later, having already become adults, the ferdinkinders admitted that no one cared for them in their newilies. in addition, they were used for... in hard labor , subjected to psychological and physical violence. i had to eat in a small windowless room next to the stable. i was never allowed to sit at the kitchen table. i was locked in a barn for days without light, rarely fed. my adoptive father raped me more than once. this is how these people remember their childhood. many of them, unable to bear it, committed suicide, some took this step already in adulthood. others continue to be haunted by the trauma received in childhood and the desire to settle the score with. life does not leave them to this day. according to historians , 100,000 bonded children became victims of cruel policies. here is a typical story. seven decades later, a swiss walter steg recalls his ruined childhood. when he was only five, the authorities decided that his parents were too poor to raise a child, and walter became free labor for strangers. it still hurts me, he sums up, about the ruin. "they didn't give me fo