>> well, first, matthew wasn't gay.he was, we would have loved him unconditionally. >> it's our son. >> he was our son. it wouldn't have made any difference at all no doctor would diagnose a patient without seeing him. >> that would be considered unethical. but many bloggers and people on the internet make a diagnosis all the time without any knowledge. you have to ignore it. you can't pay any attention to it. we keep what we call a tough skin and a tender heart. >> do you have either of you any big "what if" when you look back on this? do you have anything that if only we tried. >> okay, that's grief. >> you always second guess yourself in grief. >> that's a part of grief, the what if. i look back at all the years of treatment, all the years of every approach we tried. there i was reading my journal again last night. there were days i'd go what if we had done this, what if we had done that? >> the what if springs to mind for me if i was in your position and thank god i'm not. if i had been, what if knowing he'd acquire

matthew had made attempts on his life before in other ways, and we just kept -- you know, when matthew was born, even as a young child, he struggled with mental illness, we can get into that when you want to talk about it, so we knew that this day might happen some day but it's a day no parent wants. it's your worst nightmare. and i'll never forget. i'll never forget the agony of that moment. >> let's take a short break. i will come back and talk to you about the appalling battles that matthew had gone through, the battles that you went through as parents, to try an prevent this happening. >> good. >> then, when they brought his body out, i -- i -- i hugged him for all it was worth. [ male announcer ] this store knows how to handle a saturday crowd. ♪ [ male announcer ] the parking lot helps by letting us know who's coming. the carts keep everyone on the right track. the power tools introduce themselves. all the bits and bulbs keep themselves stocked. and the doors even handle the checkout so we can work on that thing that's stuck in the thing. [ female announcer ] today, cisco is conn

matthew had made attempts on his life before in other ways, and we just kept -- you know, when matthew was born, even as a young child, he struggled with mental illness, we can get into that when you want to talk about it, so we knew that this day might happen some day but it's a day no parent wants. it's your worst nightmare. and i'll never forget. i'll never forget the agony of that moment. >> let's take a short break. i will come back and talk to you about the appalling battles that matthew had gone through, the battles that you went through as parents, to try an prevent this happening. >> good. >> then, when they brought his body out, i -- i -- i hugged him for all it was worth. ♪ ♪ unh ♪ ♪ hey! ♪ ♪ let's go! ♪ [ male announcer ] you can choose to blend in. ♪ ♪ yeah! yeah! yeah! or you can choose to blend out. ♪ oh, yeah-eah! ♪ the all-new 2014 lexus is. it's your move. the all-new 2014 lexus is. i save time, money,st, and i avoid frustration. you'll find reviews on home repair to healthcare, written by people just like you. find out why more than two million members count on angie

you're there at his house, matthew's house. now know that he has done what you always hoped he'd never do. did you go in? did you go and try and see him? >> i didn't want to see what the possibility was, so i opened the door, i let the police in and i let them go into the room and i immediately came right back out. i didn't want to -- >> no. we didn't -- neither of us wanted to -- >> see the scene. >> the pictures in our mind were terrible enough. >> bad enough. >> we were fortunate. some people find their loved ones. we were fortunate we did not have to witness that. but they let us know that it was catastrophic enough that the police officer was like, you know, you don't want to -- you don't want to have an open casket. so i assumed i would never see him again, so then i said, i am definitely -- i want to see -- i'm going to hug him when -- when you bring him out. so they did. when they -- then, when they brought his body out, i -- i, i hugged him for all it was worth and the coroner tried to move me away and i'm just like --

you're there at his house, matthew's house.ou now know that he has done what you always hoped he'd never do. did you go in? did you go and try and see him? >> i didn't want to see what the possibility was, so i opened the door, i let the police in and i let them go into the room and i immediately came right back out. i didn't want to -- >> no. we didn't -- neither of us wanted to -- >> see the scene. >> the pictures in our mind were terrible enough. >> bad enough. >> we were fortunate. some people find their loved ones. we were fortunate we did not have to witness that. but they let us know that it was catastrophic enough that the police officer was like, you know, you don't want to -- you don't want to have an open casket. so i assumed i would never see him again, so then i said, i am definitely -- i want to see -- i'm going to hug him when -- when you bring him out. so they did. when they -- then, when they brought his body out, i -- i, i hugged him for all it was worth and the coroner tried to move me away and i'm just like

you are there at his house, matthew's house. now know that he has done what you have always hoped you would never do. did you go in? did you go and try to see him? >> i didn't want to see what the possibility was. so i opened the door. i led the police in and i let them go into the room and i immediately came right back out. i didn't want to -- >> no, we didn't. neither of us wanted to. the pictures in our mind are terrible enough. >> were bad enough. >> and we were fortunate, some people find their loved ones. we were fortunate that we did not have to witness that, but they let us know it was catastrophic enough that the police officer was like, you don't want to have an open casket. so i assumed i would never see him again. so i said, i am definitely, i want to see, i am going to hug him when you bring him out. and so they did. when they, then when they brought his body out, i, i hugged him for all it was worth and they, the coroner tried to move me away and i was just like, i will be done when i am done. i am hugging my son u

you're there at his house, matthew's house. now know that he has done what you always hoped he'd never do. did you go in? did you go and try and see him? >> i didn't want to see what the possibility was, so i opened the door, i let the police in and i let them go into the room and i immediately came right back out. i didn't want to -- >> no. we didn't -- neither of us wanted to -- >> see the scene. >> the pictures in our mind were terrible enough. >> bad enough. >> we were fortunate. some people find their loved ones. we were fortunate we did not have to witness that. but they let us know that it was catastrophic enough that the police officer was like, you know, you don't want to -- you don't want to have an open casket. so i assumed i would never see him again, so then i said, i am definitely -- i want to see -- i'm going to hug him when -- when you bring him out. so they did. when they -- then, when they brought his body out, i -- i, i hugged him for all it was worth and the coroner tried to move me away and i'm just like --

matthew, that's my favorite thing about you.g people like you can't imagine. and we are happy to say that as of october 17th, 18th and 19th, i'm going to be at angeles temple with matthew. we are going to be doing this concert version of scandalous. three nights at angeles temple. you see why i like to partner with this guy? >> i do. >> things happen when matthew is around. watch your purse. >> thanks, matthew. >> love you buddy. the book is fantastic. >>> always something cooking with our friend giada. she's got help. >> first, this is "today" on nbc. ♪ [ female announcer ] you've got finding time for what matters, down to a science. you're the reason we reformulated one a day women's. a complete multivitamin that now has extra b vitamins, which help convert food to energy. energy support for the things that matter. that's one a day women's. ♪ >>> it is time for "cooking with giada." >> yeah. jeff giada de laurentiis is with us. she's written several successful cookbooks. now we're getting a sense of her children's books. >> th

matthew has some catching up to do. reporting live in antioch, deborah villalon, ktvu channel 2 news. >>> incoming uc president janet napolitano is being met with a list of demands from students as she prepares to take her post. the uc student senate unanimously passed a bill calling for a no confidence vote if napolitano does not meet demands. including ensure the system is a safe place for undocumented students and prevent riot police from interfering on campuses. >>> the woman accused of attacks lester chambers has been arrested. gina potters jumped on stage and knocked him down. potters is charged with assault and elder abuse. she surrendered to authorities today. >>> four home invasion suspects are in custody one more still being sought tonight in the south bay. sheriff deputies and san jose police locked down the neighborhood in meadow road in east san jose. they searched and quickly found two suspects. they also recovered a gun. authorities say the victims two women and two infants were not hurt. three of the sus

matthew has some catching up to do.orting live in antioch, deborah villalon, ktvu channel 2 news. >>> incoming uc president janet napolitano is being met with a list of demands from students as she prepares to take her post. the uc student senate unanimously passed a bill calling for a no confidence vote if napolitano does not meet demands. including ensure the system is a safe place for undocumented students and prevent riot police from interfering on campuses. >>> the woman accused of attacks lester chambers has been arrested. gina potters jumped on stage and knocked him down. potters is charged with assault and elder abuse. she surrendered to authorities today. >>> four home invasion suspects are in custody one more still being sought tonight in the south bay. sheriff deputies and san jose police locked down the neighborhood in meadow road in east san jose. they searched and quickly found two suspects. they also recovered a gun. authorities say the victims two women and two infants were not hurt. three of the suspect

>> yes, matthew. it's a step-by-step program, where i show parents how to get their kids to be accountable for their behavior. matthew, from day one, the total transformation program shows you how to explain to the child, in no uncertain terms, this is how you're gonna talk to me, this is how i'm gonna talk to you, this is how we're gonna treat each other, and that's all there's gonna be to it. the arguments stop. >> matthew: wow. >> the debates stop. we just stop that. i'll show you how to stop it. it's the simplest thing in the world. in the total transformation program, i show you exactly what to do when your kid acts up. i show you exactly what to say. you can sit in your kitchen, and you can listen to this program and learn all you need to know to get your family back on the right track. look, i was a kid with a lot of behavior problems in new york city, and my parents didn't know what to do with me. i developed a program that my parents could've followed to help me. that's how simple that i want

>> no. >> did you give matthew any type of anti-freeze?poison matthew? >> no, it's not a fact. because i didn't do it. i didn't do that. >> have you ever told anyone that you put something in matthew's drink? >> no, i never put anything in his drink. i would never say i did. >> narrator: holly protested, none of this made sense, she said. >> he was the father of my children. the person i was going to spend the rest of my life with. i'm not going to hurt him in any way. our dreams, our goals, my whole life has completely been changed upside down and i know nothing. and his family despises me and does nothing but speak evil. >> narrator: and with that, detectives thanked her for coming in and sent her on her way, with a warning that most likely she would be indicted. >> there will be a warrant for your arrest. >> narrator: that was late september 2010, but holly wasn't indicted, not that year, not the next career either. something strange happened in 2011. holly answered her phone and found herself talking to a guy she dated briefly, after m

matthew cordle will be arraigned on charges he caused a deadly crash after a night of heavy drinking.lison harmon tells us, the family of the man who was alleged killed believes cordle confessed to get a lighter sentence. >> reporter: matthew cordle turned himself into police in columbus, ohio, after a dramatic online confession. >> my name is matthew cordle. and on june 22nd, 2013, i hit and killed vince canzani. this video is my confession. >> reporter: cordle's 3 1/2-minute video has gone viral. the 22-year-old admits he got drunk and crashed head on into vincent canzani's car. his blood alcohol limit was twice the legal limit. police put him in handcuffs. he plans to plead guilty. but cordle's public confession is of no comfort to vincent canzani's daughter who calls the video self-serving. quote, my family has not been helped at all by this video. nothing has changed for the better and if anything it has only caused us heartache. cordle said he posted this on the internet to send a message. >> i'm begging you, please don't drink and drive. >>> still to come, your tuesday morning

i wanted to look at something matthew. the director of the national being, activity, anything that yesterday's disclosures to the -- add to the ongoing public debate is outwayed by the road map they give to our adversaries about the specific means we are taking to intercept mayor communications. richard and jeff i'd like you to have a shot at it. >> i wish i had a good answer. right now you know it seems like there's a lot of information in these leaks but as a cryptographer trying to find out how to unlock these i don't know how to start. how do i communicate securely today i don't know what the answer is but certainly i do know that there -- you know things need to be rebuilt from scratch. >> let's talk a little more about other snowden leaks. the washington post recently published a story about a lot of details about a black budget, $52.6 billion surveillance program, cutting edge technologies, agency recruiting ongoing operations including information on sensors monitoring syria and north korea, very specific, richard

that's it from hardball with chris matthews.s. >> thank you. hi. i'm honored to be standing here tonight with the principal of carlos santana art academy. >> thank you, daisy, i am happy to be here. >> you know, most of us know our next honoree as our own personal guitar hero. his magical music created the sound track to our lives, maestro carlos santana. >> carlos and his family founded the milagro foundation in 1998 which encourages youngsters worldwide. >> the milagro foundation supports numerous organizations around the globe including eastside college prep in the san francisco bay area, a tuition-free independent middle and high school for low income students who are the first in their families to attend college. >> and, in los angeles, the carlos santana arts academy which provides access to arts education and training for students to be original thinkers and effective communicators. >> the nclr is proud to present the 2013 alma award for outstanding commitment to cause and community, to artists and activists, carlos santa

second quarter, almost decapitated by matthews. that would get everybody's blood boiling, joe staley would get in the mix, offsetting penal advertise should have given the niners fourth down. then it's 14-7. boldin a huge day. davis, six catches, 98 yards. 21-14. aaron rodgers doing what he does. 333 yards passing, jordy nelson, 130. 28-24 packers, niners answer. five plays, frank gore finding the end zone. after a three and out by green bay, niners driving again. fourth and two at the packers' 46. huge. boldin, 15 yards, led to a field goal. 34-28 the final. boldin, 208 yards on 13 receptions, kaepernick, 312-yard. here's coach. >> feels great to have -- we did give up a draft choice for him, and paid him a lot of money, but definitely think he is worth every penny. >> as is rumored, terrelle pryor getting a chance against andrew luck. luck, 12-yards there to recommendingie wayne. 7-0 colts. pryor's willingness to run kept the colts defense offbalance. second quarter, darren mcfarland. pryor goes for a chest bump on dennis allen.

hello, matthew. >> so darn cute.we have a question from erica. >> erica asked us a question before the break, didn't she? >> she did. >> is it good to stay in touch or -- >> friends. >> friendly with your ex? my question to erica is who was it that ended it? erica, can you hear us? >> i can hear you. >> who ended it was it you or him? >> i would say in this situation, it would probably be me. >> so in other words staying friends with him isn't helping him. >> i don't think so. >> no. so, here is the thing, if you were the one who got rid of the person, being friends isn't helping them. and if they were the one that ended it with you a, being fries isn't helping you. >> so the answer is no? >> the answer is until you get to a point where you can genuinely say this is platonic, i don't feel anything and they do too, because really easy to be doing the dumping, you and i should be friends after this. >> difference between being friends and being friendly. >> yeah, friendly -- being friendly is one thing. rarely do you h

matthews hammers kapernick to the ground well after the play was over. the late hit sparked a shoving h on the sidelines.. matthews flagged for the late hit. j staley was also nailed for unsportsmanlike conduct. bye it should have been 4th dow instead the 49ers got to re third down ... kaepernick f anquan boldin over the midd for a touchdown and a 14-7 lead.. 14-14 in the third quarter... kapernick to vern davis for one of two touchdowns. davis had 6 cat for 98 yards... 24-21 49ers in e fourth quarter, aaron rodge rolls out and finds jordy nn for an incredible catch alo the sidelines. the packers finished the drive on a go- ahead 1-n touchdown run by eddie lacyo take the 28-24 lead.. but boldin's chemistry with kaepernick was amazing... he weaves through the defense for a pickup of 412 yards passing for kaepnick. 208 yards receiving for boldin.. that was the big play in a e that ended on a 1 yard frank gore touchdown run. 49ers go on p 31-28... they win 34- 28 " " 26 of the raiders 53 players were making their nfl debut, so naturally expectations weren't

. >> my name is matthew coil. on june 22nd, 2013, i hit and killed a man. >> we're seeing 22-year-old matthew cordal, the who did this talking about what he did, drinking behind the wheel and killing 61-year-old, navy veteran, who is now survived by his two daughters. >> this video is my confession. >> wru see him writing on a small business card. >> when i get ch guilty. >> he wrote this prior to being charged. >> this is against all of his legal counsel advice. >> full responsibility to everything i did to his family. >> in court because i said this was released by because i said i would is a not for profit start-up. >> he could have taken those offers' offer and tried to get off. >> yeah. >> instead, he's doing the right thing and owning up. >> i'm begging you, please don't drink and drive. >>> just seems like you're not safe anywhere these days. check out this dash cam footage from a car in singapore. see that motorcycle pull up beside the car. and then -- doesn't even know what happened there. the motorcycle

like jay, kelly and matthew at first knew very little about yelp.hey were proud to see their customers' four and five-star revi reviews far outnumbered the negives. unlike jay, however, kelly and matthew chose not to buy advertising on the yelp site, despite what they say was a barrage of sales calls. >> finally after, i don't know, the fourth, fifth, or sixth time they called, we said please, stop calling. we have a lot going on and we're not going to do it, end of story. >> but it wasn't the end of story. according to the calandros, shortly after rejecting yelp's ad package, next they knew many of the positive reviews were filtered off their page. is there a connection? yelp says no. their computer system is fully automated and cannot be fiddled with by everyone, but for the restaurant, their overall ratings had plummeted and many of their new out of town customers stopped showing up. >> the positive reviews would come off, leaving the mediocre or not so great reviews. >> peter is the owner of a business and said he found himself in a similar situ

chris matthews what happened next?we have the thursday meeting in geneva, russian foreign minister and john kerry, both very compa -- competent. we ought to use the security council as a platform, courtroom. make our case. we will lose our case on moral grounds the minute we attack syria. as long as we can argue that we are the champions of ending the use of chemical weapons or ownership of them, we're the good guys. the minute we attack syria, we lose the status. >> can we be the champion of that after the iraq war, though? honestly. this is, not imminently after the iraq war. ten years since we started it. did we forever poison the well? >> i think we did poison the well. but i think what we have seen tonight, that is a little different. one we, have seen now. assad and them admit they have weapons. big thing in iraq going after weapon that were not there. assad said yes they're here. yes there are locations. secondly we have a president that has gone to congress. he is saying i don't need to go but i am going and he

otherwise it's matthew 24. i'm sorry. let's go back to matthew 24.i thought i wanted luke 21, but it was matthew 24. yeah. matthew 24. sorry about that. verse 37. matthew 24 verse 37. now luke accounts for much the same as these but this is the one i wanted. matthew 24 starting at verse 37, and we're doing this to again make folk away of how we are right at the same place today in the world. and i think god is giving some wakeup calls with some of these horrendous disasters. all right, verse 37 of matthew 24, "but as the days of noah were, so shall also the coming of the son of man be." now of course, you want to remember that whenever the gospel's speak of the coming of christ it's not talking about the rapture as you and i think of it, but the second coming, at the end of the seven years of tribulation. always remember that. everything in the four gospels falls right in line with the old testament and revelation and it is all preparing the world for the second coming of christ. all right, so remember that that's always seven years beyond when we wi

and matthew is in a better place.hat he is without a doubt gone to heaven and looking back now, looking down on this earth and spreading his light and his love. >> do you think about your friend often? >> every single day. every single day i think of robby and quite frankly i do use that thought. i think that's one of the reasons why ever since i lost robby, that's when i began struggling to find my purpose. i felt like how could it -- >> did you question your faith at all? >> i did. i did. i've questioned it since then and questioned it, you know, even recently. but when you hear the words and you know that you just got to believe, you've got to have hope. you've got to believe in something. i think that's one of the things about a world where we're at now. this is a time for love, not hate. we need to build bridges, you know, not tear them down. and i thought what the pope said today. you know, love and mercy was powerful statement. >> and an extraordinary statement by this pope who is an extraordinary man. we'll be

chris matthews what happened next?ave the thursday meeting in geneva, russian foreign minister and john kerry, both very compa -- competent. we ought to use the security council as a platform, courtroom. make our case. we will lose our case on moral grounds the minute we attack syria. as long as we can argue that we are the champions of ending the use of chemical weapons or ownership of them, we're the good guys. the minute we attack syria, we lose the status. >> can we be the champion of that after the iraq war, though? honestly. this is, not imminently after the iraq war. ten years since we started it. did we forever poison the well? >> i think we did poison the well. but i think what we have seen tonight, that is a little different. one we, have seen now. assad and them admit they have weapons. big thing in iraq going after weapon that were not there. assad said yes they're here. yes there are locations. secondly we have a president that has gone to congress. he is saying i don't need to go but i am going and he is

cbs reporter, michelle miller says a million people have seen the video of matthew admitting that he drove drunk. >> i'm begging you, please don't drink and drive. >> this internet video was posted by matthew cordal three months after he slammed head on into vincent. he was never arrested. >> my name is matthew cordal, and on june 22, 2013, i hit and killed vincent kanzani. >> the confession has been viewed over a million times since it was posted last week. he planned to plead guilty today in court. martin is his lawyer. >> those who say the tape specifically has been used in a way to influence this case. >> my client's intention when he put out this video was to raise awareness about drunk driving. >> some people feel as though the video was used to help get matt off easy. >> that's not the case at all. what we hope and what matt hopes is that the sentence is fair and appropriate. the most important thing is the message, the sentiments behind the video. >> a daughter of the man he killed declined to speak with us on camera. said nothing changed for the better because of the video.

archaeologist peter matthews. matthews: we can now read this entire inscription. it begins over here with the date, the verb of which is recorded here, saying literally, "he was born." it then moves directly into another date, and these numbers here represent 4 followed by the glyph for a 20-year period here. so 4 times 20 years, or roughly 80 years between those two dates. then we get a glyph here giving the event of the second date, he died. and then the name of the person who both was born and died, the great son, pacal, shown here by a shield sign, which is read "pacal" in mayan. finally, to end this first passage, we get "the holy lord of palenque," indicating that he was the king of palenque. keach: a king at the age of 12, pacal left a wealth of inscriptions that traces his lineage back six generations. his sons carried the lineage forward, to reveal a phenomenal record of a ruling maya dynasty. but the writing also revealed an abrupt and puzzling break in the dynastic succession. this is the palace, begun by pacal and continued by his sons, including kan x

, something else happened. >> my name is matthew cordle.n june 22nd, 2013, i hit and killed vincent canzani. this video will act as my confession. >> since matthew cordle's confession was posted on the internet last week, it's been viewed more than 2 million times. during the 3 1/2-minute video cordle says he made the confessional to raise awareness about drunk driving and that he's ready to be punished. >> when i get charged, i'll plead guilty and take full responsibility for everything i've done to vincent and his family. >> but that's not what happened when cordle was arraigned in court on wednesday. >> at this point my client will plead not guilty. >> cordle's attorneys say the move was procedural and that their client will eventually plead guilty next week, however, the judge indicated this week cordle's defense team made the move because she wouldn't promise to hand down a specific sentence. >> it would have been nice to get everything done today and wrapped but the fact that we have date certain and look forward to and know what he's

staley gets in the face of matthews. players are both sides are shoving. matthews were both called for penalties. so it should be fourth down. but instead, the officials blow the call, they replay third and six. and with the extra chance, kaepernick, it's boldin. let's go to the fourth. 28-24, second and goal. frank gore plunging in. 49ers up, 31-28. three seconds left. packers down six. aaron rodgers under pressure. smith gets his arms. and the shovel pass falls incomplete. 49ers hang on to win. looking forward to the monday night football double header tonight on espn. >>> all those hits in the nfl yesterday couldn't hold a candle to some that a guy in north carolina has been documenting. his camera is focused on a railroad bridge that has a tradition of shaving off the top of trucks and other vehicles. >> oh, don't do it, don't do it. >> oh, the camper breaks my heart. when drivers don't see the sign that indicates the height, you are seeing what happens. oh, my god. >> how about, he lost his air conditioning. >> that bridge must be made of, like -- >>

"my name is matthew cordle killed vinc . >>> identity's video that has gone viral.ght now and confesses to killing another man while driving drunk. >> my name is matthew. on june 22nd, 2013, i hit and killed vincent, and the prosecution everything they need to put me away for a very long time. >> he goes onto describe how he got in his truck after bar hopping, drove the wrong way on a road in ohio. 22-year-old matthew has not been charged yet, but police expect to charge him shoon. ed in have i owe he says he will plead guilty. >>> the city of san leandro will shet up new surveillance cameras to stop crime because oakland is dog the same. christin ayers tells us criminals trying to dodge oakland's camera wills het right into san leandro. >> the images of mike and his two daughters on their own property in san leandro. >> it shows me and my daughters getting out of our car in our driveway. >> it was taken by a license plate reader on a san leeng police car that was passing by. >> it causes a chilling effect on the people who are subjected to this type of surveillance

>> there's also question is how matthew is spelled. he was generally known as baby but there were many of his injuries were reproduced "harper's weekly" and they did credit to matthew b brady but they only use one butter tea but i think if he would have gotten it wrong he would have corrected that. the most people did not. >> how long do they have to stand still for? >> it depended on the light available the atmosphere early on and it could be many, many seconds up to one minute there is a beautiful photograph very touching the father is sitting in a chair in the young henry is touching him and also similar in a way to the great photograph of lincoln for the most personal with his son tad for he sits in the shareholding a bookie and tad is just like his father that was done partly because the exposure time was so long they had to be very still and henry james writes about having been photographed that day in the brady studio to say it was excruciating he had a vice behind his back the famous picture of grant leading up with a pine tree