if there was an emergency we would go down to the sandy hook firehouse and gather there, which is what we did that day. we knew that -- >> but you sat the kids down. >> we sat in the cubby area, away from the door so no one could see us, read them a story, talked to them. they kept saying how come we're here for so long. well, it will be a little longer. when they're 5 you tell them whatever you do to keep them safe and keep them calm. >> this is what i've been thinking about all weekend, though, the courage for you to be able to sit there and read a story and keep them calm -- >> i think the adrenaline kicks in and you do what you have to do. there were two other people in the room helping me with pulling down the blinds and that. i was focused on the kids and just keeping them safe. i'm not about to tell them that i think something is very bad or very wrong. so we waited and waited and it seemed like a very long time. maybe it was 20 minutes, a half hour, i'm not sure. there were...