occasionally i would bump into francis bacon, who would take me for dinner, which was very nice of hims, because he'd been there himself. you make it sound almost glamorous, being a drug addict. well, i'm really sorry. what can i tell you? no, i'm just interested. i was in agony, and i healed myself as best i could. one of the ways was with drugs, because they are painkillers. heroin is a painkiller. when i didn't need a painkiller any more, i stopped. i haven't touched it since 1985. the other thing that i really needed was anonymity, but you were also a mother, you had a son to bring up... i would go back to my mum and have a bath and a good meal i was much too sick at that moment, you know? i breast—fed nicholas for six months. i didn't smoke cigarettes, i didn't do drugs, i didn't we had a very, very good first seven years together. then he was taken away from me. but, yeah, after i left mick, i was much too broken and sick and unhappy. i couldn't do anything. when i would go home, after my famous bath or sit in the chair, my mother would be upstairs, hank williams. and i would pla