i went about eight to eight and a half weeks after soraya was born to where we had to go back to work because we were getting our electricity shut off on us. our gas bill was going, we had all of our savings used up. this is six months later even with me working for last three months we're still playing catchup. we are nickel and diming everything look at each other saying how are we going to pay for christmas. how are we going to be able to do some enjoyable things for our son you know to be able to have him still enjoy life as well. the fact that she had no choice but to go back to work where she was really grieving, it was not the way. for one of the few countries in the world other than papua new guinea, that doesn't offer paid parental leave. it's sad. >> working in a restaurant as a waitress you're not supposed to be upset, you're supposed to be happy, making their experience there enjoyable and i was not even able to really talk. i was hyperventilating and i was shaking. it was just too much for me. >> a lot of times you feel concerned about the cost, concerned about the implic