i didn't know how to handle it, in hindsight i wish i had done more. at first paterno was furious when he was fired but in the interview he tried to stay positive. >> i have had a wonderful experience here at penn state. i don't want to walk away from this thing bitter. >> reporter: he insists he's proud of his record. >> i don't think i deviated from what i am all about and what i thought was important. >> reporter: a source close to paterno says he has more to say about the matter but his plans were cut short when he was readmitted to the hospital last week for what a spokesman said were minor complications related to cancer treatments. after hearing from angry alumni rodney erickson said the school wants to honor paterno but not for his conduct in this matter. tamron? >> thank you. now here's brian williams with what's coming up tonight on "nightly news." >> coming up, in a business where perfection is the ideal, modeling, we're going to