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and when i asked jonah yellow man, a medicine person among the dinne what he was seeing, he said terry, we have to go deeper. and so i ask us together what does that look like for each of us? each of us in our own places with our own gifts in the places we call home. and evangi gray, a medicine woman fighting for water rights for her people in san juan county for 30 years still no water. she says to dwell is to see things as they are. and then you sta stay and fight for those things that you see for your community. it is a privilege, she said. we are eroding and evolving at once. perhaps jonah's call to go deeper is a call to acknowledge the power that resides in the earth itself. the organic intelligence inherent in deserts and forests, rivers and oceans and all manner of species beyond our own even within our own bodies, we cannot create wild nature. we can only destroy it. and in the end, in breathtaking acts of repentance and renewal try to restore what we have thoughtlessly removed at our own expense be it wolves in the yellowstone or fly catchers along the colorado river. we are