it was very clear i goten to the point where i was going to become a fatality up there if i didn't turnout. >> rose: if you didn't turn around you were going to die and you knew that. >> yes, i felt that very clearly. >> rose: did you worry that if you continued you might, in fact, impede his success? is. >> i would love to say that was front and center of my mind but that wasn't at the time. even though there is a reality to that decision, my turning around while i could still rescue under my own power, helped, you know, let cory go with a clear conscience to the top. but at the time, it was just black and white to me that if i continue, i will not come back off this mountain and i need to go down. >> rose: just tell us, when you reached the top. i'm avoiding asking the question what you do do you feel but what was the moment for snu. >> you know, it's an interesting-- getting to the top of these peaks, i think, people expect revelation, they expect some sorlt of relieve, some sort of a ha moment seeing god, and yeah, you see god in the landscape and but you don't-- at least i have never