>> deputy city attorney ann pearson. i'm not sure. i think it depends on the c.b.d. itself and whether it folds under the city's contracts. if you look at those documents, it contains all of the requirements that a city is required to maintain in all of those documents. >> supervisor peskin: so here's what im want to be very clear on. insofar as as our surveillance laws in san francisco require certain things and exclude one thing in particular, which is technologies, i don't want to see chriss larson making an en run around our law which is essentially making an anonymous donation to the city. >> i sent out a survey two weeks ago to all the community benefit districts in san francisco regarding those who do have security cameras, and from my understanding, and it was self-reported, none of them have activated facial recognition technology on their security cameras. >> supervisor peskin: okay, well, that's a start. why don't we, mr. corgis, offline, make sure that every one of our c.b.d.s adheres to and follows the law t

adam pearson, what do you think that 25 yea rs pearson, what do you think that 25 years after this lawty legislation. for context, that means for the first ten years of my life, i had no legal rights as a disabled child. so we still have a long way to go to get equality for the disabled community. did that materially affect you when you were a child? it did. going through schools and transferring from primary to secondary, my disability could be used as a factor to say no. and even when the law came in, it was still relatively new and no one knew how to use it. and to a degree, it is still a bit toothless. disability is always at the bottom of the pecking orderfor the disability is always at the bottom of the pecking order for the totem pole when it comes to equality. richard butchins, what challenges do you face as a film—maker and a disabled person? the same challenges as all disabled people and film—makers face, but can bind, i suppose. it's a strange question insofar as i suppose people professionally assume that i probably can't do things. it has been more difficult for me to make

pearson. i'm not sure. i think it depends on the c.b.d. itself and whether it folds under the city's contracts. if you look at those documents, it contains all of the requirements that a city is required to maintain in all of those documents. >> supervisor peskin: so here's what im want to be very clear on. insofar as as our surveillance laws in san francisco require certain things and exclude one thing in particular, which is technologies, i don't want to see chriss larson making an en run around our law which is essentially making an anonymous donation to the city. >> i sent out a survey two weeks ago to all the community benefit districts in san francisco regarding those who do have security cameras, and from my understanding, and it was self-reported, none of them have activated facial recognition technology on their security cameras. >> supervisor peskin: okay, well, that's a start. why don't we, mr. corgis, offline, make sure that every one of our c.b.d.s adheres to and follows the law t

pearson. i'm not sure. i think it depends on the c.b.d. itself and whether it folds under the city's contracts. if you look at those documents, it contains all of the requirements that a city is required to maintain in all of those documents. >> supervisor peskin: so here's what im want to be very clear on. insofar as as our surveillance laws in san francisco require certain things and exclude one thing in particular, which is technologies, i don't want to see chriss larson making an en run around our law which is essentially making an anonymous donation to the city. >> i sent out a survey two weeks ago to all the community benefit districts in san francisco regarding those who do have security cameras, and from my understanding, and it was self-reported, none of them have activated facial recognition technology on their security cameras. >> supervisor peskin: okay, well, that's a start. why don't we, mr. corgis, offline, make sure that every one of our c.b.d.s adheres to and follows the law t

, helen ricker, vera millwa rd, pearson, helen ricker, vera millward, josephine whitaker, barbara leache. everyone remembers peter sutcliffe's name. how many remember theirs? what no one forgets from the time is the terror felt by women. for a 17—year—old in leeds when sutcliffe was left free to kill, it was a fear michelle teel couldn't shake. we had no mobile phone, so you couldn't ring to say, i don't feel safe. you had nothing, so i don't feel safe. you had nothing, so my i don't feel safe. you had nothing, so my mum i don't feel safe. you had nothing, so my mum used to time it knowing when i would roughly be coming home and she would walk halfway to meet me. but it was a scary time. all of us were so aware of me. but it was a scary time. all of us were so aware of this case, to the point of actually suspecting friends, neighbours. joan smith reported on the murders and suffered nightmares after. she wrote about the misogyny of the police investigating. they kind of thought that the women who were involved in the sex trade were asking for it in inverted commas, and they were much mo

physically appear in the courtroom at the hall of justice in redwood city was the superior court judge pearson his defense and prosecutors all joined virtually at issue was whether or not the court would order peterson to be relocated from prison to the san mateo county jail to allow him and his lawyers, easier access to one another ahead of future hearings. but the defense stated they were pleased with the access they have to their client on death row and that a transfer would be an unnecessary risk while covid-19 continues to spread. the judge decided peterson can stay in prison. legal analyst paula canny reacts it's completely appropriate nothing is going to happen anytime soon in his case, the court hasn't made many important decisions. >>like is the only next thing going to be a penalty phase or is that court going rule on the haiti and ultimately decide that scott peterson is entitled to a new trial based on juror misconduct. so. it's completely appropriate that scott stay on death row peterson also waived his right to a speedy trial and reiterated his complete confidence in defense atto

it happened on fulton street between pearson steiner streets. a police spokesman reported the gas leak shortly before 3rd 3.30 this afternoon and at last check officers who you are going door to door to evacuate people from buildings that worth's threatened by the leak pg and e is on scene assisting first responders reportedly an active scene we'll be bringing you details as we get them. still to come bay area food banks are getting ready for the holidays, hoping to keep up with high demand this is millions of americans are out of work because of the pandemic. >>plus president elect joe biden moving forward with the white house transition this as president trump continues to dispute the election results and attention costco shoppers. the updated mask policy just announced. >>costco is updating its face mask policy now everybody entering the facility has to wear a face covering people with a medical condition were previously exempt. but now if you have a medical condition. you must at least wear a face shield to enter the only current exemption i

>> madam deputy city attorney pearson. >> hello, everyone. you raised equitable defenses available to tenants who may have an argument that rent is not due under theory of probability, they were not able to do what was in the contract during the term. and i have to be honest, i've read these amendments only in realtime, i had not seen them before they were distributed. i think the suggestion that you are making might be a good one, to just add language to clarify that nothing here is intended to foreclose the availability of the defenses and we can look at that this week, this item will be continued. >> thank you, deputy city attorney pearson. and thank you for raising those really fascinating questions that i don't really understand but i think i do. >> yes, thank you. and if we need something next week -- i think as, in my quick read of the amendments on, you know, just like i was looking at page, what is it, page six, the new c -- talks about for example, a tenant opts to terminate their lease early, you know, it talks about responsibility

yvonne pearson. helen rytka. vera millward. josephine whitaker. barbara leach. marguerite walls. sutcliffe's name. how many remember theirs? what no one forgets from the time is the terror felt by women. for a 17—year—old in leeds, when sutcliffe was left free to kill, it was a fear michelle teel couldn't shake. we'd no mobile phones, so you couldn't ring to say, i don't feel safe, or anything. you had nothing, so my mum used to time it knowing when i would roughly be coming home and she would walk halfway to meet me. but it was a scary, scary time. all of us were so aware of this case, to the point of actually suspecting friends, neighbours, relatives. joan smith reported on the murders, suffered nightmares after. she wrote about the misogyny of the police investigating. they kind of thought that the women who were involved in the sex trade were "asking for it", in inverted commas, and they were much more interested in the "innocent" women. and i thought they missed the central point, which was that what he hated was women. do you think anything has changed for women since that

we're now joined by elaine pearson, the human rights watch‘s australian director in sydney.for being on the programme. so for the victims in afghanistan, for their families, what does this apology, this step, mean for them? well, i hope this report does give some solace to the victims and their families. this is a vindication, this is an acknowledgement that these horrific crimes occurred. there has also been an announcement about compensation. compensation will be paid. and that will occur regardless of the criminal process of identifying the perpetrators. but this really should still be one step in a larger step towards justice. ultimately we wa nt to towards justice. ultimately we want to see the perpetrators of these horrific crimes brought to justice. i was just these horrific crimes brought to justice. i wasjust going to ask you about your confidence in the process. they've announced there will be a special investigator, and this could take many years. how confident are you that these families, that the victims will see justice? it's families, that the victims will see

pearson. i understand with architects engineers, contractors there are limits to our ability to add additional requirements on them. when it comes to permit consultants specifically because they aren't -- there is no state entity that oversees their professional conduct, could we create further controls over these consultants? >> you are right the state contractor's law regulates contractors in california. it goes from establishing additional qualifications for those licensed individuals. to the extent this class of person does not have a state license, it might be no preemption issue and we can add to the list of things we look to as we look at the policy options you are considering. >> to ms. gaseric, is there anything that you do in d.b.i. that is special or different with the permit consultants given there is not a state control or licensing board overseeing their conduct. >> this goes to preferential treatment. in our code of conduct we treat everyone equally. we do treat all applicants e

angus campbell has said that he wants any of these crimes to be dealt with domestically in ireland, pearson's this term, a director of human rights watch. and she says, some officials probably covered up the crimes and should also be held accountable. fact that these were deliberate, cold blooded killings they were made out. and so you know, rightly i think there really needs to be criminal prosecutions of the individuals. and we know that it's not just a few rogue activists. we know that 25 perpetrators have been identified in the course of this report. so i think it is really important that those individual cases are held to account and that swift independent prosecutions followed. but obviously this is also a broader issue of the culture of the special forces. and so i think that's why the government has announced that they've set up this independent panel to really look at how to address the systemic cultural issues that allowed this environment where these killings were really normal lives. and in some cases, encouraged the office of the special investigator really needs to investigate t

>> sure, so one item that i would mention and the city attorney ann pearson could jump in if she likesthe item before you today is appropriating the proceeds and the sale resolutions have been passed and approved by the board of supervisors. so i don't think that it impacts our ability to sell the bond, it's once they're sold appropriating them into the department. i don't believe that is a timeline issue for either of the mayor's office of housing bonds. michelle, could you speak for the public health and safety bond, is that going to cause problematic impacts? >> yeah, this is michel teretty from the department of public finance. good morning, madam chair and members of the committee. there would be impacts for the department of -- the safety bonds and the department of public health and public works. we have priced bonds already and we expect to close the transaction on or around the 3rd of november. so the longer this appropriation ordinance gets delayed, the proceeds will have to sit on reserve and the department won't have access for it for several weeks. but i don't believe that

thank you, deputy city attorney pearson. why don't we go to public comment. mr.clerk, are there callers on the line? >> clerk: thank you, mr. chair. just a moment. operations is checking to see if we have any callers in the queue who wish to speak for the items that are called right now. that means all of the m.o.u. items are called right now, including the m.o.u. for the police officers' association, with its included and related settlement. mr. coup, please let us know if we have callers ready. for those connected to the meeting via phone, please press star followed by 3. if you wish to speak for this item. for those already on hold in the queue, please continue to wait until you're prompted to begin. you'll hear a prompt that informs you that your line has been unmuted. for those who are watching our meeting on cable channel 26 or streaming link or through sfgovtv.org, if you wish to speak on these items, these nine ordinances, please call in now by following the instructions that are on your screen. that would be by dialing (415)655-0001. then by entering the

thank you, deputy city attorney pearson. why don't we go to public comment. mr.clerk, are there callers on the line? >> clerk: thank you, mr. chair. just a moment. operations is checking to see if we have any callers in the queue who wish to speak for the items that are called right now. that means all of the m.o.u. items are called right now, including the m.o.u. for the police officers' association, with its included and related settlement. mr. coup, please let us know if we have callers ready. for those connected to the meeting via phone, please press star followed by 3. if you wish to speak for this item. for those already on hold in the queue, please continue to wait until you're prompted to begin. you'll hear a prompt that informs you that your line has been unmuted. for those who are watching our meeting on cable channel 26 or streaming link or through sfgovtv.org, if you wish to speak on these items, these nine ordinances, please call in now by following the instructions that are on your screen. that would be by dialing (415)655-0001. then by entering the

>> sure, so one item that i would mention and the city attorney ann pearson could jump in if she likes the item before you today is appropriating the proceeds and the sale resolutions have been passed and approved by the board of supervisors. so i don't think that it impacts our ability to sell the bond, it's once they're sold appropriating them into the department. i don't believe that is a timeline issue for either of the mayor's office of housing bonds. michelle, could you speak for the public health and safety bond, is that going to cause problematic impacts? >> yeah, this is michel teretty from the department of public finance. good morning, madam chair and members of the committee. there would be impacts for the department of -- the safety bonds and the department of public health and public works. we have priced bonds already and we expect to close the transaction on or around the 3rd of november. so the longer this appropriation ordinance gets delayed, the proceeds will have to sit on reserve and the department won't have access for it for several weeks. but i don't believe tha

alex pearson. is a lockdown the strategy joe biden appears to be planning, should he take control?inly has people who would like them to go that route, including michael osterholm. michael osterholm in that clip, which i viewed before i came on with you, talks about what a wonderful job europe has done, which looked pretty good and how we should follow europe in a lockdown, really hard. that was really good in august,d right now with france reporting yesterday the equivalent of 425,000 positive tests, via population. in other words, the french and european numbers have been much worse than the u.s. numbers recently. here's the broader point, tuck tucker. for lockdowns and coronavirus have been inherently political from the beginning. i think there's a very good case to be made that president trump would be coasting into a second term, or would have won a second term, anyway, if you had -- if he hadn't had the coronavirus and had it been punished for it by the media. so as biden takes office, and wi think we all expect he is going to take office in ten weeks. republicans are going t

yeah, i mean, you know, and the pearsons are absolutely kind of, you know, america's family in a wayalways goes back to jess. always goes back to jess >> jimmy: i'm team jess. day one, team jess >> i know you are. >> jimmy: yeah, have to be >> i know. >> jimmy: absolutely, buddy. >> yeah. >> jimmy: oh, i love that. i love that. >> yeah. >> jimmy: it's interesting that you play like the bad boy and then you play jack who's the -- probably the best dude on earth. he's the nice -- >> he's one of them, man >> jimmy: he's one of the good guys >> yeah, he's one of the good guys but i mean, i'll tell you what, those are hard shoes to fill at times. >> jimmy: exactly. you know, i've had moments in life where people expect me to be jack. and like, you know, i'll be honest, i mean, i think jack borrows from milo and milo borrows from jack. or milo gets the benefit of wearing the jack face all the time but man, it's tough living up to it sometimes. it really is if you notice like sometimes when i do a lot of press, i'll talk about jack's flaws just to humanize myself a little bit kind of let my

>> either deputy city attorney pearson can answer or someone from representing city planning. >> goodty city attorney, can you hear me? >> yes. >> so the two answers supervisor peskin question, there is nothing that requires that specific process or procedure to adopt a particular categorycal exemption or commonsense exemption. the statute is silent to what procedures are required. in fact this case law that has allowed identifying and relying on a particular categorycal exemption all the way up late in the process. there is nothing really, these procedures under chapter 31 that require certain notice and posting of the categorycal uÑz>w an appeal there was sufficient notice for an appeal. that's why we are here today. there is no violation of state law and nothing in chapter 31 specifically, that requires that cu should have been renewed or reissued. so chapters 31 does not require that. and in specific terms like practical terms both the commonsense exemption and the class 32 amounts to the determination by the department that there are no environmental impacts. [indiscernible] >> s

pearson for a legal answer. my understanding is the property would either, depending on the terms of the lease, it would stay with the company or defer to the housing authority at some point. >> would it cease to exist? >> those responsibilities would be transferred to whoever the land is transferred to. the issue with the acceptance possessing. if the city doesn't accept the street, then the owner of those streets are under no obligation to make them available to the public. >> that is exactly right. >> every project has has a dift public infrastructure. >> nobody would be able to access their units. that doesn't work, does it? >> there are legal obligations on both sides. depending how long it had been and what good faith efforts were on each side. if the city didn't accept it because of a defect we would continue to push the private party to fish. if it was the city's ability to execute or the board didn't move forward depending on the contractual infrastructure agreement or what not, there could be further p

evacuations underway right now because of a gas leak and fire it's in the area of fulton street between pearsoniner we have a map now the area to give you a better idea of where exactly this is happening. it's bordering alamo square park that's right near the painted ladies, this gas leak and fire is happening about one block from there muni has just put out a notice saying that they are rerouting and staying away from the area which is the advice that's coming out now from emergency officials to avoid the area, san francisco police san francisco fire and pgd are on the scene investigating and trying to get the situation under control as soon as more information comes into our newsroom. i will bring it to you. now it has been. more than 2 weeks since plywood started going over the doors and windows of many buildings in downtown san francisco. all because of concerns surrounding the outcome of the presidential election. but now more than a week after the election and a lot of businesses are still barricaded. is in union square green had gotten the explanation as to why businesses have not taken.

had a natural gas line today near san francisco's alamo square, happened on fulton street between pearson steiner officers went door to door to evacuate people from buildings in the danger zone. the genie was on scene assisting first responders utility says the construction workers were not associated with the je ne in the south bay, the bay area's only team says that massive development in their home city might force them out san jose sharks of warns the planned projects such as a nearby google transit village may push them to leave the sapd center kron four's dan thorn has the story from san jose. well the sharks front office raise their concerns about the developments to fans and supporters through an open letter team president jonathan backer says for the team, their biggest concern is fan access to the sa peace center because construction will close off streets and make parking difficult but the mayor says the issues can be worked out. >>massive development projects near the san jose sharks home at the sa peace center as the team considering a new future we were born here in san jose

mccann, emily jackson, irene richardson, patricia atkinson, jayne macdonald, jean jordan, yvonne pearsonine hill. everyone remembers peter sutcliffe's name. how many remember theirs? what no one forgets from the time is the terror felt by women. for a 17—year—old in leeds when sutcliffe was left free to kill, it was a fear michelle teel couldn't shake. we had no mobile phone, so you couldn't ring to say, i don't feel safe. you had nothing, so my mum used to time it knowing when i would roughly be coming home and she would walk halfway to meet me. but it was a scary time. all of us were so aware of this case, to the point of actually suspecting friends, neighbours. joan smith reported on the murders and suffered nightmares after. she wrote about the misogyny of the police investigating. they kind of thought that the women who were involved in the sex trade were "asking for it" in inverted commas, and they were much more interested in the "innocent" women. and i thought they missed the central point, which was that what he hated was women. do you think anything has changed for women since

>> madam deputy city attorney pearson. >> hello, everyone. you raised equitable defenses available to tenants who may have an argument that rent is not due under theory of probability, they were not able to do what was in the contract during the term. and i have to be honest, i've read these amendments only in realtime, i had not seen them before they were distributed. i think the suggestion that you are making might be a good one, to just add language to clarify that nothing here is intended to foreclose the availability of the defenses and we can look at that this week, this item will be continued. >> thank you, deputy city attorney pearson. and thank you for raising those really fascinating questions that i don't really understand but i think i do. >> yes, thank you. and if we need something next week -- i think as, in my quick read of the amendments on, you know, just like i was looking at page, what is it, page six, the new c -- talks about for example, a tenant opts to terminate their lease early, you know, it talks about responsibility

taylor served two years under former home and security, kristin pearson and left the department in june9. poet diane, died at the age of 86, the author of 50 books of poetry and part of the movement in san francisco in the 1950s. editor daniel has also died, he was 79. the longtime fiction editor at the new yorker, before becoming executive editor in chief of random house he worked with monroe and daniel silva to name just a few. he authored several books including a novel memoir, also in the news, scan reports print book sales continued their strong year, up 13% with the week ending october 24. nonfiction sales were up 6% for the week. november is national model writing there promoting the exercise for 21 years. the goal is to write up to 50000 words by the end of the month. the hopes of producing a novel. more information can be found online. book tv will continue to bring new programs and publishing news. you can watch past programs anytime booktv.org. >> hello and welcome to the history centers virtual author talk series.

>> madam deputy city attorney pearson. >> hello, everyone.es available to tenants who may have an argument that rent is not due under theory of probability, they were not able to do what was in the contract during the term. and i have to be honest, i've read these amendments only in realtime, i had not seen them before they were distributed. i think the suggestion that you are making might be a good one, to just add language to clarify that nothing here is intended to foreclose the availability of the defenses and we can look at that this week, this item will be continued. >> thank you, deputy city attorney pearson. and thank you for raising those really fascinating questions that i don't really understand but i think i do. >> yes, thank you. and if we need something next week -- i think as, in my quick read of the amendments on, you know, just like i was looking at page, what is it, page six, the new c -- talks about for example, a tenant opts to terminate their lease early, you know, it talks about responsibility for unpaid rent, right? and

pearson said they expressed concerns about the impact and shippers raised concerns about the changes and railroad transportation. can you address these concerns about the impact on safety especially and also efficiency? >> the term is used a lot these days and i think at the core tenets it means to utilize your assets to the fullest extent possible, rationalizing your system, efficiently optimize the railroad or any company or any industry is looking to do that at any time but when we look at the safety numbers, not only the long-term has shown demonstrable benefits over the past decade plus but year-over-year where we are right now. it's adjusted for traffic volumes. we have seen the decreases and employee casualties and decreases in various other types of incidences so when we look at the trends the safety numbers are headed in the right direction. are we where we want to be, of course not because we have incidents on the system and no one is happy until we are at a time with zero incidences but when we look at the safety numbers, the data bears the fruit. on the service side when

unemployment, and karen pearson -- unemployment, in comparison to what they were giving us, was awfulworkers.have any i am also a student. i went back to school. i am 60. i went back to school to get my rn. i want to switch up now. i am sorry. i lost my train of thought. saying you did not hire anybody. you work out of your home. you are a small business owner. you take the kids in, i assume? caller: i'm sorry. i don't understand what you said. host: you care out of kids where -- you care for kids where? caller: out of my home. regularpped doing infections. they only do covid infections and make sure you are following all the state guidelines. you have to wear masks. six feet apart. and i keep a small enrollment. six only. host: deborah, let me ask you then. what do you want to see from the federal government? do you need more help? caller: honestly, i don't because i can take the children and keep up what i am doing as long as i have parents that are essential workers. as long as they keep a job, i am fine. however, for the money they are going to give, they need to be more directed

city attorney pearson? >> i apologize. i'm having some connection problems today, and i didn't hear the question. can you repeat it, please? >> chair fewe >> chair fewer: are those amendment substantive? >> no, they're not. >> chair fewer: okay. thank you. if you could proceed with your presentation. >> yes. i have [inaudible] and the health care coalition. the office of the assistant secretary for preparedness and response has awarded a total of $350 million. california has received over $8 million, close to $9 million of this grant. the california department of health is allocating $8.1 million partially based on population size to distribute to health care coalition. the county of san francisco was allotted $155,647 from the california department of public which was mandated to be used by the emergency services authority, or e.m.s. we are seeking retroactive approval of the period of the grant award is march 28, 2020 to june 30, 2021, and the grant was distributed on july 7, 2020. san francisco public health is responsi

. >> deputy city attorney ann pearson. yes, you can make those changes. believe they are on page 4, on line 12 we would replace the words "he or she" with the words "the member" and similarly on line 20 of page 4, we replace "he or she" with "the member." >> supervisor stefani: and i'm seeing on page 3, line 4 it says "his or her spouse." >> okay, it could say "the member's spouse." thank you for catching that my office tries very hard when amending to code to capture the correct gender language and i am sorry that escaped us. >> supervisor stefani: so i move that amendment. >> chair ronen: victor? >> clerk: yes, my apologies. i was just typing it. you would like to make those amendments in addition to the ones proposed at the beginning of the meeting? >> supervisor stefani: yes, thank you, victor, for calling attention to that. i also had that technical amendment they mentioned. so if we could include that as well. that's on page 4, line 13 and 14. >> clerk: yes. on -- >> supervisor stefani: i move -- >> clerk: on the notion adopt the amendment. [roll ca

wilma mccann, emily jackson, irene richardson, patricia atkinson, jayne mcdonald, jean jordan, yvonne pearsone women into innocent and the other being non—innocent, we were told that nobody was safe and the only thing we could do was to lock ourselves behind closed doors, and that is what many of us did. but women decided to take matters into their own hand and reclaim public space?” continued to work. i went out and felt it was my duty to talk to those who lived mostly in fear, not to focus on the gruesome and terrible nature of the crimes being committed but the women who had been lost and the women who literally had been told, look at your husband, look at your father, look at your brother, your father, look at your brother, you might be shielding this killer. the influence was on us, but women we re the influence was on us, but women were soon starting to become angry. there were marches, marches around universities. two university stu d e nts universities. two university students were to die. there was graffiti on shops, marches and demonstrations outside films showing films of violence

now, being presented with the gold award for outstanding new teacher of the year with the national pearsonon how... how envious they are the relationship because we are... we are like friends. you know, there are boundaries in place, but we... i hope she looks up to me. she certainly was crying in the video as well, when i was announced as getting a gold award and initially, i think for any parent would do what we do for our children andi would do what we do for our children and i want her to have that stable future and i want her to see that anything is possible. no matter how ha rd anything is possible. no matter how hard something may seem, if you just persist and you keep going, anything is possible and that goes to the stu d e nts is possible and that goes to the students at my school and all over the country as well. you know, don't give up on your dreams. don't give up give up on your dreams. don't give up on what you want to be because although the journey is hard and there are many, many ups and downs, when you get to where you have aim to be, you look back and you just think, wow