you know, all the big museums in the world are showing joan mitchell. for women artists from the 20th century and from modernism. but, for me, in the �*90s, ijust thought i could... "no—one will take..." you know, "i can't, i can't..." my work was so sentimental and personal that there was no room for that in the �*90s, and there was definitely no room for painting. so i didn't paint. i wrote and i made all my fabric works, and i did lots of, you know, film, photography, writing. i even wrote for newspapers. you know, i did everything else but painting, really. and what changed it? what brought you back to painting? because i couldn't not paint. i had to paint. and then i was painting but not showing them. and then i started to show them, and then i represented britain in the venice biennale in 2007. and it was mostly drawing and painting that i showed. and then after that, i thought, "that's it, "i just want to paint." my friends got a really beautiful little drawing that you did of a bird — every time i go into her house, i'm so jealous cos it's just