was -- i guess i look back at my young age, all the kids are so much smarter, way beyond us, at the early age i understood the issues and i was able to explain them to people can understand it. now,

i want my bones and my body to come home. that was so important to me, that they didn't leave me over there somewhere. when i came home, my family had a big ceremony. they had some medicine men smoke me and do pray for something for me. my family gave away and they fit -- fed everybody. to me that i felt so good about what my tribe and indian people were doing for us. i had seen that my whole life, and i really experienced i felt like i belong. you know? a long time ago, a lot of the tribes when their men went out before they could come back into camp, they made stay out. they made him stay out on the perimeter. wl likeuld ho wolves. they sent their servicemen out there to cleanse them and said because you've been fighting and doing things and we don't want you to come into the camp, around their women and children and act that way being angry and volatile but we want to cleanse you and clean up and make your human being again before you come in here. indian people were dealing with ptsd a long time ago. medicine does not work for eve

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>> yes. >> tamron: i did not see that coming. she wastand like this, you're not going to catch me slipping. susanna, one of the answer comes i follow, this woman betty winkle, we have pictures. i don't know how old she has but betty is bad. another woman, the accidental icon everyone follows her and someone who's a personal heart of mine and i was just with her recently. tyson is 94. [applause] d tss athg. lehink now that 50 is the new 30? >> yeah i think that's it. >> tamron: c73, she looks 53. what's the beef, what's the problem? >> i think there is this idea that women have kind of an expiration date honestly. we are constantly fed these ideas up in media but women women should look like. everybody you see in tv and movies and ads is then. they don't have pores. there are 25 years old. plus five model ashley graham wrecking the game and she's not alone. i just showed three accounts of women who aren't famous that have thousands of followers and they are over the age of 50. i think that people are really refreshed by that. i don't nece

francis: i was ahead. so i ended up in sixth grade two years younger than everybody else in sixth grade. and that was maintained all the way through. i graduated igh school at 16 because my mom got me started in t ls particular way rning quickly. david: well, i graduated 16, too. i wouldn't recommend it necessarily iendse you're a little bit younger than your fr when you go to college, but that's a whole separate subject. francis: yeah, the social part of it is a little conflicting. david: you were a musician as well. you have a band or you had a band. how did you come to that? francis: so my dad was trained as a classical violinist. but he and yy mom, who met atale-- she was gettin, her masters degr, his phd-- they went and worked for elean roosevelt in theepths inia, of the depression in wesvirg trying to help coal miners get back on their feet. that the coal miners would play, particularly on the fiddle. we didn't have a television. so what did you do after dinner at the farm? either my dad read charles

i was watching them and i was kind of alert for -- i was a string are for "-life" magazine and i was trying to be ready for anything that might happen. that's why i looked back a couple of times, i looked for rockets to be thrown. i didn't see anything. i didn't feel anything. you know, i didn't hear anything. so, you know, there wasn't really any noise at that point in time until they turned and fired. to this day i still get shook-up or have a reaction to helicopters flying overhead with search lights or ambulances racing down the streets. i can still see the kids being put on gurneys and rolled away from the campus that day. yes. >> sort of as a recap, how does this incident compare to any other university campus violence at the time? i mean, was this listening and huge deal or -- i mean, as far as i can sort of remember, being really young, there was violence at berkeley and ucla had a riot. was this vastly larger than those other larger places. it seems like ohio is kind of, not really on the forefront. >> i can't speak completely for the other university, but i had gone to ohio

he came into the room where i was, where i was in solitary confinement. i spent about nine months in solitary. without really thinking about it a kind of entered interaction, iranian interaction between host and guest. space, iguest in my was the host, and therefore i have certain obligations as a host and he had certain obligations as a guest. thisll very easily into pattern of interaction. i insisted that he sit down, i excused the fact that i had nothing to offer him to eat or drink. we began to talk. , do you have any problems? is there anything that you are missing? i said, not really. i really have no complaints, except for one. he looked at me and said, what is that? the complete that we are here. that is a problem. well, if the oppressive rulers of the world would wake and come to an understanding, that problem would be solved. i thought to myself, i agree with you, but i think we have a different understanding of who the oppressive leaders in the world are. then i said, there is one more thing. i've aliens are very hospitable .eople a guest comes

obviously i was hugely relieved. litical trial in the 0ld having a huge political trial in the old bailey. but on the other hand, i did feel that we had a real chance to tackle many issues and the legal tea m to tackle many issues and the legal team were fired up. there was a precedent that we could potentially set, we could put the iraq war on trial. that is what you wanted to do. guess. and we wanted to demand the attorney general ‘s legal advice. elizabeth grant has said herself that if she had to go to court on oath and swear on oath that there was a difference of opinion she would do so because viewers may remember she resigned before the invasion of iraq. she was a senior legal officer in the government and she resigned over her grave concerns. principally because the attorney general ‘s advised if it from hers when he went to the us and came back with a different opinion. let me ask you, when you now look at the whole film today, do you, in any way, feel you should have done things friendly? are you absolutely

i was still transferred. i was tried as an adult. ey figured there was not enough time left within the juvenile court jurisdiction, which was three years, 2.5 years, for them to help me. so i go to the adult jail come to the county jail. i am in solitary confinement to be kept away from the adults. amy: foror how long? two years. from 16 until i was 18, i was in solitary confinement. amy: what is that like? what does it mean to be in solitary confinement? how large was your cell? who were you allowed to see? >> it was horrible it was horrible. theell is probably the size of your bathroom in your house. you don't get out much. you get out for an hour a day if they remember you where you can go outside to be locked in a kennel, which is pretty much a dog kennel, a cage, a fenced in cage. they will take you to the shower. it was really hard, especially with everything that i was dealing with. you had nothing to distract you. you're nothing but everything you were facing. all of the inside to come all of the thoughts, all of the trauma --

and was a good father. ihink people would think probably not, but he was doing everything he knew you'd he said these kids came into my life and he was doing every thing he could to raise them. susan: did he have a job? chris: no. the mother who is not in the photo, is standing along that road panhandling. that is right outside of mcdonald's outside of portsmouth, ohio. they were just there in the community. the father, while the mother was working panhandling, the father would push the kids around, maybe sit under a tree and play with them. susan: where did they live? chris: they lived, in his telling, in a garage behind the home of someone he knew. and he said, it's not that bad. he said, sometimes we can run a cord out there to run a heater but is not that bad right now because it's not that cold. susan: did you ultimately -- i think i read in one of the stories about this, that you ultimately struggled with calling social services on these folks. chris: i did. i was in town three or four different times o

and i was like, yeah. i towed them.like-- it actually was-- was probably the scariest thing i've done in, like, 25 years. the-- i wanted to not know anything, right. i wanted to do it and i wanted to do it live. so i didn't do rehearsals, anything like that. >> stephen: you had never bungee jumped before? >> i had never bungee jumped. i wanted to go and let it happen. and i walked out there and got on the helicopter and i thought i was gog get in. and they said, "no, no, you can't get in. you have to stand on the outside when it takes off." that was the first thing. i should have called it then. we got up and the guy looks at me and says, "hey, listen, the only way you can get hurt, you see this bungee cord?" and all the guys were holding the bungee cord, and the bungee cord weighed over 200 pounds. and he said, i'm going to count backwards from five, and the only way you will get hurt if you don't get away from the chopper. they're letting that bungee cord go, and you're going down, and the only way you don't get hurt

just -- o it was othose things -- it was the moment i didn't know what i was looking at, i had no idea what this was or whether or not anyone could fix it, kind of where i was coming from. so it took me years to really figure out not onlwhat it was but what i could do. >> how big a deal is this? >> it's epidemic. it's absolutely epidemic. >> what's it gonna take really make a difference, to really make an impact in this fight? >> a change of attitude, number one.y certaire awareness, which is what we're doing. but more importantly, the understanding that this is a simple human-rights issue.e, it's not simut it -- this is a basic human-rights isise. these people are being deprived of their freedom. >> john mccain was a ardent defender of human rights and democratic values. and you started, on the one-year anniversy of his passing, a movement online called acts of civility. >> mm-hmm. we did. >> what was that? >> that was about just what we've been talking about here moving back to civil behavior between not just our govnment officials but between people -- your neighbors, your f

the i was. i. but i'm saying something past this get out in front of the legislative council to try to. stop our. legislative process i i i think that i. i. we go hot so you cannot blame every protester who used more radical way to response . i got from the response. for hong kong legislative council stated in 2 pockets 1st elected by every hong kong people just like them elect up by the profession knows that the company saw the cafe and their chief executive have no need to listen to the all call people. gradually over the course remarks to mars have expanded to new york still so there are 5 major demands the 1st time is of course to ensure are there actually only there is also the demand to release all arrested protesters they want the designation of rights to be remanded both the government and the police have called their protest france. they want an independent inquiry into place kind act and i mean the biggest most ambitious demand in my opinion is universal suffrage. all. everybody wants are

>> i was proud of that. it was for work in foreign service. they know about that work. i think they thought it was cool. >> angelina is a honorary dame because as an american citizen she can't became an actual dame. >>> let's move on to a guy looking for love. are you a member of bachelor nation? >> not if i have to pay dues. >> out here peter is breaking things. >> it's his face. >> a freak accident. that's what host chris harrison says happened to pilot pete in costa rica. >> this is crazy. >> so what led to peter getting a reported 22 stitches in his face? apparently he knocked himself in the head with a glass while falling into a golf cart. the 27-year-old reportedly travelled two hours to get to a hospital. chris confirming the cut on peter's head and the stitches, but says peter is 100% okay and that production is already back under way. >> there's gonna be ups and downs. >> do you have any well wishes for peter? do you know what happened to him? >> that's former bachelorette hannah brown dodging on her season of the bachelorette she fainted and had to be hospitali

i was not the first time the joliet. the only thing he took to his grave with unresolved was who took my son's live. so hopefully that will turn around here sometime soon. again i want to thank each and every one of you. you can give someone, you car let them borrow your car your homes or because whatever the case may be. the one thing that you cannot get back his time. each and every one of you have given up hours of your time just to honor my brother and for that i am eternally grateful. thank you. [applause] [background sounds] >> good morning everybody. my name is john alexander. we lost a giant and incredible friend. i am honored to be here this morning to see a few words about my friend, congressman elijah cummings. we are this beautiful eulogy about this great man. i'm to tell you if you think that maybe you didn't know. used to tease me relentlessly. present clinton, he called me an honorary brother. [laughter] i met him in 1996, i was lucky enough to be on his first legislative staff, and the next 23 years, we de

when i interviewed guillermo who was one member of the family because i was curious what it was likefrom their perspective to have this woman that keeps coming down to document your life. and because i am very interested that writer subject relationship i was talking about the dark side. sometimes it's too much. but he has a lot of affection for annie. you can say a lot of things with my context of conversation with him. he barely knew me with a full range of his feelings may not be present but i could hear a lot of affection in his voice and he said sometimes i feel and he knows my life better than i do if i cannot remember i will ask her because chances are she does. when she comes to stay when we are eating she is photographing when we are sleeping she is photographing. taking the kids to school when i'm at work. there is so much that fascinates me about that that really connected with the struggle of the inevitable she can photograph them for 30 years but she hurls 25000 frames against that that inevitability of incompleteness when he get as much of this as possible and maybe nev

and he started to me and i got to see. if it was of me because i didn't seem to mo who are still west of i'm moving to 2 pool says the other they like it here and there wasn't said see it like busts i had to bet was scared of you sack al about the other. it does me. you know. you are so good it was awful give me that i saw them though. i ask. my father to be up throat hurts my feelings in. my house but he said no because. i want to marry you and i have to stay married. manage something very hard so hard to leave me for. i have to try it's was just the case is it funny if you beat me there's usually a good double of the. good. shit going cons of fish oil on the elish. you can only buck the deal but the but the one for me was hard to go to my family has said that that shoes that they made wasn't wrong and i want to come back and i feel as happened with me lots off i wish some of the message violence because they are friends. we had managed to meet my head out so we are going to now and my house is hollow. and empty i have no clue how

there was some method to that madness. ink the ice objective was to attempt to prevent supporters of the ideology, as seeing the final moments as heroic. an incredibly somber thing across the board. no death is cause for celebration. this is one that marks the end of one particular era of leadership under which thousands of families lost people to terror attacks. two displacement because of the caliphate itself. to the actual recruitment of their sons and daughters by the ideology. certainly not a moment for celebration but i think the objective there. that in these final moments, the character of this person was reiterated by the fact that not only did he take his life, but it took three innocent lives with him. as was his habit over the last five years. i would've liked to see him stand trial for what he put so many through. >> that's all we have time for today. thank you so much, amaryllis. [applause] thank you to the book festival, to c-span2. amaryllis be down at the signing and the authors tent. thanks everybody. [inau

that was which i was raised. whether the immigrant side of my family which is you mention jamaicans came to portland, maine in 1912 was nothing i managed to send other kids to college and see the 16 or on my father side, interestingly not just the descendents of slaves, but my great grandfather who was a slave fought in the union army and during the civil war, after the civil war he was able to go on an achiever college education into start school in new jersey that lasted for 70 years and educated iterations of african-americans both for manual and technical skills, to be employed and also to go to college. it was a college prep thing as well. again, education service commitment on both sides of excellence. tough love, the title i selected, it is really about how waves raise. it's also however, tried to raise my kids and how i tried to serve our country. in the first instance, even though i knew every step of the way my parents love me fiercely, they were going to give it to me straight. when i was screwing up th

it really was. in, it was my anniversary, my 30 year anniversary, but we had been doing this for years. no matter where we are, no matter what fatality, what country, we are there for every disaster. it was amazing. later on i went home quickly, checked on my dog who was hiding , he never did that. i made sure she was all right, went back to station seven and i said, i am a pro be, can i answer phones? >> answer phones, get on the rig i got on the rig. i didn't even have a coat, i just put on some old-timers turn out. we went to south of market. the entire south of market had their horrible collapse on the street. the entire south of market smells like natural gas and it was really an eerie feeling. then we swooped into the marina where i was dropped off and we have a very special guest a little later that will tell us his story, but i was dropped off after -- at the marina. basically what i did was help expand the auxiliary portable hydrant system that you see right here. when it opened the hydrant i

when i was playing rugby, i had a goal and i was desperate to find out what i was capable of in ordert i was capable of was way bigger than the actual goal itself. what am i doing now? i've got a goal. i'm desperate to find out what i'm capable of. i'm just not wearing a white shirt any more and boots which actually is a hell of a lot more comfortable! and nothing has changed. as long as the journey remains true, that it's about finding out what you are capable of and not going after the reported payoff at the end because that's where you start to lose that performance and that real intensity and that inspiration. he certainly is an inspiration. jonny wilkinson. we were just reminiscing then about watching the rugby world cup final when england w011 rugby world cup final when england won and jonny wilkinson was the kicker. martinjohnson, captain at the time, he was the year above me at my school and his mother was my pe teacher! that we are getting carried away. in a moment we'll run through some of your responses to a propsoed ban to eating on public transport. controversial. but fir

>> jimmy: i was there! >> i was at a happening! >> jimmy: guys, i was cool, yeah >> i was cool. our generation, i think, has really - he's been a songwriter who catches sort of the emotional, you know, longing. but also kind of just the terror and the dissonance of the modern world right? and their music has such beautiful, melodic, anthemic stuff. but then also just so much fracture in it, right? >> jimmy: yeah >> and i -- my character in this film, that's him in a a nutshell he's kind of a sensitive and funny and thoughtful person. but he has this brain that will not turn off and can -- and the word play. i asked -- i said to thom, look, i want a ballad. i want an old-fashioned sort of jazz ballad that reflects this and i thought he was going to say no, because like everybody in the world wants thom to write music. >> jimmy: yeah >> and like two weeks later, he emailed me at 6:00 in the morning i get this track called "daily battles." i sat on my bed, in the dark, literally crying it made me cry the first time i heard it >> jimmy: what a great line, though "daily battles." >>

i would bite my lip until it bled and my hair was wild i hadn't shaved. rt of - i feel, like it was blessed from the beginning to be honest with you. >> seth: and you brought people into this special. there are, obviously, most of it is you on stage, but you have conversations with your mom. >> yes >> seth: was that -- did she jump at the opportunity to be in this [ laughter ] did she have hesitation? >> she was dreading it and spent weeks scouring the house for - it was, like she was preparing for passover [ light laughter ] which is a big thing for jews. [ light laughter ] i -- and then she kept asking if judd apatow could make her look thinner. >> seth: okay. [ laughter ] she thought it was an important element of your stand-up special. sure >> yes yes. so, that was a thing, but i thought she came off, like the perfect mom. like, if you were to cast a mom, she was the perfect -- >> seth: yes i think she's going to get mom parts off of this special. >> yes [ laughter ] i hope so. >> seth: but you -- this is serious. you actually considered retiring from