not gone to all these different fertility clinics the last for two fertility clinic we went to they made it mandatory that giuliani get a mammogram all their patients and she was thirty six years old that i'm you know well below the age of supposed to get a mammogram and that was when they detected the breast cancer so in hindsight this little baby saved her life and the baby is no and. yes i mean i know he is he is and that was something we obviously discussed at length but what it is larry is that you know for so many seasons people have been watching our show through infertility through breast cancer and they've been praying for us they support us they tweet us you know one thousand times a day they e-mail us they facebook us you know and we get so much support from people that if to say now you know what you can see our baby and put a blanket over his head and not introduce him to this and you see what i mean and you know a lot of people do that i just put them in the babies and...