every thing came to a complete change the day that i was raped i got there in february by april i was drugged and raped for the 1st time i had like a cold or pneumonia like symptoms and so they sent me to get shut down and while i was waiting to be examined. and came in and he helped him so he said he was going to the bathroom and he came into my room and and that's when he raped me the entire time i was screaming and yelling for help and for him to stop nobody came to the door nobody came to help me came tomorrow ski or anything they made it very very clear. that. if i said anything they were going to kill me. you know in then of course i didn't have anyone to go talk to because the people that were perpetrating me were the police. it was my 1st time ever and. i've had a tough time convincing myself that i'm still over. if this is happening to me you know i can only imagine surely i'm not the only one in which i found out later going through the claims process that i wasn't. it's just after 3 am i see a shadow of a human head over my body next thing you know that i'm awake and like h

but disagree experience i was a sailor every single report on me was excellent grades i knew what i needed to do and it was a great team leaner. i really enjoyed the whole challenge of it i got several different awards and kudos it was mainly men love that i could blend in and keep up with the guys and their work as hard as. they knew how do you. was challenging and education was talk not my senior year i was selected to be one of the top 30 leadership positions by the company great officers there. after basic i went to the name of security for alaska i remember getting there you know issued a parka got set up in my room and then he took me to the bar which was in her barracks and set down in a table where was me and about 10 other guys. and you know kind of felt like a piece of meat on a slab at that point and i never wanted to turn around and leave so much of my life that i couldn't. get it yeah. i. did care how i met corey december 17th of 2007 i was on watch when she got to the station and then this blew me away when she walked in. please right. forward ok thank you. the command told u

when i was younger, i feel like there was more of her as my mother and then as i got older, i felt like that person was less and less present. >> so it was a little unpredictable which mother you would-- . unpredictable. >> nature of mothers, nothing definite can be said. >> the quote, but i i can see what you're reaching for. [laughter] >> so, you go to college and you know, you're finding out that all of these things, that your font of knowledge is different from your classmates, that's one obstacle and then the social obstacle, even in retrospect, well, i'm at byu, a transition, it's not like going to berkeley right? >> it seems to me shockingly a party school, but i recognize now that that says a lot more about me than it does about byu. because it's more or less a mormon convent. [laughter]. more or less, like men and women live in different buildings and there's a curfew that's 12:00 at night and if you visit a guy's apartment you can only be in the living room, you can't go-- >> that's not-- ments you can't even go to the bathroom. >> that's not what it felt like at 17. >> you ha

i was like whatever you need and i was just filling the gaps, after she passed away it was two weeks ater our board met and they told me i would now be the president of the travis meaning foundation and i felt tremendous weight on my shoulders, one that i did not fully comprehend so i got a little but more into it but here i was being talked into, you are in charge, you're close to 50 employees, you're running a multibillion dollar nonprofit and by the way named after your brother and by the way your mom started it. so do not feel. that was really scary. i jokingly say but also seriously say the first thing i did was one out and i hired really talented people who i knew would not let the organization fail and we brought in great leadership to help us but i think for me the way i work through things, it was an idea that i cannot feel at this, i cannot let this, if i feel i don't just feel myself, i feel a lot of people including the legacy of my mom and my brother. so i had to learn to not just look at setting goals in a way of next we have to do this, i had to be very intentional and

on the day i was born. this is after he took an x-ray because i had a bit of a clubfoot and he discovered that i had a type of dwarfism. i like to think that my parents would have done that anyway. take me home and treat me like everybody else, but the affirmation is always nice. you may not think that was a big deal, but i back in the 60s, people born with a disability were not treated like everybody else. to some extent, that is true today,ev unfortunately. things have definitely improved. i did not know i was in a different until i went to inkindergarten. my big brother had gone to school and i was ready. my mom dropped me off. i walked down the hall like i owned the place. stuck my chest out. when in the classroom in the teacher told me to go in the circle andan play with the kids until class started. so i did that. i went over and plop myself down and got right into it. it did not take but a few minutes and the boy next to me, i rememberr it like it was yesterday, he said in a very loud voice, hey, why

i think the writing process started even before the book was starting to come together in 2,017 i wrote a story for the new york times about what happened to my ex-husband peter and it was called " the lawyer, the addict". i did a lot of research for that piece and thinking about it and exploring it with my family, with my children and seeing if it was okay with them to go ahead and tell the world the story and figure out why we were doing it and what it meant to us. all of it was largely to make some kind of meaning out of something that felt almost arbitrary and shameful and we felt guilty about. also to try to understand what was going on for peter and under stand what was going on in the legal profession in terms of substance abuse, depression and anxiety. after that came with it surprisingly had a viral life and had millions of shares and i got a lot of feedback from readers, especially young lawyers who said i'm worried i'm gonna wind up like your ex-husband. facing a lot of the same issues, depression, anxiety, also a lot of different substances. i also had that point has started

and so i was released. while i wouldn't be critical of the foreign office what i would say is to anybody who finds themselves or a family member in my situation is don't listen to the government don't think that doing anything when they say we're working behind the scenes just go out there and do it for you know for yourself i mean there are times where governments cannot be seen to be sitting down. with the enemy or with terrorists and negotiating but there's nothing to stop families there's nothing to stop companies of employees doing this and keeping it in the public eye because the think that publicity is all important because of the activities of your family in your company you show up to international stardom moment any concept whatsoever as you will still being held and to believe. that your members. in the world the joy of any concept at all that you're an international celebrity because of your confinement no idea at all no idea i was i was horrified actually because my job in london was as you said

and i was the lasik patients and i was the one that had the luck to recover. but. i do not believe that the chance of. recovering increases by doing more sports during your treatments. and i think we have to be very careful with not blaming patients that they do not support enough if society tells us that we care and it's cancer that we can bet so concerned with. those people who did not. recover from cancer we tell them that they are almost weak and that they have lost so that's that's all. and i think that nuts that stuff a fad. was for the scientific points of view over a decade ago germany's national center for human diseases in hyderabad began examining the effects of physical exercise on cancer patients. in 2006 got the diagnosis on that front also but most tense of patients for the depo was very tired. i couldn't do gardening i just didn't feel like it i just read a book and i started eating chips these potato chips. exercise cannot directly combat achieve those several 100 studies show that cancer patients who exercise live longer. can their fuel efficient i

>> i was in for great eight years and i don't think there was a day i didn't question what i was involved in at least very quietly. but i also met people along the way that challenged me, not in an aggressive way, not through debate or telling me i was wrong but through a lived experience and getting to know them. i opened a record store in 1995 to sell racist music that i was making and importing but i also sold a small section of hip-hop music and punk rock music and heavy metal music never expecting anybody to come in and buy those things. it was just me going to city halland the saying i want to opena record store . i couldn't tell them i was selling nazi music and people came in to shop for it, people of color . people from the lgbtq community and it was the first time i had an interaction with people outside my social circle and i recognized quickly once that happened that i actually respected them more, like them more and wanted to be around them more than the people i surrounded myself with for 8 years and eventually i became embarrassed to sell that music, pulled it from the shel

when they left i was all bloody blood was gone gushing from all over i really don't know how i mean this is was my worst beating. and the girls couldn't believe it and. people don't know when they look at you and they're really left you it's left a scar a better. you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. and now when the wish for anybody to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there. and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this is. about. it . but. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first a war she would be a grandma how happy she would be and then leading me and what to do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described in the real moser's love and i missed it. i know it's hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and. i kept a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and there were days me

i was made to feel like i was just asking for things because i could. ments he needed from the dwp. he also believes the community partners scheme was not taken seriously. did you find yourself being listened to? no, no... sometimes from individual staff members, yeah, but not from management. i think it looks good on paper, saying you employ disabled people to advise you how to deal with disabled people, but they didn't want to hear what could the fixed, theyjust wanted to hear what was going well. it was very much a tick—box exercise where you just had to say everything was fine at the dwp. like, job's done. panorama has spoken to other former community partners who didn't want to be interviewed on camera. several told us the scheme was badly thought through. more worryingly, there were claims some dwp staff had little empathy for disabled people. in march, 2018, having spent over £16 million, the dwp decided not to extend the community partners scheme in march, 2018, having spent over £16 million, the dwp decided not to extend the community partners s

i thought that was so funny. just to see how you've grown, and then, everything you have gone through. it's not even what a normal human could even go through. it's phenomenal. what a great story >> well, i'm really happy you had a chance to watch it i mean, it is -- it's, you know, four one-hour episodes but everybody who's seen it -- >> jimmy: i can binge it all binge it all >> yeah. >> jimmy: just watched the whole thing. it's so easy i loved it and the last part, you actually said -- you talked about the election and you said, "well, even though i lost, there's a silver lining." >> yeah, i do think that >> jimmy: what is the silver lining >> well, i mean, the first part of that to me was right after the inauguration when the women's march happened the biggest demonstration and biggest march in history of the world as far as anybody can measure not just in our country but literally around the world and then, watching what happened in elections in 2017 and 2018. so many young people, so many women, people of co

i was no good. the court process, just amplified that some for me to just be welcomed into this community of people they didn't see any of that. they just on me. they loved me. that was redeeming beyond anything that experience. they saw something in me that was was worth salvaging and investing in. it helped me to believe in myself and i started excelling in everything that i put my mind to. i ended up getting a four-point oh every single class. [applause]. four . oh. all away. [applause]. and prior to be in the program, the highest level of education was seventh grade. hilary: what you think the students, he talked about being accepted for those interactions like. i don't know if there's a specific example of a moment when they treated you a certain way. so the university itself. cyntoia: a lot of affluent people send their children there. [laughter]. lot of these kids compared very privileged backgrounds. although they were the same age as me, they were completely different from my own. you go int

but i knew i was going to have to and i knew it was going to be really awkward like, whatever happenedble. >> unavoidable >> seth: you were going to bl -- blow it. you know >> i was gonna -- and i'm a blusher. >> seth: yeah. >> like, i knew i was going to be beet red. and it was going to be -- i was just going to be, like, a puddle so i met him like, halfway through the shoot. and -- and we all knew he was coming i mean, the whole -- the whole cast and crew of this movie -- i mean, not the whole cast the who crew were italian. we were shooting it in italy and so it's, like, italian sort of whispers all day. like, "mick jagger, mick jagger. [ light laughter ] i was like, "okay, mick jagger is coming today. he's coming today. and then it was lunch. i remember i was getting some touch-ups done and i was looking at -- my hair dresser didn't speak english very well. i love you, samantha [ laughter ] >> seth: there you go. >> there you go. the only thing i can say in italian. and we hear this voice next door and i, like, at the same time, we look at each other in the reflection of the glass.

i was the only. one in july 993 islamic radicals set fire to a hotel and see for us turkey where the translator of the satanic verses was among those attending a cultural conference 37 people died in the blaze it was the last large scale protest as the years passed the death threats became fewer. gradually rushdie began to appear in public again bookstores ushered him in through the back door 994 in january a group of 100 arab and muslim intellectuals published statements in favor of rushdie excerpts of the satanic verses banned in all muslim countries appeared in an egyptian newspaper on october 14th the nobel prize winning novelist. was seriously wounded in a knife attack in cairo. but gradually things improved in the sense of the. analysis of the threats against my wife begun to diminish and eventually there was an agreement between the british and the iranian governments which essentially under the threat good afternoon i'm delighted to say that is x. and say dr as clarified there in government's

i wish that he. had enough. when he was. you and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very. it was a happy day. that is very clear tonight dude leach innocent. people could hear the prisoner's computer and feel the ground vibrating and they could hear the tanks coming closer and closer they me this was a liberation. so of course they were almost starving even if you kitchen area where my mother was working. there were still a couple of us cards that were. in the cars for trying to stop them and as. the bullets came in right she and it sentiment in my house and it came through. clothes from and the next. and then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. i was the most serious. at the moment when the bullet came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming. so this was a terrible experience just to see david you've. made it. she said 5 years. off the spill. driving. it is. literally. in the air when it's. c

was in. the heart of love although i think so i mean it was i think my parents like they did the best they could with what they had available to them at the time you know like my mom came to the u.s. when she was like 22 my dad was like you know i think his sense of identity was very like. there was a lot of upheaval there because like they were young they were babies and they were immigrants and you know like they look at it and they sounded like to be in a still today we're dealing with this idea of like who is allowed to be american and what do they look like and what do they sound like and for my family it was a major struggle to sort of try to you know whether it was good or bad but like tried to assimilate my sister and i so that we were sort of protected from that what they felt like it was an onslaught when dad was it's like a very typical i'm going through my dad was a chemical engineer or smart guy and what he was able to do in the u.s. was drive trucks and be a chauffeur and people treated him as such you know and so like so this day when i when i'm you know because now i have this jo

>> i was i was nervous and even though i deejayed for them.and did the inaugural ball, there was something about, like, in that setting where i'm like really at home, like this is my kitchen. >> jimmy: wow. >> i'm deejaying in my kitchen and something that i was doing in my kitchen was able to touch the world, like it was just beautiful. it was beautiful >> jimmy: it really was a great thing. i loved it so much it was the hashtag #clubquarantine is what everyone was calling it. >> yes >> jimmy: and it was the number one worldwide trend. >> wow [ laughter ] >> jimmy: it was just -- did you like get nervous when the numbers started going up and you kept seeing all those hearts flying around, like -hiw. so, it was the average person. then there was kelly rowland, and it was - but kelly -- they had been there and they were like cheering it on, like oh my gosh, because we had never maxed 25,000 it was like let's see if we can get it to 30 oh, my gosh. we're at 30, and it just kept climbing [ laughter ] when it reached like -- it was 98,000 people,

i was happy with a used bike. it worked well with a new swing, i didn't have a new schwinn but i had a used bike that i greased that baby up every day and it function. >> can you share some words of wisdom about navigating external changes and making them work in yourfavor ? >> i think for sure you just education, it's understanding what you're talking about. making sure you have every avenue to figure out and then take the rest to make a decision to go one way and if it doesn't work, change your mind and come out with a different way. flexible. lexical, flexibility and understandinxtra time to make sure our back office was clean all the way through and a couple times they work but for the most part would talk ab and you write a lot about why marketing was important to you and not just marketing but also public relations and public speaking. could you talk about that as a business leader? >> those were all learnable things. they really are learnable things. and i learned about marketing for instance, i learned abou

a little bit scarce was it did the hosts have a heart of love although i think so i mean it was i think my parents like they did the best they could with what they had available to them at the time you know like my mom came to the us when she was like 22 my dad was like you know i think his sense of identity was very like. there was a lot of upheaval there because like they were young they were babies and they were immigrants and you know like we're dealing with this idea of like who is allowed to be american and what did they look like and what did they sound like and for my family it was a major struggle to sort of try to you know whether it was good or bad but like tried to assimilate my sister and i so that we were sort of protected from that what they felt like maybe wasn't on slide it when dad was it's like a very typical immigrants from my dad was a chemical engineer or smart guy and what he was able to do in the u.s. was drive trucks and be a chauffeur and people treated him as such you know and so like to this day when i when i'm you know because now i have this job where like

one of the 1st things i was told my entire dinner was. don't worry because the marines will think that you want to sleep with them and i thought that's just ridiculous the atmosphere off the bat at marine barracks washington was was horrible people asked me what sexual favors had i performed to get my orders there. there was a senior officer in my command who the 1st time he spoke to me he said marines here are nothing but objects for the marines to. sew the men in the female shows up at my work she's a mentally ill. all of the new females get talked about how. they're having facts so i stopped all that. i mean i did it got progressively worse and worse they determined that i welcome the sexual harassment by wearing my regulation length uniform skirt and running and running shorts. there were several junior female marines that came up to me crying while i was there saying that they felt humiliated to come to work. the. one of the duties at marine barracks washington was a ceremonial drill. evening parades are what you would see on the news

as scott said i was vice chair 20 years ago. so i am a very slow rise are, 20 years to become chairman. then we mostly did national intelligence estimates, more forward-looking pieces. hard to put together. we worried were we relevant? it takes a long time to do these things and try to catch a window on the policy side. it's difficult. after the creation of the director of national intelligence, the national intelligence council is now the immediate intelligence support group for the main policy committees in washington. the principles committee, that's the cabinet secretaries involved in national security. more important, their deputies, the deputies committee. i do not think these communities -- these committees meet much anymore. during during the obama administration the deputies met every saturday often many times. the steady stream of questions that came out of those committees was great on the one hand. because we knew what was going on. we were in the thick of things. it also meant, did we have time to raise our sights a

boston i was wild i thought time. there were no gay bars which meant that the street certain streets were just filled up not with gay men wandering about and it might have seemed there was repression but it didn't feel like that in spain felt much more open people were much more ready to enjoy their lives and arlen there was always guilt or. to be described as skilled very well. honors his characters in their struggles many of which are universal. alias for instance fled poverty and suffered emotional turmoil as did millions of immigrants. to be in thinks it's important to get the setting right e.q. to pitch the times in which is characters are living. i almost think if you know in a painting or portray the work done behind the brushwork just make it color behind often does a great deal of work even though it seems like background i think if you're writing a novel set in time no matter what you do what going on in that in the either background or deep background of the society has to make its way into the novel even if

i was in that. sunanda want. to change and they came in late september and i so i was close almost 14. years to get that pertains to the place. i shown them and forget in my life because i was like an ethic looking over what a statement played. and i witness many sounds. horrible horrible. looking down. and bullets time. sometimes of people who tried to escape the. hiding place was under the bed each was. cut out. when they found that. they had they came with gemini and their. he took us out. and they were bringing other people from the hiding. and we knew it was a major shock to us that i dare. to go. there my father. never saw. my little sister. and. the kids. impassable today's. when you have such a horrible experiences as a youngster it's left to fear some kind of fear. that you can't at a normal person would not even on the stand. because those horrible things what i have see in the skeletons of those people. and only dead looked around was dead to death. so i have them etched there is no doubt about it if i

engage the ball so that i knew there was around chamber all i could do was continue to concentrate on breathing slam my head against a concrete wall and very forcefully had sex with me and i just went to my tent pulled a sleeping bag over my head and cried myself to sleep so within the 2 week period while he raped me 5 times we got tested. i had tricked and. gonorrhea and i was pregnant. he did. rape me. and 991 in congressional testimony it was estimated that 200000 women had been sexually assaulted so far in the u.s. military if you take into account that women don't report because of the extreme retaliation and that was you know more than a decade ago i would say you could easily double that number and it's probably somewhere near about half a 1000000 women have now been sexually assaulted in the u.s. military. you. live. play. live. live. live. live. oh. play. live. live claim. and very well continue watching on since last. we're feeding our hopes our dreams or our money to compete this creates a war do we get back to you know like that's that's a bad deal. jumping out of this wee

was zone between me and the boat. i took care of a man where a truck rolled over the mountain and crushed him williams airworthy it was full of blood and i clawed it out with my hands and it just filled back. and then bubbles broke and then there was nothing i could do he was dead. going through that. tore me to pieces. you. worried. that. her. brother did. see him. being a very. in order to function in combat and you know this a rational response would be to get the hell there but we cannot be rational so we have to set aside our rational human response and then having cut all those feelings all off you know your sense to it because if you don't you just start screaming that one day and the middle of it and you won't stop i went out to a track in 2009 and we got bombed every thursday they went lop off rock allow rock rock around some more rounds whatever happened one night one of those rounds hit $34.00 guys and. i think one of them survived i really remember because kind of hurt my memory with the math and everything

i was ready i probably i had just written a novel so i was sort of free. and the idea of working with him and learning something and actually looking at the form of screenplay and thinking about actors and we had a very good time both of us doing this a lot of the time we wrote together i mean literally together i mean we would be opposite one another to talk or no not listen to this he said no no no you're actually right this right this to try this and i was just kind of at that for hours and people were stranded. people were staying with me saying she was maddie's because there how you don't even listen to each other. so far we turn to montauk has been tobin's only foray into the world of he's currently working on a new novel got one of the 1st also if you've read when you were young once too much money and now he told me that he of writing a novel thought too much money can you tell me a little bit more about it when i was a teenager you were nobody in my world if you know you weren't watching grounds films and reading the magic mountain and you know th

i was there. us. >> i remember jesse eisenberg, who i adore, said to me, are we going to be able to see the audience? i'm like, yeah. they're right there. >> jimmy: at one point in the production did he realize that? >> um, i think he asked like right before we were going to have an audience. >> jimmy: really? oh, well, we didn't do a great job of preparing. well, he did great. you did great. the whole thing was fantastic. >> thank you. >> jimmy: you had fun doing it? >> i had a great time. >> jimmy: do you get distracted by the audience? >> i remember one time i was doing a show at the lincoln center. really a great show but it had its problems. in the audience right in front of us was ethan hawke and james franco and they didn't really like the show obviously because they were like this throughout the whole thing. [ laughter ] guys, really? put your actor face on. >> jimmy: you could see them that well? >> yes. that well. they put them right there. >> jimmy: well, at least they came to the show,

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i was scared. and i just... i was mortifieand afraid of what this was gonna do to my family, d... you know, i still was in love with bill at the time. um... so i just -- i felt really respsible. >> had you seen that before? >> no, i hadot. >> so, in your book, you wrote that you deeply regret tiat you took on the lewinsky phase of the invtion, but at the same time, 20 years later,'t you diee that there was any practical alternative to doing so. explain at. >> well, we just chatted about there was no one else in the wings that jano could have reached out to.pr so as tical matter, it was us. but it was her judgment. we recommend that we take it on, so the -- but the buck really does stop with janet reno. i dcommended it, but she ha the choice of saying, "it shouldn't be investigated at all." but she did the right thing. she knew that it had to be investigated. as sad and tragic from a human perspective as this was and monica's distress -- i mean, her -- her anguish, considering taking her own le, i mean, this is a human tragedys anute human tragedy. unfortunately, the criminal laws w

of too much as i was destroying it. i have mom to my cities days for centuries the company of my country transferring dollars until the day i mean. not i done to leave don's april and. 2 this is ditto the news line from berlin italy sets a grim record in its struggle against the corona virus almost 1000 people have died there in the past 24 hours from covert 19 of the highest daily death toll in any country since the outbreak began also coming up south korea has been called a role model for flattening its coronavirus curse but fears of a 2nd wave of infections are growing as the country reports end up taken cases.

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and that was the 1st on my parents realize that i wasn't expecting to ever see someone who was i thought that no one else did look like me because that was the environment i grew up in my father also has this immigration story his father was a jewish child refugee from germany but within a generation he dissimulated into britishness you know he married an english lady my grandmother i don't think anyone ever asked my father or their siblings his siblings growing up about you know his immigration status or what the impact of their immigration had been in britain or where he was really from but my mother because of my mother's heritage that people ask those very questions about me it's that visible blackness that may soon really british you must have another story right and my logic was well if it's because of my mother that people treat me differently then if i go to my mother's country then i'll i'll solve all my problems just go to garner and be going to n. and i live happily ever after and so it is a little bit of a shock to the system well the 1st thing that happened when i went and i

and i was watching myself to see if i could read in the mirror what i could be and whether i was good enough, on whether all the things i told about myself wereto true. to be a young woman is to face your own annihilation in innumerable ways. or to flee at, or the knowledge of it, or all of those things at once. the death of a beautiful woman is unquestionably the most political topic in the world that edgar allan poe. who must not have imagined it from the perspective of women who preferred to live. i was trying not to be the subject of someone else's poetry and not get killed. i was trying to find a poet of my own with no maps, no guides, not much to goo on. they might have been out there but i had not located them yet. i struggle to find a poetry which is rather survival rather than your defeat is celebrated. perhaps to find your own voice and to insist upon that or at least to find a way to find a way amongst -- it's work that many and most women young women have to do. in those early years i did not do it particularly well or clearly, but i did it ferociously.ro [applause] [appla

when i was in high school i was impressed with the marines but i met. a colonel that used to run laps around the truck after soccer practice and he said he'd be perfect for the marine corps has a really smart with the marine corps needs the professionalism the camaraderie everything about it inspired me. after i graduated. i left for orlando florida which was the 1st time i was ever on an airplane and a life. initially it was just wanting to go see the world because i'm from a really small town i had a college scholarship to go play basketball but i instead opted to go into the military. you know what i chose to do. i come from a long line of military when we had somebody from every generation on both sides of the family all the way to the revolutionary war i had served in the armed forces and i chose the marine corps because no one in my family had ever done that. well of putting on a uniform every day and you know just getting out there and giving it my all and it's a very proud feeling. that i would have done the camp and it was create the camaraderi

>> i was scared to death. i was scared to death. i didn't say it out loud even to myself for six months after this happened. >> reporter: did you rape kim dorsey? >> no, i did not. >> reporter: did you murder kim dorsey? >> no, i did not. no, i did not. when i took her life, it was totally unintentional. >> reporter: not true, countered the state on cross. it said lance kirkpatrick intentionally killed kim when she dared to confront him. >> you were pounding on that woman, weren't you? >> i wasn't aware of how hard or how light i was punching. i was just swinging. >> you did kill kim dorsey, right? >> yes, i did. >> when you stabbed kim dorsey in the neck, she would never walk this earth again, right? >> i didn't know she was dead until after i checked. >> reporter: there are people, law enforcement, prosecutor, people have heard the story who think that what you say happened that day are just totally far-fetched. >> they're far-fetched. they took this bloody horrible scene and just thought of the worst possible thing that could have

at that not that and that was the devil that i add. that. for more than 10 years salman rushdie was a hunted man living in hiding with a false identity and under police protection. the front walk calling for his execution was issued in 1989 following the publication of his book the satanic verses which was considered blasphemous. with the threat of death hanging over him rushdie changed his address 56 times during those 10 years and was the target of some 20 assassination attempts. but that's all behind him now rushdie has left england and settled in new york where he has lived for almost 20 years. i was born in what was then called bombay india in june 1970 that's to say exactly age weeks to the day before the end of the british empire. my father used to told this joke which i think he told slightly too many times. about how i was born an 8 weeks later the british. in a way it's a bit weird were easy to see it will be interesting it was i remember my childhood as being very happy. i came from a non observant muslim family you know that relig

my my first experience of having a mentor when i was 19 i was working ina mentor when i was 19 i was i had met who was interested in me and helping me develop me. now the mentor i have is really helping me to look at how i need to change as my roles change and what i need to do in terms of providing that leadership to the organisation. the mentor doesn't have to come from a charity background or understand the charity or the business. the importance is that the chemistry as they are with the mentor and you feel able to trust them and you are able to feel vulnerable with them because you are not going to benefit if you are not able to share your fears. i will talk to my mentor about the priorities i have at the moment, the number of challenges i am working through, at the mentor will help me boil down to how i as the chief executive can make the most impact with the time i have. that is part of our ceo secrets series. you can see more on the website. with the new james bond movie see more on the website. with the newjames bond movie postponed we we re newjames bond movie postponed we w

>> i don't think there was a day that i didn't question what i was involved in at least very quietly. but i also met people along the way that challenged me not in an aggressive way or telling me i was wrong but just through a lived experience and getting to know them. i opened up a record store to sell racist music i was making and importing and a small section of hip-hop and punk and heavy metal never expecting anybody to come in to buy those things. it was just me saying i want to open a record store but i couldn't go in there to tell them i was going to make mafia music and people came in, people of color, people from the lgbtq community and it was the first time i had an interaction with people i kept out of my social circle and i recognized pretty quickly once that happened that actually i respected him more and liked them more and more than the people i surrounded myself with for eight years. eventually i became embarrassed to sell the music, i pulled it from the shelves and it was 90% of my revenue so i had to close the stores. that gave me an opportunity to really disengage f

i was on the sidewalk. i was also furious. my: you disrobed angrily. >> i didn't see anything but bumps, but i knew it was bed bugs. and they could have been in my hair. if she had an electric razor i would have shaved. and i was on "new girl" at the time. it wouldn't have been a great moment. >> jimmy: bad continuity. >> i was genuinely furious. she throws a little tarp on me with underpants. i drive to urgent care, get to the doctor and go hey, doc, what's going on. he goes you tell me. i've got bedbugs, man, and i need some sort of cream to kill them because i've got young kids. he goes you don't have bedbugs, you idiot, this is a food allergy. [ laughter ] so i'm just taking it easy right now with corona. >> jimmy: what were you allergic to? >> i'm allergic to wheat and dairy and the whole press tour i had beer and pizza. i went home i was going to get my luggage, it was in the disgusting trash. i'm like i'm an idiot. >> jimmy: did you pull it out or -- >> i was in such a furious mood when i took it all off. >> jimmy: that'

the day i was born. this is after he discovered i had a type of dwarfism which a few years later, they found out was a very rare type of dwarfism. i like to think my parents would have done that anyway, take me home and treat me like everybody else but the affirmation is always nice. you may not think that was a big deal but back in the 60s, people who were born with a disability were not treated like everybody else. to some extent, that is true today, unfortunately. the things that have definitely improved. i didn't know i was any different. until i went to kindergarten. my "big brother" had gone to school and i was ready. my mom got me dropped off, i walked on the health like i owned the place, i went in the classroom and my teacher told me to go in a circle and play with the kids until class started. so i did that, i went over and plopped myself down and got right into it. it didn't take but a few minutes and the boy next to me, i remember like it was yesterday. he said in a very loud voice, hey, why a

>> oh, she was okay, i guess. >> was that harsh? should know, has firmly rooted religious beliefs. >> i tried to lead all of my children to the love of jesus christ. >> it was an article of don's brand of faith. a mother should be at home with her kids. >> i was really pretty frustrated that she had them over in day care and that she was working full-time. >> reporter: mh-mm. >> i didn't like it. >> but of course, it wasn't the only thing he didn't like about rachel's job. there was also "him." >> the first thought i had was, you know, "wow, what a beautiful woman." and i still remember what she was wearing. i remember the way her hair was. >> his name is james white. former-marine. gun enthusiast. airpark handyman. >> she was just the most perfectly nice, most beautiful woman i've ever met. i couldn't get her off my mind. >> intoxicated by a married woman. well, no good can come of that. >> coming up. >> i wanted to get out of that marriage as soon as possible, because i wanted to be with rachel. >> the attraction was mutual. and t

job was a miter what i couldn't understand what he was telling me of all claw but when i saw that tiny profile photo of him and clicked on it it looked horrible as all your . concerned then saw that flag is in that was like final level. his daughter leonora was 15 years old at the time her parents had separated some years earlier mike who runs a bakery in a small town in eastern germany had recently remarried was that the reason for leonora's disappearance had she felt like a 3rd wheel mike didn't know. to those around her she had seemed like a typical teenager interested in boys and beauty products desperate for clues to help make sense of it all mike searched leonora's room he found her diary and was confronted with a parallel existence one dominated by islam and in which his daughter was wearing a headscarf. he found photos on her computer which showed her hidden transformation. mike hadn't noticed a finger and blamed himself. with this you keep coming back to yourself and ask why for what process or for why more for for what is or. young girls in germany have been systematically re

i was a navy diver. so my i did primarily as submarine rescue and i worked on actually had a really cool job in the navy. but undiagnosed mental illness was a major part of why ended up homeless. these girls back in here. a minute ok. you can totally mean you can get in there. i've got my d.n.a. so you know if you're drugs you know at the ready and i haven't missed a dose of my medication since i've been given it and i just really like. ok i mean i can i can write lists now and like realistically see a list through in a day. call people back. whether i'm going to make an appointment or not. it sucks it's terrible it's no you know nobody should have to live like this. but at the same time i have i do have a roof over my head and 4 walls 'd and organic heaters you know what i mean i will never go cold. and on never not get my hugs for a day i'm clear about the fact my hands out and my hat's off and i need some help. you know and when i'm in a position to like reach out and help somebody else but your ass i'

when i was 16, someone gave me a -- d which was a goal gold-mapped. opened that book i saw a of f art andces shoes. thought, i had been drawing without knowing it was actually beautiful. ♪ >> there were five hundred shoes shown here at the exposition. -- exhibition. tell us your favorite, a shoe that has been important to y yo. >> many shoes. it is complicated to stick to one. the first one has been important because the first one was making part of the design i called the logbirds. if one dies the other one is not staying alive. it d dies immedidiately after. the shoes are two shoes that you put together and when they are joined, the design appears itself. if youou separated it t is not t same design.n. the first one is called love. when he joined the feed you have written love. it is flatat shoes that i desigd in 1991. it is the only pairs of shoes that i was selling the entire year. ♪ >> we see your nudes collection. shoes that match the skin color of different people. where did the idea come from? nudes isea about the coming from a conversation i

remember the other memory i have was when i finally did walk out all those volunteer cops were nowhere in sight all of a sudden there was like 12 smoky big. around me and circling me moving everyone out of the way. it was like almost you got taken over you know you got taken over. or. it was a case in this election where where. we really were a loose knit group. just as i said if you if you saw behind the scenes when i made the statement the night we won the world if you would have been behind the scenes you would have truly understood what that statement said. world because. we had people. speak. to me. when cash did. quote shock. and that's how i felt that night i felt. nobody gave us a chance but we did it. it's a. ask i wouldn't. take i've. not got the feeling. is someone who. can you look who's. trying to make the see because the ones who. don't want to have the kook on the scene do it in the out now as you had checked on . this with the football team. and you'll do is to move on to the snakes to learn in order to try not to do higher commodity tied to using to d