so you don't talk about it after he said i. had see i was lucky why didn't it why didn't the both somebody on you know guys do that or why did no prometheus why didn't i do this i once tried i don't know still and. i remember i was living in a wide new york city totally alone i don't. put my bathroom sascha rock on it. so the share and why i got down was because. my friends. i had made after the war who had been through the same thing i had and i felt if i detected myself i would betray. the bond we had. coochie vietnam fire or for tame nine hundred sixty five eighty they call it hell's half acre because of the american boy. and still their town of the island via current snipers have done most of the damage today was no exception. on this but in the twenty seventh and for the tree the framed wolfhounds moved out to attack the snipers opened up from such perfectly camouflaged positions the most of the a copy of day with a c. in one of them a sergeant was hit in the shoulder and leg as he rolled over. ripped to its back. a medic brok

i found the bridge that we crossed the border and i had been shot. i discovered to the hour and the moment where i had been routed forty years before and i cannot explain it but that discovery began my feeling. my generation really repressed with the war was about we didn't want to talk about it we weren't allowed to talk about it and then slowly in the one nine hundred eighty s. and one nine hundred ninety s. this whole thing of the greatest generation occurred it was wonderful you know the greatest generation what a nice thing to college and we forgot what we had done we forgot that we had been animals for a law war is about one thing it's about killing you even learn to kill somebody else or you get killed or wounded yourself and that's why i've come to so loaded the idea of war so i think that's of a powerful force. naam assad and his cost not what may i i think of it everyday. i still have to fire sparks from the to memorise still go to counseling for. and. it's is now worth it but what i did do was mad is to find some good in that war. thing vie

that i hate that i had had growing up in the south i think i had expanded. because of what was happening here not because so loosen the people. i feel i've become an animal i've never killed no remorse. i literally saw young men turn into. psychopathic killers. but the great thing about the marine corps is the training process that the young men and women go through gives them all the ability to kill at least one time to put that warrior ethos in effect and then once you've done it and then it's on you. there's so many things happen in a war that put you at odds with your sense of right and wrong. i've seen things that would be described as is war crimes. that the sergeant who had the ring of yours who. is not a secret i mean he's walking around with a big wiring with human ears punched through the lobe and they're all hanging on the ring these are people he has cut off for years to try to get information. on the shooting civilians. you don't really call it it's not like you're shooting a scene there it's like. collateral damage. hungry for the. we've got. th

i had a month and a half to write half of a book. you know in the first half took a year and a half. i was teaching simultaneous, i was writing on the weekends and trying to write as fast as i could but it was researching. i was trying to learn the culture and understand it enough so it would be part of the book. i began -- i rented a place in lake tahoe and sat there for the entire month of august. it was september ninth or something. i had summer break from teaching and i just sat down from the time it was morning to the time it was cocktail hour. i always say this because cocktail hour got earlier everyday because it was so hard to write this book when i had to write it in a certain period of time like that. what i had done finally, in the end, when it's done i thought it was the perfect situation. i had to be in that situation to write this particular book because that was the situation that the character steven was in. he was in a place he didn't want to be. he was far from people he wanted to be close to. he was not in his terri

so i had to look at that and ask how confused i was. when i look back on it, as everyone on this stage will tell you, their first stage was -- their first year was confusing, maddening. we were experimenting. we were experimenting perhaps with a lot more than you will be experimenting with. [laughter] nevertheless, we are here now. what is the common thread that connects all of us? college education. [applause] do not be fooled. do not let anyone tell you that without a college education, everything is fine. we are in america now. we are in international scene now that without a college education, you are nowhere in this society and going further down. i know you do not want to hear that because people think that other people did it. high-school would be fine -- high school would be fine. it would not be ok. the ok route is what we have to tell you about. you want to go someplace, your elders, people who have done it have to tell you the roadmap. you cannot invent the road map for yourself. it is our obligation to give you that road map

i had to continue on with the group i was with, but they had radioed for someone to come get him, so was rescued. it is hard to look at something you photograph and leave and not be able to jump in the water and just be able to grab them. >> how much training did you get? >> i went to the art institute of fort lauderdale. it was a two-year photography program, not photojournalism. i did an internship with the "miami herald," and that is how i got the job. >> when did you give up the idea of being a nurse? >> as soon as i entered nursing school, it was almost too hands-on for me. i was afraid i would make mistakes and hurt someone. i just did not feel it was the right niche. i think nursing school teaches you a certain level of compassion that carries over into this kind of work. >> when i went though some of your photographs before, i noticed in one copy somewhere, you said you had a meltdown in 2002. is that something you can tell us more about? does it have something to do with seeing all this tragedy? >> absolutely. it was triggered by a bad romantic break up. that was probably the

[laughter] i kicked around a lot, but i had gotten better. i was 35 and realized that i was probably just about as good an actor before i got magnum as the day it went on air. i had an agent i had been with it for a long time, and he came to me after magnum and it said i think you are not appreciated and not being taken care of. i want to represent you. me, doyou don't remember you? i was in your office two years ago and you said you could not do anything for me. [laughter] i was lucky. i was very fortunate to get a regular job when i was 35. if you are 17, there is no school for success. there is no course you can take. it is a nice problem to have, but it is a real problem, and learning to handle it really dictates whether you will have a long or short career and a long and happy life. tavis: i am so delighted that you are so open about this. another question about hollywood that people can appreciate -- -- appreciate your answer. there are folks in this town whose careers end because they have been what we call typecast. everyone knows you

i had prepared "on my own" from les mis. i figured, "i'll do also also a boublil and schonberg song, just because boublil and schonberg are in front of me," right? and after i was done, they asked for another song. and i hadn't prepared another song. so... >> hinojosa: and did you think you had done well? >> i think i had done well enough for them to actually ask for more than just one number. so i said, "well, i do have another song. it's 'the greatest love of all' by whitney houston." and so i went up to the piano, and i asked the pianist if he knew the song. but i think before i even finished the question i saw on top of the piano somebody had left behind "the greatest love of all," on top of the piano. and so i told the pianist, "can you just play this for me?" and he did, and i was praying while i was standing on the x on the floor, "please let it be in my key, please let it be in my key." >> hinojosa: because you can't ask? >> and it was. >> hinojosa: you can't say, "i need it to be in such-anduch." >> at the time i don

and it dawned on me that i never had that. and so at that point i started to think maybe i'm not a lesbian. and if i'm not, what am i? and at that point i started to go back over my whole life in my head and just put all of these different things together. >> we'll have a short break. when we come back, we'll get to the moment when you decide, i want to be a man. >> okay. >> we're also going to hear from nick cannon about an extraordinary scam targeting his wife mariah carey and their babies. >> saying that my wife was drinking beer and all that stuff. people will do anything to try to conjure up a story. web browsing on the new blackberry playbook? ♪ flash, aah-ah that's right. it runs flash. so unlike some tablets we could mention, you get the best of the internet - not just part of it. ♪ flash, aah-ah ♪ flash, aah-ah [ male announcer ] the davis twins... ...are alike in nearly every way... ...right down to brushing their teeth. so how did only one get gingivitis? well, one in two people do. so i told karen about new crest pr

i had no idea what's -- what g.e. class as ore, and i was probably taking glasses that were not transferable. after my second semester, i decided i would come to city college, and i really learned a lot. i got introduced into the metro health academy program, which helped me get into a straight path way to -- pathway to sf state where i'm going to go in the fall. one thing that really helped me was school to college at balboa. i always knew i wanted to go to college. my parents did go to college, but they never got a degree, so they always wanted me to go for a higher education. >> go ahead. that is all right. thank you for joining us. >> when i was younger, i had to help my family working, and sometimes, i had to help them picking up cardboard and delivering newspapers. for me, it was kind of helping them in any way to survive in this city. every night, i had to go from 6:00 p.m. to 2:00 a.m. to pick up cardboard or deliver newspapers throughout san francisco, so i was frustrated and realized i did not want to do this

i was working at a nightclub. we hadact, and i bought all home and lived there for about five years. we used to go to a restaurant called a picnic, and that turned out to be a baseball bat who would -- the man with a baseball about who would run people out turned out to be the governor of georgia, but it happened that that man could be elected to the governorship, and it made me so angry once the movement got started, i thought, now is the time to move, and what a time in american history. you go back to atlanta and now, and it is so different. tavis: was there any kind of price to pay with you speaking out about civil rights? >> peter salinger was running for the senate at that time, and there was a bill on the docket called proposition 14, which was about fair housing, and you could not discriminate for any reason, and he was getting a lot of slack. we went on a whistle stop tour from l.a. to san diego, and in places in orange county, we had eggs thrown at us, tomatoes thrown at us, and we got to san diego, and the peo

if i had the same right now that i had back then, i'd be a billionaire definitely. but i'm glad i went through the things that i had to go through in order to become the man that i am today. tavis: i haven't experienced it at your level and i pray god i never have to. but the one thing about being a public figure is that whatever mistakes you make, whatever miscalculations, miscues, whatever you do, it's done so publicly. everybody sees everything, they talk about everything. that video will haunt you to the grave. >> right. tavis: you know what i'm saying? how have you processed having to make these mistakes, to learn these lessons, in such a public way? >> well, i learned from watching it. i learned from watching myself. like the television show i had, being bobby brown, i looked at myself and i just analyzed myself and dissected everything that was wrong. just took it out. just took it out of my life. i'm living so much better now. i'm eating better, i'm loving better. my children are happier. i'm just a better person right now, you know. so i learned from watchi

i had the unfortunate episode of my dad dying when i was in high school. so we literally had to be on our own. six kids, one long, full time seamstress. we struggle and sacrifice and we learned how to enjoy life. that is how you get these stories about our little christmases. we actually had a lot of fun wrapping up presence in the basement. i remember that. because i was in the middle of the pack, my older brothers got everything. they got to play football. they got to do a lot of things american kids wanted to do. we ended up -- my younger sister come in under brother -- we were the last three in the family. we cleaned up the house. i did all the gardening in the house. we did all those things. those things that we had to do. we had to keep up. we worked hard. i worked in restaurants in my early days. i got a call to go to this great college that was recruiting people from the west coast. my history teacher, i will never forget him. he said that i was not made for the university. university of washington was where everybody went unless they got lucky and

i had been reading blackstone since i was 10. so i went to the court and i pled my own case and won. then, after that, mr. fultz decided he needed to go on to greener pasttures and he left so i realized that i was going to be the court of myself and my children. so i decided now is my chance to be a lawyer. why couldn't i be a lawyer? well, it is right there in the code. you have to be of good moral character. i'm that. you have to be over 21. i'm that. and a white male. so i simply took the code, took out white male, put in person and called it the laid lawyer bill and off i went to -- the lady lawyer bill and off i went to sacramento. there i was. now i had very little money so i was able to talk a conductor of one of the trains into taking me in the caboose for free but i got to sacramento. when i arrived there at the state capitol it was a constitutional convention and i never saw so many men, so well -- throwing tantrums over a little woman like me just wanting to be a lawyer. well, their faces were as red as turkey gobblers

i think he had had two jury trials at that point. i had had none. and lo and behold tony serra walks into my court representing the defendant. i couldn't imagine why he was there for a simple misdemeanor assault case, but he was. and i thought, boy, this is just my luck. here i've got this famous tony serra, he's renown, he's in the press all the time, he has had a movie made about him, and i bet he's an arrogant jerk, and i get him. first trial he's going to make me look really bad. and this poor d.a., we're just going to look terrible. well, lo and behold tony serra comes in. he's a wonderful gentleman. he's gracious. he knows i've never tried a case to a jury. he knows that the d.a. has tried two cases to a jury. he guided us through this trial. he put on a fabulous show, as is his want, which was instructional and very, very interesting. he never took advantage of my inexperience or the d.a.'s experience. and by the end of the day when that trial was over -- of course, he won. but nobody on that jury would have ever suspected that i had never tri

i was born in chicago. my father had emigrateford iran to go to school in chicago, where he met my mother while he was attending the university of chicago. that's where i was born. after my parents had divorced, i spent most of my youth in the state of rhode island, southern rhode island, and then after i graduated high school, i went to undergraduate college in st. louis, missouri and then came out here for grad school, which fell in love with san francisco bay area. all of my plans changed and this became my home. i worked as an environmental analyst for a number of think tanks and then applied that trade in law enforcement, where i went to the san francisco police academy many, many years ago, graduated as a academy class, president of the class. trained in environmental forensics, both here locally, state and federally by the usepa in the training center in georgia and i worked for the district attorney's office in san francisco for nine years before becoming elected supervisor. >> and you spent most of your adult li

>> i agree with the idea of permanent housing. newsom had been advocating for this and we were of like mind. the first permanent housing for the senior homeless was on brodericks street. i am very proud that this was the first housing, in the wonderful building that we had. this was the purpose for senior homeless housing. we see people in the neighborhood -- and a natural reflex when they hear something like this is not in my backyard. we understand this. but we have the need for doing something like this, and the acceptance by the community to make this happen -- and the success of the project that has been installed, a housing development has proven that we can do more of this. this is getting people off the street, especially those that mitigate the likelihood that they will be back on the street, whether this is substance abuse or economic downturn, quality housing, lack of jobs, whatever the case may be. this is definitely one category where we need to be more vigorous. >> let's talk about crime in your district. you said that this is

i had to go to the d.m.v. website to know what it was. and i did it after the decoy had come in. and, you know, we pay taxes, we pay san francisco to you, i pay about $250 a month in taxes for my cigarette selling. i feel that, ok, you're taking our money but on the same token, why are you not educating us to be able to uphold the law. i feel that all the state department is corruptible on this. i should have gotten a picture of this in the mail. i should not have seen the decoy having it the first time. this is just a picture of my store to show you my counter has no paraphernalia. is that better? >> yes. >> right here is my 1993 logo, the decal that i saw. i was behind the counter. pnd and i saw it backwards. and when i did her i.d., i did 1995 and i looked at 1993. and you know, i did the math very quickly with all the commotion going on. you know, i really feel i understand what you're trying to do, trying to stop people from selling alcohol and cigarette to minors. but, you know, really we do our part. and we're very proud of what we do in our business. this was human error,

i had great grades. s i told you i was in all kinds of the two goodies and things and i had a b+, a- average from high school and i applied at northwestern and little did i know there was a -- going on. they have acknowledged it now that there was a quota of the number of jewish and that number of blacks that they took into the college. so i go to this admissions counselor and he tells me i was wasting my time. that i needed to go become a nice english teacher, that i could get a job. but i would never get a job working for the "chicago tribune." so i knew what was going to happen and i got a rejection notice a few weeks later. we regret to inform you that, i remember those first words. >> host: a thin envelope. >> guest: thin envelope. no forms to fill out. this little tiny letter. i was like, and my parents thank god did not say we told you so. but i said i'm applying someplace else. >> host: you do just that and you end up eventually graduating from where and what year? >> guest: the university of mich

i had made after the war we'd been through the same thing i had and i kept if i get back to myself i would betray. the bond we had. coochie vietnam on feb fourteenth nineteen sixty six by a.p. they call it hell's halfacre because of the american boy. that would be and still there counted well and be a koran sniper saddam most of the damage today was no exception on the subcommittee tired of the twenty seventh and for a tree that framed well fall outs and moved out to attack the snipers opened up from such perfect from account of five positions the most of the a copy what the whole day with c. an out of the enemy a sergeant was here in the shoulder and leg as he rode over the third shop were up to his back. a medic groped for cover and rushed to his side as he dropped to his knees to be being given a bullet smashed into the stomach. both the sergeant and the medic to. and out till it up to the lay down to screen a squad going after the wall that the specialist fourth wanted in the help cross the deadly fifty yards without the fallen thieves he was hit again this was no doubt you were t

>> oh, i had no idea at the time when i met him. he was a lawyer. a community organizer. i knew he had political aspirations, but he never came off as a political guy to me. he always seemed like just a normal, smart guy, great personality, who looked like he would be a good fit with my sister. that's how i looked at it. it wasn't until he really started getting into politics and those first early campaigns where i saw he's got a gift for this. >> i remember watching him speak for the first time around 2004 i think it was, thinking wow, who is this guy? because he just had something. i don't know if people picked up on it and he ended up running and winning. and then you make your speech there. what's the moment like for you personally, on a human level, when you walk into the white house for the first time with your brother-in-law as the president of the united states? >> well, i got to tell you, the first thing, piers, that struck me was how small the inside of the white house was. >> it's a lot smaller than you think, suspect it isn't it? >> the b

i worked with this kid, and he said i had to talk to his parents. i sat down, talk with his father -- talks -- talked with his father. he asked why i would want him to send his kid to college where he needs money and needs to be able to have a life of his own -- what does college have to do with that? i said that i was going somewhere, and i was going to be places and my mind was open, and i think college is a good opportunity. after that meeting and after i tried to make an impression on the parents that it was the right choice to allow his son to make that choice, that father actually told the sun -- son that college was not for him. i had long hair. he said i was not even from the state, trying to convince him about a better life. an arrogant kid, does not know what our lives are -- an urban kid. but the son i talked to said he made his own choice. he said he was convinced that it was something that he wanted to pay attention to end date. he flew out last month to visit me when he found out i was mayor of san francisco, and he came in to my office

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i had no work or i had long since moved out of my house and could not come back home exactly where do you go from here. and it was when the national guard needed some of them and i my experience in teaching people how to fly they aren't helicopters the cobras and i was asked to come in and help train some of those folks and the money was. you know fifteen twenty thousand dollars a year for part time work and it carried a retirement would even though i had and a change of heart about wars i needed them on the first come home and you meet lee forget about everything and you go to mcdonald's and you go to all your favorite restaurants and you do all your favorite things and you're having a great time and you know and then all of sudden you wake up one day and you're like wait a minute i'm not having a good time anymore. i'm starting to think about this i'm starting to think about that because all the newness has worn off your whole a lot i got my arm i got my legs i'm alive. but then the mind. the mind starts catching up. with everything else. a farm myself i'm going through my career pr

i have never had that feeling and i have never had someone like have my back, 100%, you know? k by me when everyone turned their back. and she says [ bleep ] i'm your friend and i stand by you, i don't care what anybody says. and i that's the definition of, like, what people that care about each other should be. >> the reality is that sandra said exactly that, she said she felt that was what you were to her. >> she didn't say exactly that. >> pretty much. she said you were a rock. >> yeah, but she said that same speech at four different awards shows. you saw two of them. >> what's your point? >> i don't know, you can take that whatever you get out of it, you know. >> you don't think she meant it? >> um, i think she meant it to a certain extent, you know. what does she do for a living? >> movie star. an actor? >> what? >> an actor? >> you think it was an act? >> i think people have to live in that world. >> are you glad to be out of it? >> man, 100%. i just can't like -- i just, you know, i don't know. i don't know how i survived in there as long as i did. because it's just like

i had various people throughout the city tell me. i got tugs on the suit jacket and everyone of these come hall meetings about people that were important to them. a lot of different names surfaced. that all came into play along with my serious look of someone who will continue reforms, making sure we have a dedicated effort to train officers so they would not cross the line. that was another part of my objective. someone i think would not only continue the reforms but present a command presence for the public as well in someone who the public can talk to. a continued to smile. it has nothing to do with politics as much as people have known chief suhr for a number of years. the critical factors were about what people who knew him by the first name and the kids who knew this captain surh who was there supporting the boys and girls club, the ymca in the community. he did the same thing when he was captain in the mission. his reputation around the police department has been impeccable. his life has been exposed. so has mine. in my last in

i had in the book and in my heart what i thought it was, i almost knew that if i had gone back it wouldn't be the same. so i made the conscious choice of not going. now that you tell me this i'm thankful i didn't i think it would have destroyed what i created in my head. i thought places are best when they are imagined. i hesitated naming it after a place where my mom said what did exist. i'm glad i didn't go back. making that conscious choice would have changed had i gone back would have changed the direction of the book a lot. >> when i saw it it was so different than how an imagined from reading your books. >> does that teach you never to look up things. always listen to the writer? [laughter]. >> we have time for one more question. >> can't be our essay question. >> she didn't give us a question yet. i wanted to know what made you think of the title like the samurai's garden? >> oh , know the title story. >> i'm sorry. >> quickly. this is actually a publishing business thing. i had written on the contract because i was reading about samurais and gardens. at the time the contract. i loo