outside world is that black and white television. >> anybody you watched on television that helped you get through the times? >> i watched oprah for a lot. watched recipes. and i watched you. >> you watched me? >> i remember during hurricane katrina, i saw everything you went through. >> my family had barely survived the hurricane's devastation. >> mom's okay. sister's okay. >> they're all right. >> i got to say, amanda, you saying that, it reafirms to you that you never know who is watching. >> you never do. >> and amanda is watching when her mother appears on the montel williams show with psychic sylvia brown. >> i watched her and i said i wished my mom would go on there and tell her i am alive and that i'm okay. >> sylvia brown breaks her open? >> i hate this, she's not alive, honey. >> i broke down crying. i can't believe she said that. my mom broke down crying, so it