cover this anxiety with something, but because in such circumstances, which you describe , there is vladevostokd you know, it’s good that at least you don’t drink vodka. yes, good, well, apologism, but since you begin to understand that this is inadequate, then of course you need to look at it from the point of view of the fact of what emotions you are closing, i’ll assume, i’ll leave it like that for now, and we’ll move on , that these are precisely those same feelings of anxiety and loneliness that arise inside you, yes, perhaps that’s why all these purchases don’t bring pleasure, because this too the thing that happened in your childhood was that they bought you a lot. you had a daily routine, a schedule, knitting, sewing, a photo circle , all this, but you needed, you needed this warm contact, yes, closeness, warmth, it seemed like it wasn’t enough, do you know how to create warm close relationships , as it seems to you, you can, i can, in fact, i also have this certain fixation of mine, for me it has always been important to have a family dinner, a family trip somewhere, to the theater, to