it's like no one cares. >> actress tara reed with us. was that upsetting he called you dope on a rope? >> yeah. i think part of the job was to be somewhat obviously cruel and mean, but when you're going through that actual experience and you really, you're not even listening to what they're saying, because you're actually in physical pain. and i know anyone that's ever been in physical pain you're kind of not listening to what people say, you know. but you do hear it. but it's hard to keep moving on and going on. and on the show, i really did. i don't know if you watched it, i tried my best. you know, and i did the best i could be, but at the end of the day, that backpack that we had to wear made no sense. professional football players and basketball players put the same amount on their back that i had. there was no way that i was going to get out of it. it was impossible. >> did special forces break tara reed? >> it almost broke my back. it definitely hurt my shoulders but i didn't break my spirit. >> because were you crying when were y