joining us now is author and editor at large of the law dot com dean watkins welcome. why don't we thank you thank you going to have me thank you always a pleasure being so your article delves into some of the grittiest parts of your life and upbringing in baltimore it paints a picture of life at the center of the world drugs what that environment was like for you and how you view how you were viewed by the outside world and you just suppose this with her soul who grew up not too far away but had what you described as a system that traditionally rewards mediocre whiteness yet he had a tragic downfall where you excelled what do you attribute this to. the system you know everything that i had it gives me he kind of the want for him so you know so my son my son a fierce street wants out of that are. you can go to jail for. that on the street and on his. it was going to jail or if you got if you got to knock them out i was going to go to prison see if we don't discipline you when you have a court record and one that you can be. you know it's interesting because because i t