had absolutely no such doubts, he knew his own worth very well, here’s the thing, on the one hand, kharums school, in some educational institution in front of students, and there people from the audience started giving him some remarks, shouting something, and he said that i don’t perform in messy situations, well, that is, he had performances, there were, but somehow the publications didn’t work out at all, now it’s difficult to judge how worried he really was, there was no reaction, so i wrote like this for several years, just really on the table, and beyond the circle of my few friends, this is didn’t leave, but that’s in general, but this circle of friends supported me in the same way kind of supported, supported, yes supported, and these were very understanding friends, so their assessment would be important to me, but still this is, by and large, writing on the table, that’s why i know this situation, moreover, when i already... i then spent several years in this situation in general, and i somehow left literature studies for several years, and then there, when i was already over 30,