from the memories seem odd to so much so long time in the series trying to tell. i was. i was ashamed that i didn't. i was ashamed that i hadn't been a hero why. are my go my legs come off. in the modern. times where i like to be out. or to. get out more i was going once or i think. that i was a good soldier. but now most older on the other side and i think i'm just not good .