i don't blame john manard, because if i blamed john manard for this, then that would make me a victimnot a victim. andrea canning (voiceover): toby decided to see john manard one last time, hoping that would help her finally come to terms with her mistake. so 10 years after their whirlwind romance, she sat across from him in a prison visiting room. it was really, really good because it was truly closure. it was just good to be able to sit down and fill in the blanks and then walk away. andrea canning (voiceover): in august of 2024, john manard died in prison. he was 45 years old. following news of his death, toby posted online, john is finally free, but i am crushed. i pray you have at last found the peace you were searching for, john. toby goes by toby dorr now. she's remarried and has written a memoir, "living with conviction," that she hopes can inspire all women who are facing desperation and guide formerly incarcerated women to productive lives after prison. i want to share my story to help women unleash themselves. we have these emotional prisons that we built ourselves, and we