after columbine, i stopped watching the news i headed martin was a senior at columbine high school. when the shooting happened in 1999, at the time it shocked the country and was the worst school attack in us history. now it doesn't even make the list of the top 10 deadliest mass shootings. today either works as a high school english teacher and has been through multiple lockdown trills, but news and other math shootings can still trigger anxiety attacks the trauma. and what i went through that day will always be a part of me. it's taken me quite a few years to kind of come to terms with that for 9 years. i was really not in denial that the event happened, but in denial that the event impacted me to the extent that it did, i felt last isolated alone. i really started my journey at 10 years, 10 years after i after the mess, shooting at a movie theater, or colorado in 2012. heather co founded the rebels project, support group for mass shooting survivors in victims families. it started with people from a handful of incident to yeah, now it has members for more than a 100 communities im