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must be better than i think i am. gee, i guess i better keep climbing. let's try to get better. i never thought about that i was changing something. >> rose: johnny miller said "the difference between jack and me is when i get to the top of the mountain i stopped. jack would simply say where is the next higher mountain to climb." you were constantly thinking what's next. >> i did that all my career. i always wanted to get better. it wasn't until i was in my 40s that i felt like i don't think i'm going to climb any higher mountains but i had a long run and i was very had a lot of fun doing that. >> rose: 18 majors, came in second 19 times. >> that's bad. i got beat too many times. >> rose: (laughs) why do you think it was? >> i don't think i played conservatively, although some people might have said that. i think i played to do the best i could do, prepare myself the best i could and do the best i can within myself and i always felt like, you know, you got 100 other guys or more playing against you and there's going to be weeks wher

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reach i don't i for one of the hundred mile. welcoming times. i was appalled but i don't i was unanswerable. i must have a comp went to fight. and i fired the next time i know. i should and i think there's a lot and i'm not. a. very good. mother and. who knows. what might. lie. ah. fuck i'm glad you know that that i know that. i believe that it is on the your debt load. i. think he's. yeah. i mean on its own legs does a. lot and tries to leave feel not only come from. the gulf. to do. not. feel. my. room which i don't like to think i mean that these absolute is the one thing that is not i would be a prison. pro . publica. everything you can survive. would. not. striving for a brit and an independent. republic of texas. president putin says. the western media never labels those who attack russia as terrorists he was speaking about last week's boston bombings during his annual q. and a session with the nation and you're looking at live pictures right now the q. and a session. braces itself for more anti austerity protests as people direct their anger at the three inte

i do not know if there is, like, a first-time -- i think it can be everything. but i know i was touched by the things that i think a beautiful, and things that are from the street. like maybe why i also have a kind of obsession, i love to work with denim. it was not so well cena that time. i am born in 1952. in 1958, some boys had denim trousers. for my parents, they felt it was not very elegant. so it was not so nice, not so clean. so me, i fantasy about it. and maybe i was looking more and people that were wearing that kind of close, sometimes going to buy a jacket. there is a movie of marlon brando. but i must say, i remember it was a time in the 1960's, it was some boy from the suburbs. i suppose little gangs who were supposed to be bad boys. maybe i was a very polite boy. i was a little fascinated by bad ones. [laughter] it came from my fascination with movies, with james dean, most of all marlon brando. all wore rebellious close. i find it very attractive and very interesting. of course, i should say that i love a lot of other things. cinema was also showing that kind

i -- i was watching from home, and i have -- i have an infection or something so i am on sudafed or ik, as well. >> jimmy: yeah, well we shouldn't have made out sunday night. >> we shouldn't have. [ laughter ] >> jimmy: i mean that was -- >> it was a bad decision. >> jimmy: but it was a bad decision but it was -- >> but your lips are so soft. [ laughter ] >> jimmy: it -- it's totally platonic. >> yeah. >> jimmy: which means forced upon, right? >> right. >> jimmy: that's what that means -- [ laughter ] >> yeah. >> jimmy: sorry about that, i couldn't help myself. >> that's all right, man. >> jimmy: i was in the moment. >> sometimes you're in the mood. >> jimmy: but i'm watching and -- but i'm watching and i go, oh my god -- >> when jimmy gets in the mood. >> jimmy: yeah, yeah. [ cheers and applause ] no, no, i put on a bunch of glenn miller records and crank up -- >> no means whatever jimmy wants it to mean. and now i'm sick. [ laughter ] >> jimmy: now you're sick, yeah. >> so, thanks a lot. >> jimmy: we're both on some crazy things, but -- >> but i'm on some weird drugs right now. >> j

or not the next time i know i am i should and i think there's a lot and i'm not. a. very good. mother. who knows. what i. oh no no no no. i was over the load was the. guy out there i was you know man that was the one that i knew that i know. was on the other clothes there. was a l.a. was. like. load the load up here was. the. week he got home he said. he. yeah. i mean and then some of. the. family life and tries to leave. fiona to come. with the golf. to do boosh. for my own science. i mean if this is god's will is the one thing that. is not divine i would be in a prison you're teaching. that if you. have the going down of the song and good morning we will remember that we will. the to. today's news in the stories that shape the week on our t.v. reportedly get so russian wiretap where one of the alleged boston terrorist talks jihad we look at why the u.s. mother dropped the ball when on russia's winnings two years ago. the u.s. britain side evidence of the syrian government using chemical weapons. rhetoric sounds all too familiar with what preceded western intervention in iraq.

admire, i have to be like him or her, cannot have the red hair. so i say, i also come from nigeria and i am like you. [laughter] i do not think she believed me so i was inventing names. anyway. so she influenced me. she had white skin. you could see her veins. she was very strange but beautiful for me. i was always attracted by different beauty that i saw everywhere. i remember some movies called guess who's coming to have dinner tonight with sydney party. i remember i said to my parents -- i was 12. if i come with a black girl, what will you say? and they say, if you love her, that is perfect for you. years after when it told them what i could say about the fact was going with a guy, they said if you love each other, that is wonderful. so i think i was lucky to have parents like that. very modern. very open-minded. unlike for some, there's no question of religion, of color of skin, or anything like that. people can be all beautiful. it depends on who they are, but it is not a question of color. for me, both of us were beautiful. and i loved color. color of the skin. tattoo on the skin,

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i still live. and if i still live, then i have a gift. and so what am i going to do with the gift that i have been given? how am i going to use the time that so many of my friends wish they had but will never have again? how am i going to use it so that i can make sure that i earn it, so that i can make the most of something that i know they will never possibly have? how do you do this? i mean, how do you live each day like it's your last? i don't know exactly because it's -- even though i've been in combat, i can't conceive of what it is like to die. but i suspect it is doing something like dick hoyt does which is giving his best and giving our best every day that we get up and have the opportunity to run the race that we call life. we can pursue the tasks that are in front of us without regard to how they will turn out with our best efforts because we know that each day given us brings a responsibility, and to do anything less than the best with the day that we have is a slap in the face to all of those living and dead who don't have what we have. we ca

i will do something from that. i know that there was work on it. i think i have to burn it, because at the end, i take too much time to look at it. but, yes, i mean, to be honest, i think will realize what time that i have no more of the passion, which will mean i will stop. i think it is better. honestly, before i was doing that profession, because i was not at peace with the fact that i was rejected, so i was inventing a lot of things. at the moment, i started to work -- i finish. because i do the things that i'd love to do, why should i live now. there's no reason to lie? because i am accepted through my work? why should i lie? because i do not want to live again in my old days. but i will always interested in fashion. >> the next question is for both of you -- how is it in the fashion world for larger size women? >> i will answer this first. i was so happy when beth ditto appeared in one of jean paul's collections. she is a terrific woman and quite rotund in size. i have not quite caught up with her yet, but i certainly am no little stick. i personally t

i . i. i i i i i i i i. averting default and rescuing cyprus is back on top of the to do list and will be tackled at a meeting of the blocks finance ministers on friday the mood is grim that would revelations nicosia will need billions more than originally thought still part and partly under financial quarantine it's now up to the island's authorities to come up with thirteen billion euros which is twice as much as just a few weeks ago officially rises juge delays in getting a bailout deal but the speculation that billions leaked out from shattered banks both illegally and through loopholes that may be the least of the worries though in comparison to the president it's been said is artie's tessa's. it dominated headlines for much of two weeks a year reserved nation on the brink of bankruptcy the banks were closed cash rationed and capital controls put in place cyphers of those heavy losses which could rise to up to sixty percent on wealthier depositors in order to clinch a ten billion euro e.u. i.m.f. bailout

when i look in the future, i could see more challenges coming. i thought i had a set of experiences and more importantly a passion and desire to serve. >> i understand that no one wants to have their programs cut. of course not. i also want everyone here to understand that no one up here wants to cut programs because they don't care about the population being served. there are no value ains here. we are all on the same team. it is a tough situation, as we are here so that we can begin the work together. >> i am actually more forward thinking. for me it is less about being left or right, or in this town, moderate or progressive. it is really about the issues and about creating policies that will have a sustainable and lasting positive impact on the families that live here. it is very costly and difficult to do business in sfrinls, to raise your children in san francisco, and i would like to have a voice at that table to really create policies that will minimize that san francisco is not a big business-friendly city. i think we started to go in the wrong direc

i was. smoking. and i was about how do i that was. how i live out. about it i. really believe i'm going to get out of the good how do you argue that. yet you talk it out they did. it because. they're too much of. my god i forgot i decided. to check the facts on the mobile. phone on the phone for. women over the phone. about what. was going on. what they mean the time to do it's thing to far as it's morning it's afternoon it's in the evening that it's drink for you that is secret for you to smoke so use this event. food is not one of the money's not one of the most we don't. have all the time oh god no i doubt it's god like you and your. doctor i'm not going to talk about it i want to know what i'm going to live want to what i don't know you by way not much if you cannot go back then i was . like what that was i was not marriageable with you know not yet somehow you are with your obeying i feel a little bit louder than i do you don't worry about that that's why i said i was good because i'll let you know. well you know. if you listen to the bible. i don't know wha

yeah, i got into byca and i did a lot of community work. i grew up around here and i am intune with a lot of people around here. and this year i got myself into em emaculate academy on my own. and i learned how to file and scan and call around and outreach. and i interned at a dentist office and i scan and do procedure codes. i do a lot and the i learned a lot. i am excited to be able to know th they -- that i will have a future. and it's important because the youth is the future. and the youth is struggling with a lot, and it's crazy. i don't think you guys know how tough it is for the youth. and take in consideration that bya has helped a lot of youth. and our budget has been cut, and we need money to have another bya next year. thank you. >> hi, i am niece, and this program also helped me to be constructive and do better things instead of going outside and doing things i shouldn't be doing. i graduate this year, so they helped me to get paid and to go to prom and stuff. and i just love doing it, and this is my second year. last year i was a youth advocate and this

can't give it to them and i think i need to quit. i i can't do what you all do. i tell them about a book i read called freedom summer about the summer project 1964 when young people from all over the country and the south, bruce tells the story through the interviews of these young people and they went and talked about how they can change the world. they knocked on the doors and they said i don't want anything to do with you. they got discouraged. john louis said if it wasn't for freedom summer, barack obama wouldn't be in the whies how white house. 40 years from now our children are going to see a better criminal defense public defense system because of you. so our lawyers are changing the world. public defenders are changing the world everyday and you don't realize it because you are caught up in this wrath of injustice. part of it is supporting the public defenders to advocate with stories to try to get the resources that we need and to ultimately build a movement where the voices are too loud. you can't ignore the voices saying. reme

i have my hair. and i mean yeah i think from from here. he can one hundred times. it's just that i didn't gave it to him but he's my child i hold there was a good one i don't today and i trained him. says i have six children three boys three goes. is a good kid the wise hardworking godall. and since do. i want to see him. in mother wasn't even here until he died it is his primary school and he went to. his father. and later he left when i saw him last one i was in the hospital and he came out but that was when the market was operated. i really want to see what i. was to my operation was the last time i saw him so i would like tina to come back so i would see him. and i work on my for. you know. good if you go there and that his mother was working on the farm. and i'm a jew and i want to i thought he was dead. i've gone to port harcourt to look for him i didn't see him i said maybe he's dead. if you went to any other place i don't know. you know i'm going to talk about how quiet i don't know that we know that was about to highlight. some of the things that were out what was that abo

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i get upset. or when i -- you know, there's no secret about that. i did hang up. ik me a few seconds to say, i -- i can't just hang up right on my wife, that would be rude and she was in tears and i don't want to be inconsiderate to her, and at the same time, to the officer giving me a direct order. if i'm guilty of anything, i am guilty of verbal abuse. >> they didn't charge you with that. >> yeah. i'm not trying to be a pain in the ass or anything. >> i know you're not and i understand you not wanting to be disrespectful to your wife. but you still got to take responsibility for your actions. i mean really and i understand that. stuff happens. you admitted that you had to be told three times, three times, so that was enough times to lock down and i do -- you know, you have to do what you got to do, and i got to do what i got to do. >> okay. >> all right. you're charged with a class two, rule 25 disobeying lawful order. you pled not guilty. however, i did find you guilty. what i'm going to do is i'm going to give you ten days punitive segregation, however, i'm goin

and this was just the first time and i don't know why i did. and i know i mistake, and i -- >> well, you know how people will react when they see this. i mean, this does not look good. >> i know. i know. >> chris, what would have happened if i hadn't been here? what would have gone on in this house? >> i don't know. >> i mean, you sure sound like you knew here what you wanted to do. >> yeah, but i'm -- >> i mean, it's hard to draw any other conclusion from this. and there's a -- there are a couple of different laws that have been broken here. the picture. and using the internet with the intent to have sex with an underage person. i mean, what am i supposed to do here? you tell me. >> i'll never do it again. >> you'll never do it again. >> you have my word. >> why should anybody believe that? do you see what i'm saying? so you've been in movies. you've been on television. well, you're about to get another role because i'm chris hansen with "dateline nbc" and we're doing a story on computer predators. you're free to go, but if there's anything else you'd like

i will try to answer a, b, c. for me, i know that the first thing i began to think about when i thought i wanted to write a novel was that i wanted to write about my culture. and because i had grownup in the chinese culture i wanted to write about china. i wanted to find out more about myself because of i was raised in the bay area and because i didn't know culturally a lot of things i wanted to know. i knew i wasn't going to write about myself and knew that i was not going to write about my family. but i wanted to write about an aspect about china and women. those were the 2 things i knew when i began the first book. i was fortunate enough to it stumble upon the silk working women which gave me everything i wanted. it gave me the culture. it gave me a sense of what it meant to be a female chinese women in that time and a sense of empowerment on what they had done. regardless of what they understood they were doing at the time. they didn't know it was a culture that was earning money and living independent of husbands and family that was doing everything against what it meant to be in the chinese culture. i hadn't h

what i did was write the names down that i heard and i tracked them. i kept them in this ledger, this ledger that i still have. how did klm go out? there's mgm, xerox, polaroid. zenith went up a lot. i would go over each one each day and put them down. there's a winner. there's a winner. anyway, so it was a game. i was just trying to figure tout next move of a stock, even if all i really knew was, frankly, the name continental or the name rca. whatever. most of them were defense stocks. they went up a lot in tandem with the war i heard about. so i followed a bunch of those along with the others. after a year, i thought, this was a cool name. i wanted to introduce it to my fifth grade class, so i did. going in and showing them my ledger, inviting everyone to play to see who could find stocks that went up the most the next week. not everyone was as interested as i was. my dad's company, the national giftwrapping box company which later was international packaging represented them corp., then the minnesota mining and manufacturing company. mmm, as we called

i went back to my buddy's house. and i just told him, man, i did something bad, you know. i did something bad. i was shaking. w, like trying to make everything normal again. but in reality, it wasn't normal. i took somebody's life. you now, somebody's son, somebody's brother. you know, and thinking back on it, it's sad, because -- because that didn't have to happen. you know, that didn't have to happen at all, but it did. and now i got to deal with it. in the process of this, i want to try to help somebody else, that is going -- like a guy that might have three years, make sure he don't come back as a murderer. that's my new life now. >> yay! >> whoo! >> alarm. all inmates down in the prone position. lie flat down on the ground. >> but no matter what's at stake in the game, the all too familiar sound of an alarm reminds the inmates whose yard this is. >> why is everybody down? >> there's an alarm. so that's just -- everybody in this, every time you hear an alarm, all inmates, everybody has to get down, all inmates. sometimes there might be a fight, might be somebody hurt. so they have to press the alarm. make

what i did and actually this is not what i imagined i would be doing when i was in . my first impression of andre prison was this looks like a concentration camp i don't know who i should be watching when i should be doing it i should be conducting myself i don't know how i made it there very overwhelming for a nineteen and twenty year old kid here. to be. in charge of weather summary of what's that and. i would never. act like i did i would read prison and normal life never ever the way it were using medicine there was to get at the prisoners and rake them down the side of treating people it was almost like we're punishing them for seeking treatment from us i mean when i'm ordered to give some a fourteen gauge needle. especially if they're not in a mass of trauma i know that that's not needed and i know that that's purely to inflict and and those explicitly explained to me by the officer in charge as give these guys fourteen gauge needle also they won't want to be used anymore because they're so huge and they're so painful. usually the prisoners are crying and wailing

>> i think i was around -- i was around, i was a round -- the teddy bear, i got it at 3:00, but i let him free at that time at the three years old. i let him free. i think i was around five years old that i started to take care of him. first, very important, i was -- [unintelligible] seeing on my grandmother. she had white hair. so i was putting on the the bear a little color that was kind of blue. after that, i do not know why, but i said he has to change. so it was more red, which was a strong color, too. then i try to make it black. that did not work. the texture of the paintings, because i was putting paintings on him, did not go with it. so i had to destroy it and start again. blue, red, start again. all the make up was the makeup of my grandmother. you can see an exhibition a teddy bear. i should say that he is a little nice monster, but it is a little monster anyway. you know, i have some affinity with air. i'd love the air. i love to touch the air. >> i hope you like my hair, because of a drag queen's last night were trying to touch it. [laughter] >> for the moment, i am not y

>> i wanted to be as good as i could but i think i always knew it wasn't my best -- i knew i was never going to be as great as one could be in it. i knew that i lacked something as an actress, i knew that always. >> rose: what did you think it was? >> i always saw things from the point of view of the director. i couldn't not see that way. >> rose: you thought like a direct overas an actor. >> so i couldn't let go completely because i was seeing the whole thing. that's what a director does, they have to see the whole story all the time and the actor has to lose themselves in one point of view and i think i somehow couldn't do that. it had to do with -- i suppose it was a kind of talent or an inability to release your conscious mind which makes me value acting all the more but partly my fascinationith what ti is with in part with what t book is all about. >> rose: this book? >> yeah, because both masha and jacob at certain points are actors. he becomes an actor and she's an actor so the getting down to the nitty-gritty of the alchemy that acting is. >> rose: i mean, hello? by the way, yo

i came back and i turned to two staffers i said that was weird. at that point in time, i should have written a check. there were bright lines i crossed. when did i know, operates like d.c. operates. there were times probably within the six month of meeting jack abramoff, i should have said it doesn't look good. >> how long did you spend in congress? >> i came in 1995. i resigned november of 2006. >> how long did you spend in prison? >> i was in prison 17 months. i was behind the wall as we would say for years period into the halfway house. did 17 months federal time. my plea deal was 18 months. blagojevich when you -- >> when you think back on prison, what comes to mind first? >> first is people that think it's warehouse. anybody think it's rehabilitation. it's a warehouse. >> what was it like getting there the first day. who was with you? >> i did something i didn't want to do. my friend who is now my current boss at talk radio news service, said you must come to d.c. and you have to sit with webb hubbell. i remember webb hubbell when he walked into my hearing room. we w

i was done. i feel like i have been successful, if i am embarrassed, if i am slightly modified and i feel vulnerable, i think i did something. tavis: the vulnerable part i get but mortified and embarrassed, i don't. >> when you put yourself out there and emotionally and physically, for me, that means i have really done something and i went to an uncomfortable place. i showed an ugly part of may or want tog bad i did not reveal or something that was difficult. comfortg outside my zone is a big one for me. segue,that is a perfect the part of a single mom. how did you assess your work? >> i cried the whole time. there is that feeling of i think i am just the worst. my initial reaction is very negative. tavis: you are a tough critic. >> even if it is a big comic book film or something very serious, i have that initial feeling like i of the worst in this is awful. i have let everybody down. now that i have done that for the last 10 years, i just let it come and i move past it. that is where the real feeling is coming after that. it was very personal for me, for a host of reasons. myself portraying a real

so i simply say that i think that in the big picture there is no conspiracy here and i wish that i had kept them but mr. wooding found them and provided them to you and i am happy that he did and i stick by them and i think that they accurately represent what i felt then and what i feel now, thank you very much. >> commissioner sarah ballard for the recreation and parks department. i will just add to that olive gong's role is to receive the request and deseminate them to the staffers and ask the question do they have any information. i searched my records not dissimilar to my boss the general manager, i keep essentially as my inbox to-do list and anything that complies with the record retention policy is saved either in an e-mail folder and most often also printed out and saved in a hard copy file. and so, i searched both my e-mail folders and hard copy files and none of these documents were, i did not still have any of these documents, at the time of the request. which was a believe about 6 weeks or eight weeks after the e-mail exchanges took place. >> and i am happy to answer any oth

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i will do tv. i will do summer stock. i will do whatever ito what i love best earn some points in terms of enriching my talent. i have a long way to go. i thought i was good at west side story, but when i look at it, i could have done this. i could have done that, and i did not get a second chance to do this or that. tavis: what did you think you had to work on? what did you see immediately that you had to work on to continue to perfect your gift? >> i felt i had to work on my was neveroice compan, which very exciting. tavis: it works for me. >> it did not for me. morest felt i needed experience, and unfortunately, the only experience i could get was more movies, but i was not getting more movies, so i did the next best thing, which is to go to theater. theater is the one place where people of color or different nationalities had a better break, a better chance of doing roles on stage than you would in film or television. even now, the door is ajar. it is not wide open. you have got to push pretty hard still. we are not talking about somebody

i felt that when i turnod the computer and thought, now i have to write book number 2. i had in mind that i wanted to write something very different from women of the silk that was strictly about the feminist chinese women during the turn of the century and i wanted to write about my japanese culter. i didn't have the story or the culture unfortunately because i was born in san francisco, half chinese and half japanese but raised in the chinese culture. when it was time to write the second book and i knew i wanted to explore my japanese side it was going to be difficult in the way that i didn't know the culture. right away i had to learn a lot. it was something that was not engrained in me besides the story. i sat down and thought about the story my mother told me about her brother being ill. he at one point went from hong kong to japan to recuperate. he was the one that wanted to be an artist and wanted to paint. i thought about that because it must have been hard growing up in hong kong to be far away from everything and have a dream and get sick at this point. i though

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i felt empowered. i felt important. i felt appreciated. if i were outside of the black panther bubble, everything in america was telling me i was dirty and i was stupid and i was a criminal. in my early formative years, i was shielded from that. i was given the opposite message. tavis: that did not stop you from having run ins. >> once we left the panthers, and i was being raised by my mother alone, my father was in prison, he was also a black panther. my mother left the panthers and it was six children and her. it was a single mother trying to raise us and she did well initially. she became the first female welder in oakland. she would have an injury and she lost the job. she struggled with an alcohol addiction and depression. our family started to fall apart. tavis: tell me how you end up in summer camp. >> my beautiful and incredible uncle, who was a serious panther, new jane fonda. jane fonda. i think you guys were on a trip. >> we went to south africa together. and in fund talking was starting a children's camp. i want this camp to be a pl

psychotic i told dr wilson i know my son i said i see this in a rage please don't let it come boiling out which it did. and i can still remember father ohio saying that. your son passed away. and. i remember thinking oh how ridiculous no he didn't pass away he was killed he didn't pass away they let him die. and. they need to be held accountable. well. there we go. i was a former drug rep who helped shape his old watch marketplace which was the s.s.r.i. marketplace in the early ninety's it was a blockbuster market it was huge i mean every drug in that market did over a billion dollars prozac paxil zoloft select lexapro so i've been tracking that market for a couple of decades on and off years ago i met a psychiatrist who got consulted at the zoo to treat a particular young. chimp who was injuring himself and it got to a point where it was almost a matter of life and death so that's why they called in the psychiatrist he wanted him for a prescription they wanted a psychiatric medication beyond what they normally use so he wrote a script for paxil to reduce his anxiety to help with the