you, we are talking with elvira about how difficult it is to love yourself with all your history, elvirere, i imagined this conversation several times, in my head there was the thought that well... she’s a mother, well, you can’t talk bad about her, why? i don’t know, there’s a lot, she just did a lot of bad things, of course, i don’t want to say, no matter how difficult it is to explain, probably, well, look, she did a lot of bad things, that doesn’t make her bad, her actions are her actions , it's her choice, her decision, her responsibility, but that doesn't make her bad a person, well, she just lived such a life, she lived a very natural, logical, short life. you can speak badly about your mother, it is clear that this is usually not accepted, but if you do not allow yourself those feelings that you so, i don’t know, gracefully hide, then of course you will never be able to love yourself, because you cannot to love with these feelings, with these emotions, with these memories, how to accept yourself with these emotions, you also have a choice, the same choice as your mother. and you