statz: to my husband, it was embarrassing. he would never let me tell anyone that he was on medication or what he was going through. he was always worried what other people thought of him, and i'm like, "leon, it's no different than--" i said, "you would talk to everybody and tell your story if you break your arm or if something else would go wrong, but you can't tell anyone that, "hey, i have a mental health crisis that i am trying to figure out?" i mean, to a lot of people, it's an embarrassment, and i'm like, "no. stand tall and own it and say, "i'm gonna get through this." roecker: so then in 2018, that happened with leon, brenda's husband, and that set me back to where i was in my own personal struggles. statz: when leon passed away, his funeral, and randy tried to come, and he called me later, and he said, "you know, i really tried, but," he said, "i just couldn't go. i couldn't go," and i said, "that's fine," and that's when he told me that he's gonna figure out something. we're gonna do something. roecker: that's why i

[cattle lowing] statz: my name is brenda statz. well, my farming was my main thing. it still is a lot of my life, but i do work full-time off my farm, also, so i probably milked here 30-plus years i milked in this barn, and i milked for my dad before that. i was, like, 12 when i started milking cows at his barn, so i've milked cows a long time, so-- [cattle lowing] and some of them, yeah, you get special cows. you get pets, and some of them, you're just like, "no. i don't want nothing to do with her," and you wait for her to go on the truck, you know, to sell them off, but for the most part, i mean, farming is-- good girl. keep watching. it's a good life. it was a good life. i see you, carmen. ha ha ha! leon and i, we met, actually, in reedsburg at a bowling alley. i was not a person who went out much, and i went out with my sister to watch her bowl, and that's when we met, and he had gone to school with my sister, who she's, like, 3 years older than me, and we just started dating, and we both came from farm backgrounds, and we both come from big families, so even ou